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Please bear with me. My boy, Max, posted here a while ago, in regards to me, and he's trying to push me more into having conversations with others about my own doubts with multiplicity.
When I was young, I began studying other religions, and I really became interested in spirituallity. Along the way, I discovered two others living within. Really, this is just background information, so no know thinks I'm trying to troll or rag on the community. I've been aware of my own multiplicity for a number of years. I also see my multiplicity as a means to my own personal spirituallity. That is, I don't have a set religion, but I see the presence of and communication with my system as being a self-enlightening, holy experience.
I see this huge resurgance of multiples on the internet, and it makes me skeptical. NOT, because of the fact that their multiples. I wouldn't call someone out on being a "fake". But, the way some of these systems carry on, it makes me wonder how they can reasonably function.
I'm going to point the finger at soulbonding, because it seems to be the means of multiplicity that houses the greatest number of loonies. I can accept, per se, that another has entered your system, and is a bad influence, and perhaps is forcing your body and system down a bad path. I can not, however, accept that this entity causing harm is, say, Sephiroth from the Final Fantasy games. That, is insane. Final Fantasy is fiction. It may very well be an entity that projects images OF Sephiroth into your mind, but part of gaining some feasible aspect of functional control over yourselves, is seeing through the bullshit.
I have trouble with people who play INTO that bullshit, by extension. Not only do they seem to be the loudest group of loons, but they're also impossible to have a reasonable discussion with. Everything boils down to "it's different for everyone", which is great for upholding any kind of deluded fantasy that you might have, but really, isn't productive for conversation.
Especially...if you're attempting to learn something, or see if they have a reason to act the way that they do.
Are there any rational, sane soulbonds, here? If so, do they honestly believe that they're fictional characters? This seems to be the most levelheaded community about plurality on LJ that we can find, so I figure it would be the best place to start.
When I was young, I began studying other religions, and I really became interested in spirituallity. Along the way, I discovered two others living within. Really, this is just background information, so no know thinks I'm trying to troll or rag on the community. I've been aware of my own multiplicity for a number of years. I also see my multiplicity as a means to my own personal spirituallity. That is, I don't have a set religion, but I see the presence of and communication with my system as being a self-enlightening, holy experience.
I see this huge resurgance of multiples on the internet, and it makes me skeptical. NOT, because of the fact that their multiples. I wouldn't call someone out on being a "fake". But, the way some of these systems carry on, it makes me wonder how they can reasonably function.
I'm going to point the finger at soulbonding, because it seems to be the means of multiplicity that houses the greatest number of loonies. I can accept, per se, that another has entered your system, and is a bad influence, and perhaps is forcing your body and system down a bad path. I can not, however, accept that this entity causing harm is, say, Sephiroth from the Final Fantasy games. That, is insane. Final Fantasy is fiction. It may very well be an entity that projects images OF Sephiroth into your mind, but part of gaining some feasible aspect of functional control over yourselves, is seeing through the bullshit.
I have trouble with people who play INTO that bullshit, by extension. Not only do they seem to be the loudest group of loons, but they're also impossible to have a reasonable discussion with. Everything boils down to "it's different for everyone", which is great for upholding any kind of deluded fantasy that you might have, but really, isn't productive for conversation.
Especially...if you're attempting to learn something, or see if they have a reason to act the way that they do.
Are there any rational, sane soulbonds, here? If so, do they honestly believe that they're fictional characters? This seems to be the most levelheaded community about plurality on LJ that we can find, so I figure it would be the best place to start.
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Date: 2005-08-09 07:04 pm (UTC)And I do have to point out the irony of posting with an Aeris icon... it made me squee with happiness.
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Date: 2005-08-09 07:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-09 07:24 pm (UTC)I am Faith Alana Alastair, I have a middle and a last name, unlike the fictional character I resemble...big shit, I look like someone else...lots of people get mistaken for other people...I hold no illusions that I'm a slayer, or anything else...I chose the name Faith for myself, because I identified with aspects of the charrie...lots of people choose names for similar reasons...
I didn't mean to rant, but I wanted to say that before anybody else from my system said anything, because someone has brought it up before(someone on this comm, not in my system)and it's like an author's note, y'know?
anyway.
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Rick here: I believe that soulbonds exist...as for them being "fictional characters", I don't believe so. It seems to me to be a bit like writing fan fiction...I take buffy, who Joss Whedon created, and change her around, and make her into someone different. If someone has a Buffy, or a Sulu, or a Rory, or a Draco, or whatever, then imho, it just means that this "basis" or "backround" started someone who now has a life of their own...emotions, thoughts, whathaveyou.
Just my two cents.
Rick and Faith
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Date: 2005-08-09 07:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-09 07:38 pm (UTC)Ni) There is or was one person in here whose entire past is/was fictional, with only one bridge to reality in the form of a computer game. While he wasn't necessarily sane, he prided himself on his rationality--for the purposes of the entry though, he wouldn't necessarily count, as Ay) the computer game which defined his prior world was without story or plot (specifically: Creatures 3, which deals with artificial life), and Bee) his identity and his past did not originate in any brain other than this.
In any case, I cannot communicate with him at present.
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Date: 2005-08-09 07:40 pm (UTC)Multiple individuals sharing a single brain and body, obviously, is something I do accept since that's the way that I am. But for me individually to accept that one can travel between bodies, visit, or channel fictional characters, I would need to believe in the concept of a soul, which I do not.
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Date: 2005-08-09 07:59 pm (UTC)You are NOT going to make a great many 'rational sane SoulBonds' particularly eager to help you by calling them bullshit, and a delusion.
Selene IS Selene. It is that simple. I don't care who on this planet says "Oh but Underworld is fiiiictiooooon." I accept that there may be different ways of SoulBonding occuring. I don't think that they invalidate the fact that Selene is who she says she is.
Is she THE Selene? No. There is no such thing as 'The Selene'. There's just Selene(s).
A bit of advice. If you seriously want people to tell you about a subject, don't start off by saying it's insane and bullshit. It will not get you far.
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Date: 2005-08-09 08:01 pm (UTC)Now, that conversation wanders all over the place, but there are some useful links and, I think, some useful information found there, though it doesn't contribute to the main--I don't know if there are any rational, sane soulbonds period.
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Date: 2005-08-09 08:17 pm (UTC)Back then we believed that characters just "came in" because we didn't really understand ourselves, nor did we know better.
Now, after many years of work, we still have characters "come in" so to speak...but it is more the fact that others that were lurking in the shadows (shadowpeople) have decided to take on the guise of those characters. We believe that that is because certain characters are seen as strong or appealing somehow and that makes the shadowpeople more secure with themselves. We don't discourage this practice because it helps with the overall well-being of our system. Occasionally it is a bit disturbing to see a character show up, or an old character morph into a completely different one (throwing off the guise for someone new), but we learn to live with it. It's part of the process that keeps us alive and well and relatively sane.
Fictional characters are fictional...if you choose to look like one, does that make you them? No, it can't. You can act look, act, walk, talk, and eat like the fiction, but in the end only you are the reality, no matter what you call yourself or who you look like.
Just our opinion. ^^
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Date: 2005-08-09 08:50 pm (UTC)Also, I think that if "soulbonding" is working for some then who am I to discount it. I mean, some people believe in God...yet I have never seen Him and cannot to a fact PROVE that he exists.
So, if others want to believe that they are so-and-so, who am I to question otherwise...it might be therapeutic for their system selves to believe in "soulbonding". In that case, let them be.
I have my ways of coping and living and so do they...they just aren't the same ways, that's all. ^__~
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Date: 2005-08-09 08:54 pm (UTC)Soulbonding is a confusing, but interesting topic...
Personally, I think reading/writing/playing games/tv etc can 'trigger' the coming out or the development of a multiple.
Like, my girl Wendy...she is five, and obsessed with Peter Pan. She does not know her real name but picked Wendy for lack of one, and pretends she comes from NeverNeverLand just because she likes it. We have both done some searching however and we have a theory that she might actually be Kiana, a character we wrote in a sci-fi rpg. In her case, even though I did not notice her till after, I think her presence was felt by the subconcious, and we patterned a character after her - not the other way around.
In the same way, I think fictional characters can appeal to multiples that have not announced their presence or feel isolated so have not come out much - the body experiences one life, one set of experiences. Yet all those inside - we know that the body's experiences and life do not necessarily represent our own.
So when we come across a character that matches our feelings, or use our impressions to make up a background, in a sense our personality gains an identity to go along with it.
It does not mean that Cloud has jumped out of a video game, but it could mean that Cloud's pas life experiences make more sense than the body's in the formation of personality.
Which brings up a philosophical question - are fictionally created experiences any less real to a person than memories crafted on physical experience? A memory is a memory. If I remember climbing a mountain, is it any less real than a friend's memory of riding a bike? Both are in the past.
The society we live in is very big on one mind, one body, one personality, one set of experiences. Yet it also holds to a school of thought that our experiences make us who we are, more than any internal factors.
Yet here so many of us are - many identities, one physical body - human memory is a complex entity. If our experiences shape who we are, than it would follow somewhat logically that different people would have different experiences.
I think in the case of 'soulbonding' - people just find another person whose experiences and possibly personality seem to empathize and connect with their own.
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Date: 2005-08-09 09:34 pm (UTC)I had a character (in the same RPG) patterned after me. Same name (well, Dat, not Datharin, but who really calls me Datharin apart from Kay, Jessiah and Decimy anyway?), same physical characteristics except his hair was green not blue, and originally the same personality. Obviously we both grew and changed since then, making us quite different sometimes, or more the same. In the end I think he ended up pretty similar to me again. That is, a ruddy great arsehole. haha.
Not that I'd ever blow up a couple of starships in an attempt to escape prison, but, y'nno.
I am hijacking D's journal.
Date: 2005-08-09 09:30 pm (UTC)What does it matter anyway? Why do you have such a bee in your bonnet about people with identities analogous to fiction - you've been wailing about this on
I am trying my damn best not to be too insulting here, but I am tired of hearing this. My advice? Don't worry about other people's reality. If you don't 'believe in' soulbonding, don't associate with those who do, and for gods' sake don't try to evangelize to them about the 'delusional nature' of their beleifs. It's as irritating as a Jehovah's Witness at the door before sunrise.
-L.
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Date: 2005-08-09 09:58 pm (UTC)I think my problem with soulbonding--since the only one I can speak of accurately is myself--is that I'm both a slash writer and a member of the real vampire community. And in BOTH communities, we get a lot of people raving about fantastic experiences. The fourteen-year old who claims to be Dracula and wants to "turn" everyone. The fourteen-year-old who wants to cross Harry Potter and Final Fantasy, and uses lots of sexual interaction between Mary Sue characters to do it. They're actually more similar than you think--both tend to be delusional, and really need thwapped with some large blunt object so they will calm the hell down.
Coming from a place where the status quo is nine delusions for one honest process, it's beyond easy for me to be judgemental. I looked up soulbonding pages on the net and everything I saw was written in fractured Japanese with sprinkles of English, had big fluffy graphics, and was generally irritating as hell. I probably gave up long before I should have, but now I have this hotbutton in my head that says "soulbonding=kawaii catgirl" and I really didn't want to reinforce that any further.
I suppose it doesn't help that I view myself as insane, for many, many things that I believe in. I suppose if I came from a place that said, it's normal to be this way, and these behaviors are perfectly acceptable, I might be better off.
Again, not speaking for the original poster, just myself.
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Date: 2005-08-10 08:43 am (UTC)(mostly) off the soulbond thing...
Date: 2005-08-10 12:20 am (UTC)For me this goes for about anything on the 'net, although I don't know if I'd call it a -re-surgeance per se. I think the internet encourages specific modes of interaction (one being the journal/blog with or without comments enabled, and the other being the alt.* Usenet ethos that's bled over into LJ communities and other corners of the net) where it's a lot easier to find the people who are either newly-emerged whatevers (breastfeeding mums, polyamorists, multiples, Harley lovers) or the radical heavily involved sort-of - elite.
'Cause that tends to be when people are really *really* verbal about things; once one's life settles down to fairly regular every day living, the attraction of arguing about it decreases some. Of course there are a lot of people in the middle simply by virtue of being mouthy and liking that style (like me!) but they don't always set the *tone* of things.
Also the 'net remains skewed somewhat young, demographically - particularly something like a LJ community.
It's one reason I think it's a two-edged sword that people are now learning about multiplicity from the 'net. Yay, that it doesn't always have to go through the survivor/sensational publishing/media mill. Yay that people can interact. But at the same time, if people don't realize that the tone of online communities doesn't always match the reality of multiples within the broader real-world community, it can just create new stereotypes. Sigh. Minorities suck that way, to be in one. :-)
On another tangent - I know there's a lot of crossover between multiplicity and soulbonding, but I know about that >< much about soulbonding. I don't think you were saying they are always together but I thought I'd say so. :)
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Date: 2005-08-10 12:37 am (UTC)I mean, you talk about carrying on and being unable to function. Some of it made the melodramatics on
Anyway, to return to the original topic. My understanding was that not everyone on
I don't think anyone in here believes that they're a fictional character. I think some people believe they might have come from a parallel universe in which there was someone like that character, or someone experienced events similar to theirs. Some of them think maybe they based themselves off a particular person. Nobody has ever 'forced their way in.'
I'll definitely concede that this is something that one may want to keep under wraps when talking to psychologists, the media, etc., if it's part of one's system. At worst, though, even if someone is just making stuff up, it's a relatively benign fantasy; I haven't seen it ruin anyone's life to the extent that the incompetence and misdiagnoses of the 80s and 90s did with many. I suspect most of the worst instigators in the sort of antics you mention will just eventually outgrow it and move on.
It's worth noting that 'oh noes my character is taking over' games and jokes are pretty pervasive and usually facetious-- a lot of writers and roleplayers throw these around. OTOH, these aren't people who claim to be multiple-- if the person(s) in question really are a system, I agree that they need to get their act together and keep it that way.
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Date: 2005-08-10 04:59 am (UTC)Jenilee
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Date: 2005-08-10 02:57 am (UTC)here's what we mean when we use the word, and maybe it'll sort some stuff out for you.
everything you need to know about construct building, you can learn in a method acting class. combine it with a multiples natural understanding of space behind the eyes, and viola.
you can read about it in celebrity interviews too. angelina jolie described it in vanity fair two months ago.
our 'constructs' are unawakened non-selfaware collections of personality traits. we used to call them the 'partial people'. some of us used to be these people and at some point, crossed the gap and became self aware.
im sure construct building systems are all different in every way possible, but here, they usually get 'modeled' after someone or something, or perhaps more then one. here, we have enough constructs to triple our population count if we counted them as 'personalities'. some are based on movie or story personas. we have 'morpheus'. (from the matrix, yo) and we know how our 'pervert behind the giant curtain' gets constructs to awaken. 3 of our 4 active responsibles are from this pool, but if 'morpheus' got woken up, he'd probabaly believe he was morpheus, or he might just know his personality is wired to resemble the character's.
in another system, people might be given the belief that they 'are' said person. i have problems with the morality of construct makers who use this tactic. Here, our facers got untrue beliefs when they came to be, and while it worked for them then, alot of em are pretty fubar now. (discovering that everything you know and believe is a lie, is apparently a rattling experience).
So, moving on, confronting 'sephiroth' on his 'unlikely' story. you might as well confront ethiopian orphans on not having parents like normal kids do. they're the way they are.
now about bigotry. im getting to really not even see posts that call all multiplicity faking. but apparently, people that start out as spooge-cocktails, them 'grow' like some tumor-like vegetable in a big water-bag in some other person, then get squeezed out someones pisshole, (with no skull in their head so it can 'smoosh' thru a hole half its size), ripping said pisshole apart, usually leaving permanent scars. out comes a slimey thing that looks more like sigourney weaver's 'aliens' then a person. that said, people who were born like this ACCUSE THE WAY PEOPLE LIKE ME WERE BORN AS BEING WIERD!
its a fucking joke to watch multiples take the same bigotist attitude against other multiples. that system isn't trauma based, so what. this system is walk-ins, so what. this other system produced members consciously and responsibly, big whoopity do.
if a solo act wants to spawn multiple consciousnesses and have headmates of his own, then how is he a faker if he accomplishes it?
And how many 'fakers' are really dissassociative singlets that tried hard to split, and just failed?
and yeah, the internet had spawned a pisstail of multiples to come out. get on the previous logs and see if 7 days in a row have ever passed without someone explaining their system, asking if all us 'multiples' are the same way they are.
internet == multiples are no longer isolated and alone, not knowing why theres noone like them, not knowing why they talk to people who arent there, not knowing anyone else like this, and entertaining accusations of insane if they ever admit themselves to anyone they know, and being forced to 'live in the closet' their entire life.
yeah, id like the ignorant masses to take multiplicity more seriously and drop the 'they're not like us so they're crazy/inferior/not worthy/whatever' attitude they have (which is what makes them bigots), but why should multiples 'hide themselves' any more then they already have to? so please don't blame the walkins, soulbonders, otherkins, cross-genders, or anyone else for the obvious problem you describe, since they didn't create the damn problem.
anyways, i hope i don't sound too bitchy.
-some sort of combo between our cross-gender, our webdemon, and our amphibian
(P.S. sephy can hang out at my place anytime, but only if he lets me touch his cul sword-o-main-character-slaying)
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Date: 2005-08-10 03:50 am (UTC)But when someone says imaginary friend they start being afraid that people are going to think they're childish or disbelieve them. That's where the ideas of alternate dimensions and different realities and astral travelling comes in. It's a way for people to convince themselves and others that the character is Real. We've seen people who couldn't accept the voice in their head as long as there was any possibility that the voice could be part of their imagination or originated from their psyche but as soon as they latched onto the idea of the voice being great awesome character who walked in from another universe then everything was fine and dandy. Then the soulbonding community met the multiple community and found a whole new type of real that they immediately wanted to attach to their soulbonds as well. (Funny how you find a lot of soulbonders who claim their soulbonds are just as real as the people in multiple systems but you never see them claiming that the soulbonds are just as real as their neighbor Bob who lives across the street.)
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Date: 2005-08-10 06:30 am (UTC)I'll claim such until the cows come home. Then again, my view of 'Reality' is a lot more fluid than most people's, and I'm about as sure of my own existence as I am of Bob's or anyone else's - system member, soulbond or not.
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Date: 2005-08-10 03:50 am (UTC)Similarly, not all of the soulbonders who claim to be multiple really are. They’ve either jumped the bandwagon or gotten confused by terminology that sounds similar but really isn’t. It’s very common to hear people talk about their soulbonds fronting when a lot of them describe very different experiences and fewer seem to really grasp the concept. Anyone who wanders into this community looking to explore the possibility that they could be multiple will always find an affirmative answer. Sometimes the soulbonders are really multiple but they’ve been using the concept of soulbonding and the image of fictional characters to relate to their system members. Sometimes it’s hard for those people to let go of the fictional characters because it would mean losing membership in the soulbonding community.
The bad system member causing problems is a common multiple stereotype. It’s an easy way for soulbonders to seem more multiple. It adds to the whole separate person image because the soulbonder would never want anyone to act out, or so people would assume. It’s also a way to avoid responsibility. So-and-so just happens to do all of the bad things that the soulbonder (or the multiple) wants to do but can’t. Plus it’s the type of thing that spreads and feeds on itself. No one is ever questioned and there’s always a waiting excuse. When others see the validation that this person gets, then others want to have the same experience. Eventually it becomes a community norm.
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Date: 2005-08-10 05:37 am (UTC)As for soulbonders who bond to characters they created themselves, we see that as more of the creation of a type of system member. Just like some systems can split for various reasons or create people to have purposes in the system or whatnot, I think creativity can create and develop full people in systems whether they're acknowledged as a person, a soulbond, or just a character. Some may be more along the lines of I guess a median or midcontinum if those are the right terms I'm thinking of, but anyway hopefully that makes sense too.
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Date: 2005-08-10 06:11 am (UTC)So I guess the same thing applies to fictional characters. I know a few cases of singlets becoming so obsessed with an anime character that they'll change their clothing, hairstyle, online alias, and personality just to match said character. But that does not make him the anime character he feels that he is.
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Date: 2005-08-10 07:42 am (UTC)Okay. Soulbonding=consciously or subconsciously batchfiling partial people by combining character traits. This, I understand.
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Date: 2005-08-10 11:22 am (UTC)Yes there are rational, sane soulbonds here. Some of them live in my system. Yes the ones that are here, honestly believe that they are the same fictional characters that they appear to be. That in itself doesn't make them insane, in fact one of them is probably the sanest of the lot of us. What they choose to believe about themselves is their own business. It's no more bizarre than the average religious belief.
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Date: 2005-08-10 02:58 pm (UTC)Just because you don't believe in something, doesn't mean its crazy that other people do believe in it. And you and NO fucking right to tell someone that what they believe isn't real or true. If you have even one shred of intelligence, you'd know that being a multiple comm, and given the fact that a lot of people will tie multiplicity in with SBing, that there would be people here who do believe. So why, in Gods name, would you come in here and start you BS about how you don't buy into some of the stuff the people here believe?
You know what that says to me? That says you have no respect for other people. That says you have nothing better to do with your time than to harass people and bash their personal beliefs. And people like you make me sick.
Perhaps to you. I personally believe it exists somewhere, and so do a lot of other people. So if this whole thing about infinite universes and all the "fictional" things from our world, really being out there somewhere is true, then whos to say someone couldn't have a SB of a fictional character?
I suppose theres a chance they could all be inner voices that take on the personalities of these characters, but who the hell gives a damn? If they're happy and we're happy, believing they are who they claim to be, then whats the problem? Even I'm not a perfect believing, despite having a SB that does claim to be a "fictional" character. Personally, I don't really believe theres a such thing as "fictional" but that doesn't mean I don't doubt.
Every day, I get those thoughts about whether its real. Are outsourced SBs really who they claim to be? Is SBing real at all? Sure theres that side of me that says its all bullshit, all SBers are just fooling themselves, including me. But I shove that side away and I continue to have as much faith as I can. If a SB suddenly shows up with me and swears to me they're Mickey Mouse or something, I will give them the benefit of a doubt until it is proven otherwise. And since no one can even prove SBs exist or don't exist, proving one is who they say they are is impossible. So I continue to believe them.
And actually, this post was a hell of a lot nicer than I had wanted it to be. I have no qualms about a mod getting pissed at me here, I don't post here. I just happened to check the comm last night, saw this stupid ass post, and decided to be a bitch. Because being a bitch is my best quality. And because so many of the people who left comments seemed to be trying their best to be as polite as they could. Well I say fuck that. I say if someone steps on you, stomp on them.
Have a lovely day.
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Date: 2005-08-10 10:40 pm (UTC)Yeah. I know you weren't writing to me, but being my judgemental self, I contributed to the problem...so I'm claiming my section of it.
I think, regardless of the chaos that surrounds me, my mind really wants a nice, tidy little explanation for things, neatly labeled boxes to put on neatly labeled shelves to store such ideas within. And life, much as I'd want it to be different, is not like that. It frustrates a large part of me.
Also, to be honest, much of my fiction--and I hope, some day, publishable fiction--centers around a character I would swear--and think, truthfully so--that I created, start to finish. Yet one night, several years back, my partner spent some several hours talking with her, when she took over the body. Fictional character. Walking around interacting with the world. Still can't cope with that.
And maybe that's the real reason I want to bundle everything up and dismiss it as crazy talk. Because I will go until the day I die not calling that character a 'soulbond'...but she has manifested, or fronted, or whatever the term is, and that gives her some weight, some reality. And I just don't want to deal with that.
So...for whatever that's worth...there it is. And I apologize for my part of the "stepping on".
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