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Hello everyone we are new to this site. I do hope to get to know as many of you all as we can. We are a 33 year old Mom of 3 girls 13,11,and 9. I have been married to my 2nd husband for almost a year now. And I have MPD/DID. I have 3 other personalities other than me the host ( Te'a ) There is MeShell she is 20 she is the newest to the bunch. Savannah is 15 she is a Southern Irish Bell. And then there is Baby Angel she is 3. I know what my personalities do 24/7 and from what I am learning from others that is not always the case. We are from a hickville town in Western Kentucky. And there is not to any DID's around here. If so they are hiding in the woods somewhere. *smiles* I dont look at what we got as a disorder or a disibilty. We try to have fun with it. My Husband will say if he gets board with one of us he just changes the channle. We try to live like everyday is our last day here. Please dont take me wrong this is not an easy task. But we feel if we are going to get better and have a " normale" life then we need to get off our ass and do it. We may not have alot of us but we still have the same problems as other DID's do. I was very luck I have a great "T" and his specialty is DID's. So he has helped us alot in makeing our world inside a lot calmer. I did not know how many people in this world have DID. I think we are special people cause we can understand others better cause we got more than one look at something. And we are the people we were meant to be. God made us this way for a reason. He will never lead you to something that he will not lean you threw it. Yes there are battle wounds to be sowed up. And scars to heel. But we made it threw. And we did cause we are survivers. I was in a very abusive marrage for over 14 years. And I got out. I was lucky. We are writing a book about what our life has been like and we are not doing it to make money. We are doing it to heal our wounds, work threw the pain, and throw out the trash that is takeing up room in our world, our mind. And if someone reads the book and it helps them make it threw one more day. To know that there is others out there just like them. To help a woman get brave enought to leave and stay out of an abusive marrage. Then I have left my mark on this world. A great man once said. " You dont know where you are going untill you know where you have been " Uncle Mike thank you for that. ( March 19,1942 - October 19, 2004 )Well I am sure I have said to much. And if I am like I am most the time some one will take this wrong and I will hurt someones feelings. So I will say I am sorry right up front. My Hubby made us a webpage for me and other DID's to post things like pomes and writings, and just a sound board kind of like this. but not as big. If you want check it out leave us a message and let us know what you think. You can contact us via E-mail at savannah_n_angel@yahoo.com or by the yahoo messanger. And here ist he site for you to look at.

http://savannahangel.blogspot.com/

Love to Your and Yours from Me and Mine

Te'a

Comments

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

Not at all, you're fine. Welcome.

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[we-4.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the welcome. It is nice to know there is a place for us to talk with outher taht have the same problems and the same fears, the same joys, and the same life.

Te'a

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[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

I think you'll find a lot of unique individuals here with many differing points of view.

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[we-4.livejournal.com]

Hello again,

That is always a good thing you can learn alot from watching and hearing what others have to say. Do you a yahpp messanger if you do please add me as. savannah_n_angel we would love to chat more. But got to run...

Te'a

[changelyng14.livejournal.com]

hi! :}

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[we-4.livejournal.com]

Hello changelyng14,

Thanks for your reply. Hope to chat with you more sometime soon.

Te'a

[shadowechoes.livejournal.com]

Hi and welcome. :)

I think you'll find that a lot of the members of this community don't consider themself DID though. We've been diagnosed as DID but have come to resent the term because of the connotations behind it - the diagnosis of DID is more that there is a central person imagining other personalities, but that those "personalities" aren't actually real. We don't view Ourselves as disordered either, instead We are a group of people doing Our best to function together and share one body (which can sometimes be frustrating!) - not just figments of a "core" person's imagination. We don't have a core/original, or even a host these days.

It's great that your therapist is understanding and not the kind of "DID specialists" that pushes for integration, but instead helps you manage cooperation and being a functional multiple household.

You're also very lucky that your husband is so accepting. Our significant other is also multiple, and we joke that our relationship is always exciting because it's like having a new girlfriend every day. ;) In reality though, each of Us is matched up with individuals in their system (although some are still single and looking for matches) instead of sharing. And the kids in Our system look up to the adults in their system like big sisters or even motherly figures. Same with the kids in their system with Our adults.

Good luck with your book. I'd love to read it at some point. We were also in several abusive relationships, most recently a very badly abusive one that took Us several years to find the courage to get out of. We're very glad that We did, and were able to meet Our wonderful current SO(s).


Out of curiousity (hope you don't mind me asking), do your children know you're multiple? If so, do they understand/handle it well? Is it hard for some of the others in your system?
We used to have a daughter (she passed away from SIDS last August), and we were trying to decide how and when to explain to her about her mommies' multiplicity. It was also hard for many of the younger members of Our system to deal with (especially the kids who had big-sister syndrome I guess you could say and got jealous of the baby and all the attention both systems' adults gave to her) or just those who didn't really see Our daughter as their daughter.


Anyway, I tend to ramble, but just wanted to welcome you all to the community. :)

~Rhydan

Thanks

[we-4.livejournal.com]

I want to thank you for your note. It was very nice. I did not mean to offend anyone. I am a woman that has DID. DID dose not have me. I hope you understand what I am trying to say. My girls in my system are not made up they are very real. To me and to others. Yes our oldest daughters knows that Mama has more than one inside her is how we put it to her. she is almost 13. She meet them all But asked that I try not to let them come out when she is around. If she walks in the room and one is out then she said she will give me time to switch back. But at this point she is not ready to interact with them. And we are granting her wishes. In time she will be ok with it. It has to be hard as a child to know there there is more than one inside your mom. and that one of them is younger than you. I dont want to go threw life thinking that I dont have this. It is not a disorder or disability to me. It is just who I am. I dont resent the term MPD/DID cause that is what it is. The good part is I run it. It dont run me.

Cant wait to talk to you more if you like.
Thanks
Te'a and gang