um, hi. ^_^

[notquitemichael.livejournal.com]

[i've been thinking about what to write for about 5 minutes now...]

hi,
recently a couple of things have driven me to start looking for an anwser to what it is that gives me more than one person in my head, and well a bit of a lengthy trail through a few text books and the internet has led me here, and i've really identified with some of the things that people have explained, so.

seems the best way to introduce is just to explain who's there, but bare with me, i've never really explained this before to anyone else, so...

all of us anwser to tom (nick think's it's funny and michael resents it, but.) and i'm 18. i don't think i was anyone more than tom until i was about 7, 8ish at school one day, and i was just daydreaming when this thing was suddenly in my head, and it was broken, and i could see how to fix it in my mind and i did. i don't mean that in some sort of spiritual way, it's just what happened.

ever since me, and system-main (which is what i called it,) were friends. from then on i was always updating, and main was always giving me new things that i didn't even think of (like sys-B, which is like a way to make myself happy for a short amount of time, regardless of how i actually feel,) and was always there to talk to.

then at about 12 sys-main indicated that i wasn't the only one using it, and thats when i became aware of nick, who's is the most impulisve person i've met and has a habit of fronting me into stupid situations, and then suddenly being no-where to be found when they need sorting out. and soon after i met michael, who should be writing this because he's about 100 times more coherant than i am on paper, but i won the argument and this is my idea, so.

i'm always thankful for having michael, nick (and main- who i figure is what everyone calls a 'system') but recently i've had a few system-failures [as i dubed them; i understand computers, it makes it much easier if i think of this that way as well.] which is where i'm not entirely aware and if i'm not fronting, then i can't really rember too well, whitout delving manualy into nick and michael, what i've done. and once or twice i've caught nick hiding stuff from me. (he's so annoyed i wrote that.)

i supose i'm just looking for a bit of, um, reasurance that someone else is going/has gone through this and that it is vaguely normal, and perhaps some suggestions for ways of stoping the loss of co-consiouness.

sorry for the long post, i'm not sure i've used live-journal right as well, please excuse my ignorance i was a bit too excited to get something down, then actaully learn how to do it properly first.

thanks, tom. (which nick and michael brething down my neck all the way through it.)

Comments

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

welcome!

a lot of what your system seems to have gone through and seems to be going through seems similar to what i/we have experienced.

im not sure how to stop the loss of co-consiousness- im new to the world of multiplicity, at least in that im new to understanding what's going on. but if you ever want to talk about it or other problems, and meet other systems, my/our messengers are on my profile. ^.^

[szczur-system.livejournal.com]

I KNEW I had seen you somewhere!

[pengke.livejournal.com]

Most people use system as a synonym for group. Usually the system is all of the people that inhabit a body. Sometimes it is just the portion of people inhabiting the body that physically use the body and interact with the outside world.

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

*points to what pengke said*. Also we've known 2 groups who did say "system" for "operating system" and called their group something else. But whatever works for you, as long as people you're talking/writing to understand what you mean.

For us it's radio terminology. We've had plenty of technical difficulties, mostly with communication between here and the homeworld; transmitters might go fft, although most of the problems are with translators and the time differential is a factor. Loss of co-consciousness isn't usually one of them, however -- that works a little too well. (can't hide birthday presents!)

Remembering the last group we knew that used computer ops... Can you make backups?

For long posts you want to lj-cut there's a link how to do it on the community info page.

[notquitemichael.livejournal.com]

backups? not really, unless i can remmember exactly how it 'felt', or if an 'update' is built on an old system, rather then just passing between them.

radio terminolgy sounds interesting, i'd have never thought of it like that; i'll have to do some thinking...

tom, (finally as tom.)

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

Also think about interface cables and drivers; getting your computer to "talk to" your printer, for instance.

[eridanusus.livejournal.com]

Hi I don't really have anything to say but I want to write... we have to leave for therapy in 15 minutes and we're having a crappy week. We lose co-consciousness sometimes, it's scary, but then I don't usually watch what's going on when I'm not out so I don't notice unless I try or if people are talking about it.

[mysticeden.livejournal.com]

Well we just wanted to say hi. our journal is this one (duh) and mysticalunicorn
welcome!

US

[notquitemichael.livejournal.com]

wow, just to say hi and thanks to everyone who says welcome.

i've [sorry, i'm too used to using "i" as a plural] finally had time to read more of this journal, and it's really interesting, some people have great ideas of dealing with things.

thanks again, looking forward to reading more, tom. (well mostly nick for this post.)

[changelyng14.livejournal.com]

hola! welcome.

co-conscious is, imu, a strong level of internal communication. if you want more co-consciousness, maybe work on your internal comm. (i could yap about how we modify stuff here). lol! you're definately not the only multi that uses computer terminology for it all! :P

and saying 'i' instead of 'we'. iwe call that 'singulese' (as opposed to 'multiplese')

look usme up anytime
yahoo == changelyng

[shatterstorm.livejournal.com]

Hello!

Several of us use computer terminology too. Operating system is for how we work as a group - who's using the body, what's being logged, access to shared resources, how the system puts people in the body during tense situations, etc. We use system to mean the group of us and our os in this body.

We've requested of our people that they leave either full memory or at least a basic summary of what goes on in our system log. Most of us don't like not being "in the know", and so they log out of courtesy.

i'd suggest talking to nick about hiding stuff. understand what he wants and finding safer ways for him to get it may help.