Help.

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I don't know who I am anymore.

I feel as though my mind is dissolving. First Markus grew silent; a few times I was able to get him to speak, but it felt more like hotwiring a dead car than listening to him as before. Then, a different voice spoke for a while, and then faded just as quickly. I can't reach Markus any more. Ghul watches, mocking, and I know that he knows that I know that I can't trust him to tell me the truth about what he sees or what he knows. I'm fairly certain that he's unaffected, however.

My thoughts differ. My mind differs, myself differs. I differ?

I remember that I used to have a name. But I don't

I don't know what to say, what to type. I don't know what's happening.

Help. Please.