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[linnai.livejournal.com]

Hmm. Bit of a controversial question perhaps.

What does anyone know about integration? NOT the forced "everyone needs to be one" sort of integration but spontaneous, natural integration and also temporary intregration or anything of the like.

(While I have heard that most integration is non-permanent anyhow, this isn't quite what I mean but having a hard time figuring out how to communicate the thought better, forgive me)

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sorry for the length

[submissives.livejournal.com]

The timing of your post is ironically appropriate for us. This is a hard thing for us to talk about because we are in the process of possibly going through it once again and trying to figure out exactly what is causing these "spontaneous integrations" to keep happening over and over again.

The first time it happened was 3 or 4 years ago and we called it a spiritual spontaneous integration. It happened on its own after seeing a therapist who believed in "divine intervention" from spirit guides and such. She however had nothing to do with the first time it happened we were at home and one night it just started happening on its own. The second spontaneous integration wasnt quite as spontaneous as it happened in her office (supposedly guided by her spirit guide) but the ones who left were only those who chose to leave at that time. For the most part both of those held, with a few exceptions(a few came back out of the hundred plus that left).

Since then we have had it happen a few more times spontaneously(we are no longer in any therapy and do not believe the last few times have been spiritual at all). We dont get the same good feelings we had with the first couple times. Afterwards we do feel a sense of relief but also a tremendous sense of loss. Also the last 2 or 3 times this has happened it hasnt stuck and they either all came back or new people came.

This is now not only affecting us but the system we are partnered with as well. We dont want to keep hurting them through losing their friends in our system. The fact that these integrations keep happening over and over ....we want to know why and how to stop it. sj has a theory that if the ones who are "suppose to go" would just go and not come back then it will stop. The problem is she says that every time. At this point she just wants them to go I think and whoever is left is left.

One question, do you think that the host/core whatever if you have one has any affect on or control over this? Even if it is subconsciously? This is about to happen again here unless we find a way to stop it. Some of us have felt it coming for a couple weeks now but we never know when its actually going to happen. And as little_heather said above, people here just seem to disappear completely when it happens.

Ok Im going to stop because this is much longer than I intended for it to be. I dont know if any of this helps at all but at least you know your not alone.

abbylauren