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multiplicity_archivesHi. I'm not quite sure how to introduce myself.
My name's Makil. I know about this community from a couple of the others I share my body with. I generally avoided the internet until recently, except for information gathering purposes. Now I've got my own Livejournal account and I'm working at an internet cafe(although another does most of the work).
Anyway, I was gone, non-existant, and integrated with two or three of the others voluntarily for almost a year. Then suddenly, about three or four weeks ago, here I was again. I'm not sure what to make of it. I went away to make the system more stable and because, frankly, I didn't want to have to deal with any of the bullshit that was our life anymore. Anyway, its not like I killed myself and there was good reason but now I don't know at all why I'm back out.
On top of that things have changed drastically. We're apparently getting married in 11 days. Something of a shocker that. Then two of the others (who are out the most) had two nervous breakdowns together related to stress over our college and our relationship and a new job and, and, and, yada yada yada, you get the point. La-dee-da. So I manage to keep myself from falling into the emotional pit they managed to dig and got to deal with their fiance. Met her alter named Raven. Sorta had some chemistry with her. Quite a bit in fact.
I'm not really sure what I think of all of it. I'm not a very emotional person thankfully or I'd guess I'd be having overloads and breakdowns too. I tend to be pretty laid back. I am somewhat surprised about the feelings I've had toward Raven but those are definitely the pleasant kind so that's cool.
Anyway, I've sorta gone and run out of things to say.
In case any of you want to know who I have to hang out with all day here's the list:
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morgil_lomion myorp _flute_. There's about ten others but they don't use the net.
So I guess that's that.
My name's Makil. I know about this community from a couple of the others I share my body with. I generally avoided the internet until recently, except for information gathering purposes. Now I've got my own Livejournal account and I'm working at an internet cafe(although another does most of the work).
Anyway, I was gone, non-existant, and integrated with two or three of the others voluntarily for almost a year. Then suddenly, about three or four weeks ago, here I was again. I'm not sure what to make of it. I went away to make the system more stable and because, frankly, I didn't want to have to deal with any of the bullshit that was our life anymore. Anyway, its not like I killed myself and there was good reason but now I don't know at all why I'm back out.
On top of that things have changed drastically. We're apparently getting married in 11 days. Something of a shocker that. Then two of the others (who are out the most) had two nervous breakdowns together related to stress over our college and our relationship and a new job and, and, and, yada yada yada, you get the point. La-dee-da. So I manage to keep myself from falling into the emotional pit they managed to dig and got to deal with their fiance. Met her alter named Raven. Sorta had some chemistry with her. Quite a bit in fact.
I'm not really sure what I think of all of it. I'm not a very emotional person thankfully or I'd guess I'd be having overloads and breakdowns too. I tend to be pretty laid back. I am somewhat surprised about the feelings I've had toward Raven but those are definitely the pleasant kind so that's cool.
Anyway, I've sorta gone and run out of things to say.
In case any of you want to know who I have to hang out with all day here's the list:
morgil_lomion myorp _flute_. There's about ten others but they don't use the net. So I guess that's that.
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Date: 2004-09-21 08:36 pm (UTC)-Tanston
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Date: 2004-09-23 07:45 am (UTC)So you can add as many of us as you like but I'll probably be the only one who adds you to their list. You never know though. *shrug*
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Date: 2004-09-23 02:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-21 08:55 pm (UTC)Welcome.
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Date: 2004-09-23 08:05 am (UTC)So, it can happen. I myself never expected or intended to come back and initially it was unwelcome. I suddenly had to exist again and it was a little tricky to remember how. The first week or so I faded in and out.
And of course it was odd suddenly being tossed into the middle of this relationship we're all in but hey, that's no biggie. I even managed to hit it off rather nicely with our fiance's primary alter. So hey, I really don't mind being back after all.
Anyway, glad to give you some hope.
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Date: 2004-09-23 08:24 am (UTC)i'm probably being obnoxious
Date: 2004-09-23 12:38 am (UTC)here's what i don't get. why aren't more people in survivors of incest anonymous (http://siawso.org)? not that all multiples were abused, sexually or otherwise, but i'm guessing you were or people wouldn't be having all those nervous breakdowns and emotional pits and so on.
i mean, it's not an obvious solution. but that shit is seriously what has made me be able and willing to be around and what has helped me figure out how to make our life safe and sane again, after years of totally fucked up relationships and emotional pits and people coming and going in total chaos. not that your relationship is fucked up, mine just were. and it's gotten a lot more harmony in our system and a lot more people having healthy lives and working together even more than we did and shit.
there aren't that many meetings, but there are like three in missouri. and an online one and stuff (http://leaves.wineberry.net/sia/online).
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Date: 2004-09-23 08:39 am (UTC)Well, I'm not sure where you get that idea, and you can think whatever you damn well please, but in this case that'd be a bad guess. I understand that that sort of thing does seriously impact people but just because that's what's fucked up things for you doesn't mean other people necessarily have the same problem.
I'd also say that if people saying things about me bothered me in the least, then I'd probably be very pissed off right now because of you making implications and assumptions about me. I'm not really though, so I'll just say this to give you a head's-up so to speak:
You are being obnoxious.
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Date: 2004-09-23 02:21 pm (UTC)Re: i'm probably being obnoxious
Date: 2004-09-28 12:57 pm (UTC)Here's what I know from the international meeting list I have:
Kirkwood: Recommended for newcomers, Wednesdays at 7pm, St. Joseph's Hospital, 525 Couch Avenue, Anita Chase Room (3rd floor by West elevators), contact Bob (314) 965-2059.
St. Louis: Saturdays at 10am, United Church of Christ, 7126 Bruno at Bellevue, church library, side door.
University City: Women only, Sundays at 6:30pm, Episcopal Church of the Holy Communion, 7401 Delmar (between Big Bend and Hanley), downstairs/Jackson St. entrance, contact Judy (314) 993-5421.
You don't have to call or talk to anyone before going, but it can be handy to make sure those meetings are still there and at the same time and everything. Apparently the last time these numbers were verified was in 2000-2001 (for these particular meetings) so I don't know if those are still the numbers... I mean, if the contact number changes they're supposed to let SIA know, but they don't always do that.
As for meetings in general... You can probably get some ideas of what kind of stuff is said and read by checking out the online meeting's site, http://leaves.wineberry.net/sia/online ... people show up, read different things about the program and abuse and the meeting and whatnot, share things (no cross-talk, which is nice cause then nobody tells you what to do unless you ask them for advice yourself) and then hang out afterward if they want. It's a good place for support and learning tools to deal with this kind of stuff.
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Date: 2004-09-23 11:20 am (UTC)US
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Date: 2004-09-23 10:46 pm (UTC)It started out as three (the original two strongest people returned or resplit i suppose) then they found me while looking to see if anyone *had not* merged in 1998 and again this past two months i found out my chyldren are alive & well if traumatized due to some horrific abuse in-system they suffered during my absence from their lives. The abusers are deceased now, thankfully (though i hated having to kill them as one was my Ex-Mate & the other one of my 4 chyldren all grown up *sighs*).
Anyway, yes its possible. We are proof of this possiblity.
{J}tatiana