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[exiled-redeemer.livejournal.com]

The first two paragraphs are coppied from our journal.

In my dream, the darkness flooded my eyes, and I screamed for my mother, and I had no voice. There were demons choking me, and twisting my body. And I just kept screaming without my voice, trying to clear my vision and make my body stop hurting. And all the while, it was as if I were in two places at once. As if I were in my kitchen, and yet still aware of my sleeping body. But before I had that dream, I swear I was having an OBE. I couldn't feel my natural body but i was well aware of my physical one. And I seriously think It was Rya who gave me the nightmares, I think she fronted and put her fear into, either that or she just put herself into the nightmares.

Now I know I asked for the nightmare, but I never expected I'd have it, and though I'm sort of glad I had it, I guess it was selfish of me. Since they shared the fear with me, and even though it didn't touch Azi or Lupa, it scared the bloody hell out of Joselyn, made Rya cry in a corner and caused Kris turmoil and terrors. So now, I feel terribly guilty and self anger.

My question is, has anyone ever done something that resulted in unintetnionally causing turmoil to another in your system by accident? And also this questions been attacking me lately. When you first discovered your were a multiple, did anyone ever have trouble in time management, allowing each some time to front, or alteast co-front? I guess my fear is that something bad will happen to the body if I let them have full control, >_< I know that makes me sound like a horrible person, but I fear for this body. Any advice? Sorry for the choppiness. It's like...1:40am and I'm still feeling a bit fuzzy.
Again thanks for giving us a place to ask questions,
-Kira


-Sistema di Raziel

Another question.

[sharpsight.livejournal.com]

For any and/or all who daydream or have daydreamed, have you perceived any effect (negative or positive) of daydreaming outside the daydream itself?

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[ex-mushroom784.livejournal.com]

thank you to everyone who responded to the entry i did over here... i did read everything, i have a habit of just absorbing things, and keeping my thoughts to myself. but i am appreciative.

the one without a name in me seems to just hate the idea of more change. she (used loosely, i don't think of her with any real gender... save for her voice, and attraction to my boyfriend) gets upset with small changes, and it affects me also... so i realize that the stress that i felt then, probably was brought on by her, if only in part.

the boyfriend and i did try a second time for a kiddo (no luck on that, but at least i didn't LOSE one either) but have agreed to not actually try again for a while. since we're a LDR, it's not that big of a problem. :)

as for trying to get permission (or whatever... not sure the right word to use here) from my inners... one (Su) doesn't seem to care either which way, she just doesn't want me sad again. the one without a name won't even talk to me about it. i THINK she'd be more likely to talk about it with my boyfriend though. there's probably an even higher chance she'd talk with an ex of our's (yes, she was with him too) if he got the chance to be the father. ugh. so yeah, this is going to be touchy for a while, but at least i've got some ideas on how to handle things. just a LITTLE bit more than before. :)

as for the chance of it possibly being a health thing in general... i know it is. my doctor told me that it's very rare i'll ever concieve (um, again, obviously), and even less possible that if i DO manage to, that i'll ever go full term. hence the need to figure this out before not too long. :/

thanks for listening to me again. i must seem whiny and stuff, which i didn't intend... sorry if i offended anyone.