x-posted to Multiplicity, ricktboy, and st_bastard

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So last night I had this dream, that my husband thinks is related to my others. I was in an apartment, belonging to "S" and she was going to Europe for a week. She had decided to sublet the apartment, but wanted me to stay there while these strangers were there. I led these people in, and walking into the back bedroom, I looked into the closet, and realized that it led to a whole other part of the apartment I never knew existed. Walking through, I saw more rooms, and kept thinking to myself, "we can make this into a bedroom, we can make this into another bedroom" and at one point, referring to an expanse of marble floor, "we can put a jacuzzi here". I ended up in a kitchen, with the father of the family that was staying there, and he offered me a snack cake from a box of Drake's Cakes. I took one, but then told him that Tastycakes were much better, and we got into a serious discussion about the strong points of both. A large Swedish gay man appeared, who was apparently their masseuse, and grabbed my shirt, pulling it off like some exotic dancer, and began rubbing me down. It felt incredible. He then proceeded to tell the father that he agreed with me, that Tastycakes are better, and they're his guilty pleasure. He also told me that it was his secret ambition to be a body piercer. He told me how he wanted to pierce his lip or labret(maybe both) and his bellybutton. He also told me how he had wanted to pierce his nipples, but his lovah said they were "too gay". It was at this point, that the entire dream started over again, playing the whole thing through the exact same way. It repeated this way five times. (Talk about recuring dreams! LOL)

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[st-bastard.livejournal.com]

I'm probably going to post things here from this journal in the future. I made this one so I could post things without worrying about what people would say about what I wrote, because the other one seemed a little too public.So I made this one, and if you'd like to friend me, go ahead, but read my disclaimer first. that out of the way, there's something i'd like to ask y'all about. it's a couple things, actually, and i'm posting the convo they're in as well...i'll cut it, but bear with me.


( Convo with a friend )

so my questions are, pretty much,

1. do you ever notice you're hungry or thirsty or something too often, because they're hungry, or thirsty, etc kinda without you, or something

2. Anyone else have an intense phobia of being locked up for being multiple?  I tend to shy away from mental health professionals, because of this.

3. has anyone else ever felt the trapped, claustrophobic feeling I described? It was intense, and sooo scary. I don't consider myself crazy, just because i'm multiple, but this morning, I certainly felt like I was going crazy.