I guess its called an intro.

[makil-s.livejournal.com]

Hi. I'm not quite sure how to introduce myself.

My name's Makil. I know about this community from a couple of the others I share my body with. I generally avoided the internet until recently, except for information gathering purposes. Now I've got my own Livejournal account and I'm working at an internet cafe(although another does most of the work).

Anyway, I was gone, non-existant, and integrated with two or three of the others voluntarily for almost a year. Then suddenly, about three or four weeks ago, here I was again. I'm not sure what to make of it. I went away to make the system more stable and because, frankly, I didn't want to have to deal with any of the bullshit that was our life anymore. Anyway, its not like I killed myself and there was good reason but now I don't know at all why I'm back out.

On top of that things have changed drastically. We're apparently getting married in 11 days. Something of a shocker that. Then two of the others (who are out the most) had two nervous breakdowns together related to stress over our college and our relationship and a new job and, and, and, yada yada yada, you get the point. La-dee-da. So I manage to keep myself from falling into the emotional pit they managed to dig and got to deal with their fiance. Met her alter named Raven. Sorta had some chemistry with her. Quite a bit in fact.

I'm not really sure what I think of all of it. I'm not a very emotional person thankfully or I'd guess I'd be having overloads and breakdowns too. I tend to be pretty laid back. I am somewhat surprised about the feelings I've had toward Raven but those are definitely the pleasant kind so that's cool.

Anyway, I've sorta gone and run out of things to say.
In case any of you want to know who I have to hang out with all day here's the list:
morgil_lomion myorp _flute_. There's about ten others but they don't use the net.

So I guess that's that.

Comments

[whisperedones.livejournal.com]

Welcome and stuff. I notice you say you're laid back, and coincidentally (or not), you have Spike Spiegel, one of anime's most laid-back characters as your userpic. :) I notice weird stuff like that.

-Tanston

[x-thanatopsis-x.livejournal.com]

Mind if I add all three of you?

[zaecus.livejournal.com]

I've heard of people reemerging after forced/coerced/directed integration, but this is the first I've heard of it happening after a voluntary one. gives me hope that I might get a chance to see people again some day.

Welcome.

[saturniakitty.livejournal.com]

Hi there ^_^ I have your others friended, mine if I add you too?

[judiff]

hi!

i'm probably being obnoxious

[kaleidescope.livejournal.com]

i can definitely identify with going away because i don't want to deal with the bullshit of my or our life anymore. it sounds like you guys have a ton of chaos and stuff going on now too.

here's what i don't get. why aren't more people in survivors of incest anonymous (http://siawso.org)? not that all multiples were abused, sexually or otherwise, but i'm guessing you were or people wouldn't be having all those nervous breakdowns and emotional pits and so on.

i mean, it's not an obvious solution. but that shit is seriously what has made me be able and willing to be around and what has helped me figure out how to make our life safe and sane again, after years of totally fucked up relationships and emotional pits and people coming and going in total chaos. not that your relationship is fucked up, mine just were. and it's gotten a lot more harmony in our system and a lot more people having healthy lives and working together even more than we did and shit.

there aren't that many meetings, but there are like three in missouri. and an online one and stuff (http://leaves.wineberry.net/sia/online).

[mysticeden.livejournal.com]

Hey I know the other... so um..hi?

US

[whispersong.livejournal.com]

After a voluntary merging 6 years ago, we've had two of the original 300+ return after merging down to 1 person for the last number of years. We have since discovered some who were missed in that time of mergings, and now we number 8 total.

It started out as three (the original two strongest people returned or resplit i suppose) then they found me while looking to see if anyone *had not* merged in 1998 and again this past two months i found out my chyldren are alive & well if traumatized due to some horrific abuse in-system they suffered during my absence from their lives. The abusers are deceased now, thankfully (though i hated having to kill them as one was my Ex-Mate & the other one of my 4 chyldren all grown up *sighs*).

Anyway, yes its possible. We are proof of this possiblity.

{J}tatiana