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Hi everyone. This is Kali. A while back Cassie posted about an "entity" that came into our system a couple of times (click here if you want to re-read the post). The only community We got responses from was here and We thought we'd update you on what's going on.

"Rage," as we call this entity to make things easier, has come "swopping in" a few more times since Cass posted about it. But We were still not able to communicate with it. Last night (this is on topic *LOL*) We saw "The Mothman Prohecies." we've never seen it or even heard about it before. We might have come across the legend of mothmen, but not to our recollection. Well, when they showed a picture of it, it really freaked me out. That is Rage!!! After I realized this it came out as if to confirm this. It seemed like it wanted to communicate, but it was all grunts and screams from what We could tell. But We sat and listened, and after a while we "felt" what it was trying to say. It said something to the affect of "You know not what I feel. I know many things." That was all we could get before Lynn's fiance, Keith, notice We were staring and We had to pay attention to the movie. After the movie, Keith said "you know, that mothman looks like you described your entity to me." So that just made it more weird.

We have heard of soulbonds, but is it possible to have a soulbond with a character that you've never seen or read about? Also, another possibility. Cristie and Lynn are Empaths, and some of us have other Psi abilities. The movie said that mothmen, in legend, are entities that show up before a disaster. So Keith suggested that it may have showed itself to us because of the tsunami? The Entity showed up 11 days before it happened. And maybe it just now wants to stay in our system?

We are going to research mothmen to see if other things fit. We hope that if We do figure out what it is that it will reveal itself more - or maybe get tired of us trying to catagorize it and just tell us! *LOL*

So does anyone have an opinion on what it might be? Mothman, soulbond, both, something else?

introductions and stuff

[deathwish13.livejournal.com]

HI. i am ophelia. i am the core personality. there are a few others and some fragments. mainly there is me, auto-pilot, razors, and nothing. AP is ageless and handles stuff that i can't handle all the time, mostly day-to-day living stuff, razors is 7-9 and holds all the anger and is a protector, and nothing is young, like in her teens.

recently i met razors like she was outside of my body. has anyone had this experience? she is not very nice and scares us all. she is a young succcubus-looking type creature with big black wings. she was sitting next to my bed and whispering sexual and mean things to me for most of the night, but would not respond when i tried to talk to her. she just kept jabbering.

lately i have been really stressed and i am thinking of letting AP take over the system for a while. maybe a week while i think and get some stuff straigtened out in my head. she can easily fake being me and we are co-conscious so i can direct her from within if needed. i just don't know if doing this is healthy or "right". she does not seem to mind doing it.

lately the whole system has been having problems. we go to a doctor who says that we don't seem to be dissociated, but she does not realize she is talking to AP and not me, the main core personality. she puts us on medications but it doesn't effect all of us. we are afraid to tell her about all of us because we are terrified of institutions, but we have hinted and told her of episodes of other's taking control of our body.

right now we are on prozac, klonopin, and thorazine. have these meds helped anyone? the thing is, razors is not effected by drugs, unless she chooses to be, and she chooses not. i have no control over her, although AP does a bit.

sorry this is so rambling. we are all just confused and needed advice from people who understand.

thank you.

ophlia.