Hey there

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I just wanted to let the members here know that I came to this community a while back, trying to understand what happened to me a long time ago. I have so many questions that I need answered for my own peace of mind and so that I can understand myself better. Last night I made two posts that were meant to start my journey to understanding what I went through, sharing experiences, and building a rapport with others who might be able to help me get some clarity about some of the smaller aspects of multiplicity (I use this term to describe any experience of having more than one personality in a body).

I felt that my well-intentioned questions were directed to the best community and that they were not going to be offensive. I see where some of the things I said in my original posts could have been taken that way and I did my best to address every issue someone took with what I said while simultaneously being innundated with replies in my inbox. It was my experience that the way my questions were received were for the most part negative. I cannot go on to trust that this community could be the best one for me in getting my pressing questions answered until I know the members here are willing to work with me in a non-abusive way.

I understand that some people have positive experiences with multiplicity. They might find it fun or cool or unique or whatever. This is not my experience with it. I repect other's experiences, but I'd just like to extend to the community that in order for my questions to be answered, I'd really like it if the members here might rethink how they treat people who they identify as new and dumb.

I started a new community that members here might be interested in joining: didsupport. Until there are more members there, is it okay if I continue to ask my questions here? I just need to know if I've been pegged as someone who has come to the community to stir up trouble or if I'm going to be treated nicely from now on.

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I apologize to all the very helpful people who answered my questions last night. My most recent post was not directed at them. : )

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Here's something that I have wondered at one point, but which I never came to a satisfactory conclusion to.

I feel, on some levels, that my people (those people that live inside my head) may not actually be inside my head, but that it is more like a twisted sort of telepathy or clairvoyance. Assuming for the moment that multiplicity isn't simply a "disorder" and nothing more, what if it isn't so much that we have multiple voices, but instead that our thoughtwaves are aligned in such a way that we can connect from across time/space/realms?

Sometimes I feel like with my people I am watching them in their own world rather than giving them space inside my head. Perhaps their world is just another dimension of this one, or maybe it even is this world? (I find the later doubtful, but it's still a thought.)

Maybe our brains are a receiver, picking up these other people?

This stems from a discussion I had a year ago or so, and I thought it was interesting, so I thought I'd post it here. Has anyone else had thoughts like this?

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