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[le-signet.livejournal.com]

hello this is shiori... first, i would like to apologize for deleting my previous post... i am sorry... but, i became scared leaving it up... of what, i do not know, it is strange to me as well. but, i did not feel comfortable leaving it... again, i am sorry...

i do have another question to ask, and this post i promise i will not delete. it is a question about names. since around the time that i became self-aware, i have been shiori. i do not know if this name was chosen by myself or if it was given to be, but it is my name and i see it as my name. however, recently (not terribly recently, this was perhaps several months ago) i have discovered my "real" or "true" name... i will not say what it is here because i feel that it is private, and only myself and the others here know about it. the discovery of this name was both exciting and confusing... exciting because it serves as proof that i have been around since the body was 4 years old (if not earlier) and previously i did not know this... but, it is confusing because this "new" name is me - i know this, it is my name, i have no doubt about that... but, i am also shiori... and having two names seems strange to me... i know that nicknames are common, and it is really not a strange thing at all, but having known myself as one thing for so many years and then realizing that yes, that may be me but this name is also me, it is a strange thing for me... so, i am wondering, if anyone else has had a similar experience with names... has anyone had one name, and then discovered that they have another "true" name? i apologize if i am not making sense, i had this planned in my mind before writing and it made sense then, but, writing it is not as easy and i will understand if this is not clear... thank you.


.shiori

p.s. this may or may not make my question clearer, but all along i have known that "shiori" is a nickname and not my true or original name, but i did not know my true name and so i needed something to be called by... but, i have used it for so long, it has become like a real name for me even though i have always known that it is not... and, i have always known that i did have a true name, but i did not know what it was. please, tell me if this does not make sense... reading over this post, it seems like a silly question to ask, but i will post anyway....

Comments

[plethorus.livejournal.com]

You might take a moment to read the community's rules where it states that members are not allowed to delete their posts, especially with responses to them.

[le-signet.livejournal.com]

i have all the responses saved... i can repost them if that would be all right...

[plethorus.livejournal.com]

I am sure that the people who responded would appreciate it, yes.

[le-signet.livejournal.com]

oh no they have been deleted... i am so sorry... i will removed myself from the community so the mods will not need to ban me.

[heyyy-sunshine.livejournal.com]

I don't think that's necessary, but that's just me. =)
I'm actually in a pretty similar situation. I haven't discovered what my "other name" is, but I know that there's something else that's my "true name" so I definitely see where you're coming from.

[tej-agni.livejournal.com]

I believe it is possible to make an edit to your entry without removing it entirely.

*R*

[le-signet.livejournal.com]

yes i know but i cannot undo it... i do not even know if i am still allowed to comment, so please forgive me if i am not.

[tej-agni.livejournal.com]

I can answer this one based on what I know from myself. :) 7 months ago when I became self aware of myself as an individual, I had no knowledge of who I was or even what my name was. At that time the only strong sense of a pull to anything I had was to butterflies. So that's the name I chose for myself. At first it was supposed to be a temporary name, but I've become so attached to it that it's now the name I use. What my true name is, or if I even have one, I don't know. I wonder if one day I will ever know my true name, and if I do, will the experience be how you describe it?

- Butterfly

[rhymer-713.livejournal.com]

BUTTERFLY!!!!!!!!!!! ::Glomps:: Hi!!!
Davan

[tej-agni.livejournal.com]

Hello, Davan. :) How are you?

- Butterfly

[rhymer-713.livejournal.com]

We're ok. Glad to see you around. You were missed.

Names

[rhymer-713.livejournal.com]

I understand very well where you are coming from. When I finally acknowledged that I was a separate person from the others I live with I had no name at all. A very kind group of friends gave me the name Davan to remind me that I was important and in a way not just a nameless soul. I do not know if I have a true name or not, but Davan is as true a name to me as any true name. I believe it is possible to have more than one true name, one for the most private of things and another for the things you do in daily life. Both are just as vallid.
Davan Starbright of Rhymershouse Collective