multiples and autism
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We are fairly new to this community, though we do talk to one of the members online in private e-mails . . .
Currently, we are working on a book about Asperger's Syndrome in which we want to address the concept of multiplicity and autism - in short, we have found that quite a few people with AS report something like multiplicity so we are thinking that this may be part of AS . . .
We are very interested in any of your thoughts about this, especially if you are autistic too - we are collecting quotes to include in this chapter of the book . . .
As for us personally, there are three and a half of us - there is a central processor (that is the half) that presents to the real world most of the time, then there is me, Daniel, who is dominant most of the time - I am the most autistic of the bunch and have really almost no emotions - except for fear, and I have a terrible temper . . .
Then there is Gabriel who keeps all of our emotions - he is very young - maybe 15 or so . . . I really dislike him . . .
Then there is Nathan - Nathan is probably the closest to what you think of as an autistic - he is very creative and loves to do things like sew and also loves animals and toys - but he couldn't function on his own - he is unconcerned with the outside world unless it effects him directly - he really lives in a world made up of sensation and gets distracted easily - he is almost never dominant by himeself . . .
I am almost always dominant but usually through the central processor - unless I get angry . . . I don't want to give the impression that we are excessively mean - we are vegans, actually - I just yell a lot when I get mad . . .
Currently, we are working on a book about Asperger's Syndrome in which we want to address the concept of multiplicity and autism - in short, we have found that quite a few people with AS report something like multiplicity so we are thinking that this may be part of AS . . .
We are very interested in any of your thoughts about this, especially if you are autistic too - we are collecting quotes to include in this chapter of the book . . .
As for us personally, there are three and a half of us - there is a central processor (that is the half) that presents to the real world most of the time, then there is me, Daniel, who is dominant most of the time - I am the most autistic of the bunch and have really almost no emotions - except for fear, and I have a terrible temper . . .
Then there is Gabriel who keeps all of our emotions - he is very young - maybe 15 or so . . . I really dislike him . . .
Then there is Nathan - Nathan is probably the closest to what you think of as an autistic - he is very creative and loves to do things like sew and also loves animals and toys - but he couldn't function on his own - he is unconcerned with the outside world unless it effects him directly - he really lives in a world made up of sensation and gets distracted easily - he is almost never dominant by himeself . . .
I am almost always dominant but usually through the central processor - unless I get angry . . . I don't want to give the impression that we are excessively mean - we are vegans, actually - I just yell a lot when I get mad . . .
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Date: 2005-04-15 05:31 am (UTC)You might read Donna Williams' books ...
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Date: 2005-04-16 01:30 am (UTC)Which describe a form of plurality as a defensive mechanism, with two "personas" (Carol and Willie) protecting the "real self" (Donna). We still get uncomfortable when we think of how we've been looking for the lost, real self... The feeling of being buried alive is probably a common experience for non-fronting selves in households who are still becoming aware of their many-ness, but I'm not sure the same can be said about a frontrunner's belief that they aren't real and ought to get rid of themself somehow so the "real" person can come back... One of us got pretty much talked into that (written, actually) by another of us some years ago, and I think it had a lot to do with our having read Donna Williams' first book.
In general we find her books very good for brainstorming and very bad for reliability.
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Date: 2005-04-15 07:30 am (UTC)*wonders what being vegan has to do with being mean, but gives up* I haven't had any experience in dealing with a system like that (I know people and systems with learning disorders, but nothing even close to that extreme) While not everyone there has things like autism,
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Date: 2005-04-15 06:08 pm (UTC)We were meaning that you don't see a lot of, say, psychopaths who are vegans . . . that was the first disorder we were diagnosed with (because we so successfully hide our emotions and are so very logical) - but we really do have a lot of feelings - they just are not useful most of the time . . . and are mostly directed toward animal companions rather than humans
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Date: 2005-04-15 12:20 pm (UTC)My 'brother' Kír disagrees. He says that if I wish to accept that label for myself, it's my choice, but not to impose it upon him or his twin (who takes no part in this debate, since he pays so little attention to labels that we've never even found a name he'll answer to.) Kír's view is that all the jargon and labels of the psychiatric establishment are false - no different from the medieval Church's elaborate hierarchies of demons (http://demons.monstrous.com/angels_and_demons.htm), and invented for the same reason: to frighten people into giving up money and power to those who claim to be able to aid them against these contrived terrors.
I admit I see a lot of merit in this viewpoint - the DSM-IV being basically the modern version of the Malleus Maleficarum, used in pretty-much the same way and with just about the same amount of science behind it. To a large extent, that's why I don't reject the label "autistic": out of solidarity with the autistic community. "The price of distancing oneself from a stereotype is to reinforce that stereotype, and the related injustice, for those who cannot likewise distance themselves" (http://www.ragged-edge-mag.com/0501/0501cov.htm).
Anyway, that's not addressing your question. Yes, we've noticed that a lot of other multiple Houses are based in autistic bodies. One might speculate that differences in the structure of the cerebral cortex (http://www.neurology.org/cgi/content/abstract/58/3/428) make multiplicity easier for autistics. It would, of course, be only speculation; as yet there isn't enough research to support any hypothesis of that sort.
Autistics tend to have fewer hard-wired (instinctive) social patterns - look at how many of us 'fall through the cracks' of gender/sex-role definitions; how many of us are puzzled by or oblivious to the whole concept of "race". Possibly it seems like more of us are multiple just because we don't see anything so wrong about sharing a body with other people, thus are more likely to admit it.
When you speak of multiplicity being "part of AS", you're begging the question of causality. There's no way to determine to what extent (in any specific case OR in general) multiplicity is part of autism, autism is part of multiplicity, both are part of something else (or several 'somethings'), or the two conditions are unrelated.
Now, if you aren't considering either autism or multiplicity as "psychiatric disorders" that people 'have', but rather as unusual but perfectly viable ways for people to be, you'll probably find a lot about shamanic practice (http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/0877734062/103-9683110-8942243?v=glance) to interest you. Anyway, good luck with your book! :)
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Date: 2005-04-15 06:16 pm (UTC)Gabriel agrees with you that the DSM is just a way to persecute people, but Daniel points out that it is good to be realistic - we may know that we function perfectly well and that no one knows how differently our mind works until we tell them - so refering to the DSM is useful becuase it presents more of a medical model than saying 'Well that person is just crazy!'
So though we know we do not have a disorder because we can function it is important to remember that other people still view it as a disorder and will react that way to it . . .
One of the people we know at work is a very intelligent person and had a friend at another job who had (what sounds like) a psychotic break and she talks about how afraid she was of that person - it makes us sad to hear her talk like that when we know she is an intelligent, basically good person, and so we feel that a DSM model would help her to understand that she is talking about a disease that is no different from someone having cancer or something . . .
She tells us these things and we think 'If you had any clue who you were talking to!'
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Date: 2005-04-15 08:41 pm (UTC)The DSM is pseudo-medicine, pseudo-science, certainly not a valid medical model, and I don't see that paying it lip service does anybody any good (except the psychiatrists, insurance companies and pharmaceutical corporations, of course.) I refer you to this article, Head Games (http://www.reason.com/0301/cr.js.head.shtml):
""Disease reveals itself in the abnormal activity of the body, not of the person," Szasz writes. "When a lesion can be demonstrated, physicians speak of bodily illnesses. When none can be demonstrated, perhaps because none exists, but when physicians and others nevertheless want to treat the problem as a disease, they speak of mental illnesses. The term ‘mental illness’ is a semantic strategy for medicalizing economic, moral, personal, political, and social problems."
"For Szasz, the fact that psychiatrists, politicians, bureaucrats, and activists are constantly insisting that mental illnesses are real diseases, just like cancer or diabetes, indicates that in fact they are fundamentally different. "There are no illnesses outside of the realm of the mental health field whose disease status requires defense by the White House," he slyly notes. "In the end, we come down to the meaning of the term ‘mental illness’: If we use it to mean brain disease, then psychiatry would be absorbed into neurology and disappear....However, pyromania is plainly not like multiple sclerosis, and treating a patient with schizophrenia without his consent is plainly not like treating a patient with anemia with his consent."
It IS very sad that your co-worker was afraid of her friend just at the time the friend was most likely terrified and miserable and in dire need of all the comfort and support those who cared about her could provide. That's the dire stigma of "mental illness" - that people struggling with a mental/spiritual/emotional crisis are shunned, mocked, drugged and imprisoned against their will, for no reason but ignorant prejudice.
However, how does it help to say "it's a disease, like cancer", when it's not? That's the same thing the 'curebies' in the anti-autism movement say (and here's an article (http://www.autistics.org/library/love.html) that explains what's wrong with that.) It's the same thing the anti-gay movement was saying about homosexuality (http://www.psych.org/pnews/98-07-17/dsm.html) a generation ago. The plain, unvarnished truth is that none of these conditions are diseases, and that a great deal of the suffering that comes with them is the result of societal rejection, not of the conditions themselves.
I am not disordered nor diseased - not by autism, and not by sharing a body with my two dearly-loved 'brothers' - and I won't let anybody get away with calling me that. The root of prejudice lies in the heart of the one who has it, not in the one who's subjected to it, and I think this needs to be made unequivocably clear. There really isn't a bit of difference between being scared of "crazy people" and being scared of black people, gay people, poor people, the "younger generation", or whatever - unfortunately, most humans seem to be genetically programmed to fear and hate anyone who seems different from themselves, so irrational prejudice abounds. But why enable it? Why not call it what it is?
On the subject of 'psychotic breaks', I think you may find that this article (http://www.alternativesmagazine.com/08/levy1.html) and this book (http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/0874775388/103-9683110-8942243?v=glance) provide a more useful and coherent description than the fake-medical models of the DSM-IV. If that doesn't convince you, check out this one (http://www.reason.com/0205/cr.bd.ill.shtml) - which, incidentally, contains the fascinating information that Benjamin Rush, "the father of American psychiatry", "was also ahead of his time in concern for the rights of American Negroes, convinced that they were white under their disfiguring leprosy."
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Date: 2005-04-16 03:28 am (UTC)Heh, that's kind of alien to our experience, because we've always been, if anything, too aware of race and appearance. Then again, we're also rabidly competitive, and there are a lot of people who don't think autistics can understand the idea of competition, so I guess it just goes to show the extent of diversity between different autistics as well.
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Date: 2005-04-16 04:57 am (UTC)Being Indian is part of our who-we-are in the earth world. We were always intensely aware of it, even though Indians had minimal visibility in 1950s Illinois. We won't disparage Indians as team mascots as long as they're portrayed with distinction and respect, because we grew up with the Fighting Illini (http://www.coasttocoasttickets.com/images/ncaab_illinoisfightingillini.jpg) and there was an Indian on the test pattern on TV (http://www.moderntv.com/modtvweb/special/freegif-bw1.htm) and we were proud -- that was our visibility*, even though we knew the actual Illini weren't really like that.
So yeah, race wasn't puzzling to us. Fighting between the races was, though.
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*Well, that and Tonto being smarter than the Lone Ranger. Heh.
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Date: 2005-04-16 05:19 am (UTC)Heh. I remember our black friend from swim lessons very clearly (she was the only black person in the group). We thought that maybe if we spent enough time lying in the sun, our skin would turn as dark as hers and then we wouldn't have to worry about putting suntan lotion on any more... well, we were five at the time.
So yeah, race wasn't puzzling to us. Fighting between the races was, though.
We've got kind of a weird dual perception in that regard, which is difficult to explain: at the same time that we perceive people as individual human beings, we've always got a filter on background which is constantly aware of how society's prejudices would interpret the behaviour of those around us. It's like we have a 'prejudice recording' and it's difficult to turn off, although it doesn't (I hope) come through in how we treat other people.
Then again, I've often wondered if this may perhaps be a very common thing, but no one wants to talk about it because nobody wants to admit that they might possibly have any kind of hidden prejudice; everyone wants to see themselves as a paragon of tolerance and openmindedness. The best we can do with it seems to be to acknowledge it's there, that it's not something intrinsic to us but an artifact of a biased society, and just keep trying to view people on an individual basis.
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Date: 2005-04-16 05:26 am (UTC)As far as lying in the sun, we did that too... the darker the better, we thought, and still do.
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Date: 2005-04-17 12:20 am (UTC)I've got one of those, but it's mostly cued in to voices, speech patterns, phrasing, accents - all the auditory components of a person's presence, and not much of the visual. Probably I don't really look much at people I don't know, and less than "average" even at my nearest and dearest, but I listen - and yeah, the 'recording' is quite prejudiced about what constitutes acceptable speech.
I presume the 'recording' is my mother, teachers, and other critical adult women of my childhood - their fault-finding imprinted on my wee little neuro-circuits before I'd learned enough language to defend myself. Kind of tedious to have to carry their provincial linguistic value-judgements with me all my days, but mostly I just let it pass by.
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Date: 2005-04-16 05:47 am (UTC)The reason I ask; I've known a fair number of Native folk (including our Morchalad, who's half Alaskan Indian) and I've never seen any of them as "red" except when they've been out in the hot sun or something. For that matter, if I went out in the hot sun for a couple of hours (assuming I was somewhere that had hot sun in April) I would come back true flaming scarlet, far redder than I've ever seen any darker-skinned person get. Yet people wouldn't then call me "red-skinned", just sunburned. So what's up with that?
Morchal's skin doesn't really have any notably red tones in it at all, this time of year - he's not as pale as me, of course, but he's pretty pale, and his underlying skin-tone is sort of gold - yet he'd still be called "red", yes? LOL, actually I find it pretty funny, that a Scandahoovian like myself can be both darker than a 'black' person and redder than a 'redskin'. I don't see how anyone ever keeps the whole concept straight in their minds.
*grins* Tonto was smarter and cuter than the Lone Ranger. Kato was smarter and cuter than the Green Hornet too - I didn't find out till I was grown up, that he'd been played by Bruce Lee; then it was, like, "well, no wonder!"
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Date: 2005-04-16 06:10 am (UTC)But yeah, the actual skin color often has little to do with what a person of a particular race is called. The one that puzzled us was when Asian people were called yellow, since we never saw them that way. Most of our Asian friends are Chinese, and when we can tell any difference at all in their skin color they look like -- well, shades of gold, like you said, from darker to lighter depending where they are from, but they never impressed us as being yellow.
We knew a girl of German ancestry who spent most of her time outdoors in sunsuits rather than the long-sleeved shirts and jeans that we wore most of the time (partly due to farm work). Her hair was bleached white-blonde but her skin was darker than ours, so we can picture the contrast you talk about with your friend.
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Date: 2005-04-16 05:18 am (UTC)I mean, really, skin color? Why not hair color, or eye color, or fingernail shape? Actually, if people really wanted to get serious about hating each other for inconsequential genetic traits, they ought to make skull configuration the Big Hairy Deal. "Long-heads rule! Round-heads suck!" - not only would it be an entirely new shuffle, mix all the currently-existing 'sides' around, but because bone endures where skin does not, it would enable people to discriminate against others who'd been centuries dead! Wouldn't that be advantageous?
I guess it's autie literality that really makes the whole concept untenable for me... because nobody's 'black', nobody's 'white'. If you took a piece of white paper and a bottle of black ink and compared them to the color of every person on the planet, you wouldn't find a single true match. Nope nope - everybody's more-or-less pinkish-brown or brownish-pink; everybody's skin color varies with the climate and season, and it just seems like WAY too much work to try to keep track of which particular shade fits in which particular category.
I gave up on the whole thing when I was 16, at summer camp in Maine. My ancestry's Danish, so I'm very pale in winter, but after all summer in the Maine sun, I was pretty dark brownish-pink, while my hair had gone straw-white. Meanwhile, my friend Angie, who was "black" (actually coffee-with-cream color) had sun allergies, so she'd spent the whole summer in long sleeves and a big straw hat. Well, so, we were arm-wrestling in my cabin one evening - I looked down and noticed that my arm was a good few shades darker than hers.
That did it. If 'white' people could be darker than 'black' people, as was obviously the case, then clearly there just wasn't any sense in the category-system at all. I still think that, and can't understand how other people do find any sense in it; it seems an utterly useless notion to me.
I guess there's such a thing as "racial competition", but I don't really *get* how that's supposed to work either - because, after all, all the competitors are going with what they were born with. They didn't choose it or earn it, and they can't change it, so... what's the point? Competition's supposed to be a contest, right? but you can't have a real contest unless both sides have a fair chance.
*rueful grin* It's possible that my autie-ness (or some other factor) keeps me from seeing the point. I do understand it intellectually, sort of, but emotionally? Not a clue.
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Date: 2005-04-16 05:50 am (UTC)Heh, the basic consensus of most reputable scientists nowadays is that 'race' doesn't really even exist as a discrete biological category-- you could just as easily classify people into separate races on the basis of, say, the prevalence of the sickle-cell anemia gene, which would put Mediterreanean and sub-Saharan African people into the same racial group.
(http://www.antiracistaction.ca/race3.html is entertaining, on this issue.)
I've got sort of a thing going on where I know intellectually that there's nothing to stereotypes, but my awareness of them makes me uncomfortable and, in some cases, I worry that they might be true, even if there's no mitigating evidence-- like if we get stuck on a math problem, I'll start to worry that it might be because 'girls can't do math.' x_X Not to any disabling extent, but... it's there, yeah, the social programming. (OTOH, we seem to have avoided a lot of the social programming in regards to what women's priorities should be, and how they should aspire to look.)
I don't know what to make sometimes of the fact that there are several people in our system who aren't 'white,' though I probably overanalyze it. If they were all filling gratuitous stereotypes (which I have unfortunately seen before with multiples), that would be cause for legitimate concern, but I see the ones who share my headspace as being simply people, before they're a specific race or gender. What frustrates me is that I can't always be colorblind in 'non-head' interactions. Hm.
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Date: 2005-04-17 01:08 am (UTC)"I don't know what to make sometimes of the fact that there are several people in our system who aren't 'white'"
Hmmm... I never thought of that before. Kír wasn't born in this body, and he's northern Asian... Crist-Erui was born in this body, but if he's Kír's twin from the time-before, does that make him northern Asian too, and therefore "not-white"?
*wry grin* Kír says the question is moot; that he came to us as a ghost, and his brother is not bound by the conventions of ordinary men, so these questions of physical distinction have no meaning for them. Fair enough. Where Kír and I sometimes have conflict isn't about 'race', but about culture - we've worked it out over the years to a great extent, but every so often we run into problems because despite his efforts, he still thinks by the 'rules' of a culture drastically different from this one.
I seem to have avoided a lot of the cultural programming about "how women are supposed to relate to people", but I got a major dose of "how women are supposed to relate to objects". This causes me difficulties about housekeeping (I cycle endlessly between two modes, "perfection" and "squalor"), car maintenance, clothing, shopping... because there're ten thousand things I have to deal with, and they're each supposed to be dealt with in a particular way, and it's just too much.
This is one reason I love camping: I only have to cope with the things I brought along, and that's not so many.
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Date: 2005-04-16 04:11 am (UTC)Welcome.
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Research on the relationship between multiplicity and autism, if any, is still very much in infancy-- most professionals will no longer take multiplicity seriously, and most studies of autism focus exclusively on finding a cause, a cure, or both. Most of the speculation we've seen has been from people involved in multiple communities online. Since there's never been a really good study done on the proportion of multiples in the population as a whole, I'm still up in the air about whether it's more common among autistics.
A couple of us once considered a theory, which we haven't seen suggested anywhere else, that autistic people may be less likely to suppress multiplicity because many of us get used to coping with being bombarded with sensory stimuli all day, and so having other people talking in headspace might not come across as chaotic the way it might to someone who wasn't used to dealing with it. Granted, that's just a pet theory and I can't volunteer any scientific evidence for it, but there's not very much in most theories of autism or multiplicity (including professional ones) which has to do with science anyway.
We seem to have shown signs of 'high-functioning' (I rather dislike judgemental terms like that, but there aren't very many good words to describe the different ways autism can be manifested) autism from birth, which no one around us knew quite how to interpret-- the general consensus of people around us seemed to be that we could be made to stop doing everything which 'didn't look right' if we were punished enough for it. (That wasn't quite accurate-- a lot of the things which people around us thought they'd succeeded in 'eradicating' were just suppressed, or we got sneakier about it.)
There are definite positive and negative points in our general experience of autism. The ability to obsess over things is one of our strengths, when we can turn it to our advantage; however, we have sensory and organization issues which make it difficult for us to do schoolwork without outside assistance (fortunately our school has been accomodating, for the most part). All balanced out, however, we certainly don't want to be 'cured,' as it's an essential component of who we are and we would not like to be replaced with different people who better fit society's definition of normalcy.
As far as system members are concerned, we all seem to be affected by it in slightly different ways. None of us are totally unaffected by it, although there are people in here who don't think of themselves as being autistic in their own right-- for them, it's something that goes along with the body, like gender.
We don't seem to have the experience of reduced or limited emotions-- actually, we were seen as being too emotional over the wrong things in childhood and in need of 'toughening up.' There are about 6 of us who frontrun regularly; we all seem to have a 'complete' set of emotions (er, as far as I know, it's complete-- who judges that anyway?), although of course we're inclined towards individual temperaments.
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Date: 2005-04-16 04:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-16 05:31 am (UTC)We are still collecting info about autism and multiples - but when we get that chapter written we will certianly post a link to it . . .
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Date: 2005-04-16 05:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-16 06:00 pm (UTC)We do plan to have a whole chapter at the beginning devoted to autism and also one devoted to multiplicity . . . so people will know what they are getting into . . .
We are writing the whole thing under a general pseudonym and in a city we have never been to (but that is similar in climate to where we actually grew up)(though the personalities will keep their names because very few people know that they exist . . .)
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Date: 2005-04-17 04:24 am (UTC)People tend to freak out when we say 'we' too, but part of this is getting used to it. Singlet friends who found it odd at first often get to be okay with it after they've heard you use it for a while, and gotten used to the idea of sharing a body.
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Date: 2005-04-17 01:24 am (UTC)I don't think there really is such a thing as "typical Aspie". Note that most books one reads about autism aren't written by autistics, and the tendency to perceive people in stereotypical categories is very common among non-ACs, so a lot of the so-called information about us is misleading or just plain inaccurate.
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Date: 2005-04-19 11:36 am (UTC)When you say "quite a few people with AS report something like multiplicity", do you mean 5, 10, or an actual statistically sizable number? (Please let me state ahead of time, that I do *not* mean anything in this post to be attacking, and I apologize if the tone sounds as if it is. All questions are honest questions. Do realize I have AS and forgive me if my "tone" is off. *grin* Also, I work in the research field, and can get quite clinical on such things.) Actually, I don't have any clear questions at this point except to ask for what further data you have? Personal experience isn't generally statistically significant...if you've just come across a few people with AS who sound like they're multiples, that's one thing. If you've actually looked into it and have some surprising data, I'd be interested.
Because I've known several multiples over my lifetime, and none of them come anywhere near AS. (Okay, Azz is a geek, but I still contend, given her childhood stories, that she's not an Aspie, and she doesn't think she is, either.) And of most of the Aspies I've talked to, I don't recall getting any multiple traces from them...but I haven't been actively looking.
I am not a multiple, but I could understand where someone who was multiple themselves could think that I was if I tried to describe the inside of my brain. I have frequently referred to myself as having an 8-track brain. (Regrettably, being on bipolar meds has reduced me to a 4-track...but feeling in control of myself and my emotions is far worth the trade-off. Plus it makes hubby much happier and my co-workers easier to deal with. Actually makes me less frustrated with the occasional communication difficulty.) I could, if I so desired, describe it in such a way that a clinician would easily have diagnosed me as a multiple...but it's rather better described comparing my brain to a computer. Its functions are broken-up to the sections that are best able to handle them, but there's really only one "person" up here. I may "present" different "faces" to the world, depending on what my brain is busy doing...believe me, the Ro who has been reading fantasy fiction for 2 hours is going to speak much differently than the Ro who has been web coding for half a day, and the Ro who has been double-checking research study continuing review paperwork is going to act yet differently...but they're all ME. Not different personalities. Just parts of me.
Norms call them 'masks', and we all have them, to a greater or lesser extent. Multiples are so separate that they need separate names - their cores are usually different; they're *connected* - they're still all their 'Me', but they're separated. Like four different people permanently tied together with a rope. (Okay, the analogy is bad...they're like cojoined twins, except that they can function separately, so I was going for some analogy that would let them *function*...yeah, yeah, it's early, I haven't had coffee yet; I'm *babbling*.) But for me, it's more like one of those dolls that has multiple faces, and you turn the head, and it's either crying, or smiling, or sleeping...they're all me, just different faces of me - for different jobs I have to do. ^_^ And then, of course, the cojoined twins analogy breaks down for the multiples because while they can merge, they can't separate... *grin* Need to get together with Azz and work on better analogies.