Losing Friends

[littlenephew.livejournal.com]

Hello. Since I am altogether new to LJ, I apologize if I've duplicated this post. I've read many of the community posts, and appreciate the thoughts expressed. Even through drifting in and out, and a general numbness, I've done my best to absorb those contributions.

The issue I'm working on presently is integration. I know I don't fully comprehend it, but I'm resisting the process in fear of losing my only friends. Those within. I know I must reconcile this, but I feel alone enough as it is, and the thought of losing my dearest ones causes me to feel empty, even just thinking about it.

I anyone can offer any insight and experience to helping me understand this, I will be most grateful. Sincerely yours.

Comments

[ex-nanonyan.livejournal.com]

By our employer last year. Just once one of the littles came out during work and of course they didn't understand. We were honest when the people at the place were asking their questions and since one of us was the typical suicidal teenager at the time we got committed to a maximum security cell with straps and getting woke up at weird times for injections and so on.

It only lasted the first couple days but for the first week or two we still had to ask for them to unlock the bathroom and they had to watch us because they were afraid we'd drown ourselves in the toilet or something stupid like that.

Got so screwed up from it that we had to go on disability, which of course I am now taking advantage of so I can restore the system to its former glory.

[azraile.livejournal.com]

*pouts and hugs*

This is why I am not honest with my parents.....

Only person that knows everything is a few friends that live like 300 miles~otherside of the world away and my counsler

And only reson he knows is he's got one of those cant tell anyone unless i tell him he can things going on

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

Are you still taking the drugs they prescribed for you there? If you are, that could be a major difficulty in trying to get things back to normal.

[azraile.livejournal.com]

antidepresents and moodstablizers are a big help if you are seriusly depressed...

drugs arn't bad.... taking them when you don't need them is bad

[ex-nanonyan.livejournal.com]

Went off of everything, don't worry. ^^