Amnesiac moment

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The oddest thing happened today. Ok, so maybe it wasn't the oddest but it sure was weird.

I was giving my son a bath. All of the sudden I looked at him and was very afraid. I had no idea who this child was or why he was naked in a tub of water. I just watched him, happily playing with his bath toys, and was really scared. I just had no idea.

Then I told myself, "silly, that's Orion."

Who's Orion? Where did he come from?
He's my son.
I gave birth to him?
Um...yeah! How could I forget?

This went on for a moment or two and then the next thing I knew I was back to bathing him. Everything back to normal. Orion didn't even know that anything was different with his mommy.


I've gotten amnesia moments like that before. Where I didn't know who I was or where I was or what I was doing or who I was with or anything. But, this was the first time I interacted with myself and tried to rationalize with myself about it. Usually I would just slowly snap out of it.

It got me thinking. What if there is someone who comes out so rarely that they don't know anything that's going on? And if that same person is so shocked about what they're experiencing that I find myself feeling the same thing (ie, I front so hard that I get lost in the moment). I didn't feel different like I sometimes do when someone takes helm.

Something to think about.

X-posted to my journal.

My question to all of you is this: Do you get these amnesia moments? What do you do when they happen? Why do you think they happen? etc...

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I was thinking again on the bus home about what I'd written in my comment here, and I had some clarity on something I said... when I said that it's gotten less over the years... what I prolly should've said is that it happens much less to me when I'm feeling older, and when I'm growing older, than when I'm younger or regressing.

For me, it is never an adult or older teen who gets amnesia moments, it's always someone younger. Also, it happens now and again that I will have waking visions that come out of nowhere. That is intensely disorienting because it seems more real than the physical world around me. Like I can actually see something other than what's in front of my face. (Not sure this will make much sense to you, but I know what I"m trying to say.)

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This kind of makes sense to me actually. At least, I think I know what you're saying about the "waking visions" which happen to me too. Well, for me it's sort of like a very vivid daydream where I don't really see what's going on around me, just the dream. Yet, I'm still awake. Though, I don't really think that it's always a daydream. Sometimes it's a memory or somthing I'm thinking about. It's messed me up before though because a few times I didn't realize at first which was the dream and which was reality. *shrugs*