Think I'm starting to lose it here

[chipmunk-planet.livejournal.com]

Might not be posting for a while.

There's a faction that feels they should be able to be as offensive and obnoxious as possible, that this will prove who my friends are. Trouble is I don't have that many to begin with, the ones I do have aren't used to such things (they're starting to swear too).

They are NOT supposed to be posting, but they have tried to hijack things and take front several times today, even infecting a post I made with cursing and such.

Do any of you have this trouble? I feel like I'm hosting a civil war here.

so happy!!!!

[coconutchica.livejournal.com]

so my friend that i posted about a couple days ago.....she is still coming to terms with being multiple, but she read what i wrote and all the comments, and is finally accepting that they are really all their own people in there.

along the same lines, i'm getting way better at telling them apart, and when we are alone, she'll let me talk about anything, so long as i let her be whoever she wants whenever she wants. it's awesome, it's like winning all the time!!!

plus i found out that i am really friends with more of her alters than i imagined. i just didnt always know when they were out, unless they were acting at the extremes of their behavior.

like today i got to spend time with Natalia!!!!!!!!! i never get to see her!!! and she point blank told me that she never says anything negative about me. i was surprised. i figured she'd mock my lack of an exciting life. but she's usually sleeping i guess. bc life doesnt stimulate her enough.

it's just interesting bc now that she is ok w/them being different people, i can use their names more and it's easier for me to conceptualize. like i needed help with math. elena was there for me. it was perfect.

i'm actually pretty surprised that other people can't tell them apart...but i used to not be able to either. now it's like....kate makes the cutest lip movements and is quieter. she also seems to have the same emotions as i do most of the time. anna is so direct and told me that she would fight to stay friends with me! natalia always wears makeup and jewelry and looks up at people and questions her morality. elena likes to curl up small usually, but today she was all over that math! she also lives for the dictionary game! i think hillary might also like the dictionary game. hillary is just....everything to me. calm, determined, i guess i dont know her just as her yet, i just mostly know her as everyone combined so far. and screaming girl....i just want to comfort her. she really wants to be normal.

i'm just so blown away that everyone likes me, i guess. i was soooo worried that i was only friends with kate, but now i'm getting a much better picture. i guess it helps that i dont have a very solid identity myself so i just love a million random things, so pretty much anything i bring up will interest at least one person in there!