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[tigerfae.livejournal.com]

This is a rather odd question but I'll ask it anyway-

Well, first off, a little bit about me. I'm 23, 5 months pregnant, and have been living with DID for 4 years. My others have been dormant for quite some time. Ever since I got married, I think we've all learned to coexist together for the greater good of the body. Thanks to therapy, everyone has their own space in my head where they can go when they need. Unfortunately, my issues and memories aren't resolved. Which leads me to my problem...

Being pregnant, I have to put up with being examined every few months. I hate this. It's not pretty. I scream at my midwife, kick at her, struggle, and just cry cry cry. It's an awful experience, every single time. My question to you mothers is this- how did you get through your labor and delivery? I want a natural delivery, but I'm so afraid that the labor sensations and being examined and the pain are going to bring out the worst in me... or worse, bring out someone else, like one of the littles. Basically, I'm afraid it will go horribly wrong. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

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[tigerfae.livejournal.com]

I guess its not the examinations that I fear, so much as that they lead me to think that I might not make it through my labor in a good and healthy way. I do prenatal yoga three times a week and I am pretty comfortable with the relaxation/meditation techniques. As you suggest, I think I just need to speak more with my midwives about my fears. I also agree with another post, that I should perhaps return to my therapist for a short time. Thanks for your help and concern!