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[slurp.livejournal.com]

Hi. I just joined. I'm not a multiple myself, though I am interested in pyschology/mental illness and have read about it. I'm not currently in university, though. I may or may not have deppression or Borderline Personality Disorder.
And.. that's it.
*waves*

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[susanacts.livejournal.com]

Welcome to the community...I too, have an interest in psychology/mental illness, and I have a firm diagnosis of depression/DID/Borderline Personality Disorder...it's nice to meet people you have things in common with. (waves back). Enjoy your time here. We are all working on trying to support each other as best we can. Cheers!

[cold-ataraxy.livejournal.com]

Welcome. We hope that you will participate and learn or learn to understand. The fact that you are here is a nice thing.

We would definitely enjoy getting to know you more.

-Lallein
Featherdance
Nimoko

[kyouketsusha.livejournal.com]

Welcome.

[slurp.livejournal.com]

Thanks :)

[phen0type.livejournal.com]

Welcome to the community. I hope that you learn something valuable from it.

Richard
Fen Group

[slurp.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[catskillmarina.livejournal.com]

Welcome. Feel free to ask i questions, i or other system members.

--- Miri of Mtribe

[raze--the-rose.livejournal.com]

Hi, welcome! I'm here mostly for learning and personal interest too (I've never been able to figure out for sure how much of "us" is in my imagination so I don't know if I'm really a single or not) *waves back*

[slurp.livejournal.com]

How do you mean?

I might have Borderline Personality Disorder (never really diagnosed, don't know if it even matters) and sometimes I feel like I'm a million different people. And even what I don't feel I already am, I want to be. Like I want to be a punk and a hippie and a math scholar and a doctor and everything at once, even if I'm not actually drawn t it, if that makes sense. But I'm pretty sure that just me being really confused and not actually having several selves.

[raze--the-rose.livejournal.com]

It's difficult to explain. Sometimes, I'm sure that I'm making it up, but then I'm in denial about a lot of things. I'm uncertain because I don't experience what others experience, for instance I don't believe there are other people in my head with their own bodies... the concept that the people in my head have their own physical manifestations is alien to me. Yet I do dissociate, and what I do in those states seems to indicate that I'm not the only one in here. I'm working on it, it's been a long day sorry if this is confusing.
(about BPD, I fit the criteria well enough but IMHO it's overdiagnosed and accomplishes nothing, so I've never sought help for it)

[slurp.livejournal.com]

Maybe you don't actually have split personality but just... go somewhere? Or maybe alters haven't fully come out yet?
I agree, BPD and ADD are just things that are overdiagnosed and I'm not sure if it makes much of a difference anyway.

[raze--the-rose.livejournal.com]

Maybe you don't actually have split personality but just... go somewhere?

Probably right. Though there have been a couple of occasions where I think an alter might have come out. One time I believe I was... I think the term is cofronting, because I kept telling my best friend I didn't feel entirely like myself, and at one time I remember just sitting there saying, "Raze isn't here right now, please leave a message..."

The other time, and this is something I've experienced a few times in the last several years but this was the most clear, was a few weeks ago. I was having an anxiety attack of sorts, and just "went away". But when my room mate came into the room, I wanted to try and talk to him, but something in my head kept saying, "No, no, rest, I'll take care of it. You need rest. Let me take over." I ended up saying nothing and just going to sleep for a while.

Having split personalities would explain a few things but I don't think there's enough evidence of it. Maybe it's better if I don't, or if it's minor, and stays that way. I don't know.

split personality/going somewhere

[brandon2431.livejournal.com]

Think most singletons do that, as well as multis.
Seems like spacing off, not being oneself, saying something and going "where did *that* come from ?", going "I don't know why I did that, that's not like me, I wasn't quite myself" are common experiences among singles and multis alike.

Re: Mental illness

[very-small-box.livejournal.com]

Definitely something you should look into. To put things in a little perspective, I found out about two of my others when I was about thirteen. There are nine of us that I am aware of, ten if you count Brianna's unborn child, and at least one more that I know nothing about. I have no idea how she soul managed to get her soul pregnant.
With all those people, you'd have think I'd have lost a lot of time, right? Nope. If I have ever lost time (except when I lost hours once when I was three) I don't remember it.
From the way you describe the "please leave a message" moments as well as other things I'm almost certain that you are multiplicitous.
Try leaving messages in prominent places around your house to your alters, see if they respond. Poke around in your imagination a little bit, you may stumble upon another person. Whatever you can do to improve communication may bring you closer to co-presence, which is the first step to healthy multiplicity.

[jinxremoving.livejournal.com]

Welcome! I'm not a multiple either - I'm here to learn, and I mostly lurk. (And I'm struggling with depression stuff, too.)

[slurp.livejournal.com]

Thanks. good to know I'm not alone :)

Welcome.

[brandon2431.livejournal.com]

Having said that....and if we're not kicked off this group, and if we're qualified to say welcome.....then welcome.

We have some very good reasons for being as angry as we are about peoples' ignorance around multiplcity=mental illness: we've suffered personally, our family has suffered, our kids have suffered, and we're still being forced to see a psychiatrist for medications that we would not have to see a psych doc for if we had never come out of the closet as multi.
That was nothing personal against you, hope you're still here. We're just fed up with the dangerous discrimination. Ignorance really *is* dangerous, people really do suffer for it, and we really do want to have a hand in putting a stop to it.
Hope you're still with us. (Hope we're still here tomorrow, and not excluded for speaking up.)
Good news: if you're multi, it doesn't mean you're mentally ill.
More good news: if you're not multi but you dissociate, that's normal, nothing to be afraid of. (Hell, it's impossible for most people to get through an average work day and not dissociate! Work, or school....can you imagine showing up at either place and not shutting down certain thoughts and feelings? For that matter, can most people watch TV and not shut down certain thoughts and feelings?)

Mental illness

[brandon2431.livejournal.com]

Multiplicity is not a mental illness....
You are ignorant.

There. We just enlightened you. (While leaving out the words You Dumb Ignorant Fuck.) Okay, so we didn't leave them out.....you dumb ignorant fuck.
(Apologies for language. Ignorance is ugly, and dangerous. Go ask anyone of any *other* minority group.....you dumb fuck.)