Help.

[sharpsight.livejournal.com]

I don't know who I am anymore.

I feel as though my mind is dissolving. First Markus grew silent; a few times I was able to get him to speak, but it felt more like hotwiring a dead car than listening to him as before. Then, a different voice spoke for a while, and then faded just as quickly. I can't reach Markus any more. Ghul watches, mocking, and I know that he knows that I know that I can't trust him to tell me the truth about what he sees or what he knows. I'm fairly certain that he's unaffected, however.

My thoughts differ. My mind differs, myself differs. I differ?

I remember that I used to have a name. But I don't

I don't know what to say, what to type. I don't know what's happening.

Help. Please.

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[changelyng14.livejournal.com]

:(

I wish i could help, but i dont understand what you're saying well enough to offer anything suggestive. :(

I might be able to say we have days where what you describe is similar to things we experience. sometimes we have trouble getting people 'propped' up and it could certainly be like hotwiring a car. and we certainly experience suspicion and paranoia when someone just 'doesnt feel like themself'.

if you want to chat about it, im at changelyng@gmail.com and im using yahoo-chat username 'changelyng14'

:(
Tia