Fun!

[lirialgypsyrose.livejournal.com]

I know this isnt related but, I came across this community and i found it to be alot of fun for Moviebuffs out there! Check it out and tell them I sent yas!!
http://www.livejournal.com/community/the_reel_image/
Please tell me what ya think!

Plural within a Plural....

[bloodypetals.livejournal.com]

Is it possible to be dissociative and have alter(s) when one is already part of a larger system? Because I've recently come to the realization that I think I am. There are two people using my name, and one of them isn't the same as me. We've lived the same life, yes, but different parts of it.. Sort-of. (I think the others [andeveryoneelse] are starting to consider me/us to be either a soulbond or past life, if that clarifies it at all.) I'd forgotten that the other side of me still existed, and I don't know if he ever realized I did... Ah.. Yes. It's just very odd. Hm.. Name-wise, I suppose I'll let him have our birth-name and I'll take the name we got later.

Anyhow. I/we'll be lurking, I suppose.

-Suran/Zakai

Thinking out loud

[angie-the-red.livejournal.com]

So, I've read both Astrea and Blackbirds, and things are slowly kind of falling into place. I'm trying to make sense out of the various things in my head. Reviewing all of that, and some very diligent meditation on various points, has led me to believe that I am not a singlet. Can I absolutely say that I'm a complete multiple? Not sure I'm to that point yet. At the moment, I think that I would consider myself a median, if I'm interpreting things correctly. A few of the things that really stuck out, that I hadn't mentioned previously, were certain abilities, and handwriting. Using these, I feel certain of one other, and she has her own personality, but I'm not sure how independant she is. This is going to take a lot of puzzling, so if I get too wordy just poke me with a sharp stick or something. *g*

Under normal circumstances I can't draw a straight line, much less anything else. However, there is something I can tap into, call up, whatever, and if I keep that up front, then I can draw exceptionally well. But as soon as I release that, it's back to scribbling like my 8 year old. I have to stay in that "zone" and it's almost an obsessive thing, and if I lose it, then I have to wait until it decides to come back. I'm not sure how developed this one is. She doesn't talk much, just kind of shows up and I really have to hang on to her when she does, she doesn't like to be interrupted.

The handwriting was another thing that gave me quite a bit of pause. If I go back and read my journal that I kept, I can see at least three different styles of handwriting. One is very clean and crisp, the loops are there, but tight, and it all flows beautifully. One is what I would call my usual handwriting, it's sloppy, it has nice large loops, the y's and p's are triangular on the bottom loops, there are hooks all over the place. Then there is a third one that is all printing. Very boxy. There is also one that is a mix of the sloppy one and the print. I don't recall any conscious decision to change my handwriting, and was actually quite surprised to see the very crisp, neat one in my journal. The tone during those entries is very clinical. Making observations, but not expressing any emotion.

The boxy print takes up nearly two years, but is interrupted in places by the mixed one. The mixed one is very melodramatic. The boxy print is secretive. Nothing is specific. In fact, it's half sentences in many places. It used plenty of emotion, but no names, and no definitive descriptions. It's incredibly vague about everything. You would think I was practicing to be a secret agent! And I remember the things I was writing about. I think this script belongs to the one that I can really say is seperate and most well defined. She's the one I usually feel driving, when I'm the one in the back seat. She's all about bravado, and she's fiercely protective. She's the one that I have no control over her coming up, and on the other hand, looking back, I think I can sometimes sense her pushing up front, but I sure as heck can't stop her. I feel like once she's said her piece, I can move her back and then the usual me has to do some damage control. Then again, since she isn't dependant on me, then that wouldn't make me a median, would it?

So, I'm off to ponder some more and see about the artist and also on my suspicion of who the elegant writing belongs to.

...And yet another question. Sorry.

[sharpsight.livejournal.com]

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[tigrin.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to add in yet another question, but this has been something I've been wondering about for a while, and am curious to see if and how people here experience it...

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