This is odd...

[allusionist.livejournal.com]

I haven't posted in about a month, been tied up with a lot of life issues and didn't have a computer...but now I'm going through something really strange.

Lately Pip and I have been getting our memories...confused, for lack of a better word. We're starting to think we've done things the other one did or that the other one did things we did - clearest example I can think of was who first asked our girlfriend out. We both remembered the night with perfect clarity, but remembered it from the point of view of the watcher, not the fronter. When we realized this and went back and picked through the circumstances of the night, we ended up figuring out it must have been me...but I honestly don't remember being in control then. And that night made me so happy the thought of not remembering it properly scares me. We had just the opposite happen over another issue, both of us remembered doing it, but we weren't co-fronting since we haven't been able to do that for over three years now. I remember doing it clear as day - but so does Pip, and the way I remember it, he was just watching at the time.

Needless to say, this is not only getting confusing and has coused more than one headache, but it genuinely worries me. I have no idea what could be causing something like this to happen - normally, we have to worry more about a LACK of communication, not mentioning everything we did to each other when we switch and getting screwed over some detail or somesuch. I don't even know how sharing memories after the fact like that is even possible.

While I'm already ranting, one other oddity. We also seem to be losing the ability to front for an extended period of time - if either one of us is in control for more than a day or two, we start to break down, get irritable, get weighted down by stress, that kind of thing. I'm bipolar, and it's nothing like depression - it's more like the feeling you get when you have a million problems all pressing in on you at once.

So my question to you all is two-fold...first, have any of you gone through issues like these? If you've been in similar situations, what if anything helped? Second, can any of you venture an educated guess as to what could be happening in our system? We've never had problems of this sort before - just straightforward things like jealousy and wanting to kill each other, you know, social issues - so I have no idea where to een begin looking to fix this. I almost seriously offended my girlfriend yesterday by getting a memory confused, I'd like to figure out what's going on before I end up ruining something or other for good...

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[kangetsuhime.livejournal.com]

It happens to us. Both of those things. "Was that you?" "No, I was back here." "But so was I, it must have been you." "Uh, well, I don't remember it being me..." and, as you've said, the opposite.

Same as our advice on the last entry. Let it happen and not worry about it, is what we do :P Fighting it makes our head explode. If we have severe problems with memory, we just let people it might affect, know. We've never had anybody be less than understanding. It's not like we do it *deliberately*.

[unicorn-crest.livejournal.com]

We sometimes have the "whose memory is this" issue - so far for us it's been a matter of how the data is saved and accessed. (I like computer analogies. They make sense to me.)

Let's say I'm the one fronting. I save my memory to the shared drive.

One of the others is not fronting, but saves her memory there as well.

So now there are two viewpoints to choose from, and which file you open sort of depends on how you remember things.

I really hope that made as much sense out of my head as it did inside it...

As for how to handle it - the people who know we're a we seem to take it a bit as a matter of course.

I'm a dork...

[unicorn-crest.livejournal.com]

I forgot to address the fronting issue.

Usually we get dizzy and nauseous before we get cranky, so it's kind of a moot point for us. However, that said...

Are you maybe working too hard / dealing with too many stressors without taking some down-time? There are extra stresses associated with being plural (especially if you have to pass as someone you're not) - but even the regular stuff is enough to send anyone through the wall. One of the outlets for us is fading back to take a break where no one can bug us - if remaining front for extended periods is desirable, maybe you ought to schedule some fun time?

[jhonathand.livejournal.com]

Frost And I Have Memory Bleeding Issues. There are times when He's done or said something that I have NO Recollection Of, and Vice-Versa.

There are also parts of His Memories that I can't Access. Again, Vice-Versa. It Goes Both ways with Us. I noticed that Past Memories don't seem to get affected, But that's not to say that It Doesn't happen. We just haven't thought about the past where, We might have both been near the Front Or Not.

If It's Truely becoming a Problem, where your Real-Time S/O is wondering Why you said or did a Certain thing,....I would suggest that maybe a Dry-Erase Board Or Quark-Board, Or something to that effect. It doesn't need to be Physical, It could be internal. But If there's something that One Or the Other thinks, Needs to be remembered, then there needs to be some Permanancy attached to it,. Otherwise the Memory will just fade and Not be able to be recalled,.....By Any of You.

As To the Cause of The memory Lapse; I have no Clue. It happens to Us, So the Only Conculsion that I can come to, is that it's a naturally Occuring thing that Affects some Multipul Households.

As To Prolonged Time Fronting; It's natural to get run-Down and Start Getting Irratible and Stressed out. We've Never experimented with Pro-longed Time 'Fronting'. It's just not in our Capacity At this time. Howevver I can totally picture Frost Getting fed up with this place and Time Quite Easily. Also, I Subscribe to the whole thought of "Practice Makes Perfect."

Instead of Trying for Marathon Runnings of 'Front' Time, Perhaps More Frequent, Yet Shorter times 'At The Helm' would be in Order. Also I think that might Strengthen your guy's resolve and allow for more Solidity when One or the Other is Taking Front. (Please Correct me if there are more than 2 of you in your House)

Best Of Luck to you and yours in all Endeavours,..................~M/F~

P.S. I think we asked some time back if we could add you to our Friends Page, Does this ring a bell,.? If So, may we add you again,.?

[mirrorbrothers.livejournal.com]

I Suppose it's not a Big Deal, but your Heavy use of Capital Letters makes your Writing Hard to Read.

- Johnny

[jhonathand.livejournal.com]

Well,.....You could Call it a Literary throw-back of some sort.

Back in the day when there was *No* Italics or Bolds People used to Capitalize the words that they wanted to stress for Empahsis.

It was commonly used up to the Begining of the 20th Century.

Also It's just How I type.. I naturally put more Emphasis on the words in my speech that are Important in the Conversation. That Translates to type for me.

Really It's the most Bizzare thing. I Naturally Over-Capitalize Because this is how I sound when I'm talking to you.

For an Example, Check out Thomas Carlyle An Essayist From the Victorian Era.

Best Wishes And Warmest Regaurds,..................~M~

[allusionist.livejournal.com]

Sure, I don't mind, but we almost never post on the journal proper any more...