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[bizamoogie.livejournal.com]

Over the past few days, I've been paying really close attention to myself and my people. What I've realized is that I am not multiple. I don't have people in my head, I don't have a house, I don't hear voices. All I have is a different way of thinking whenever I become one of my people. I'll become Lori and I'll see things as Lori does. I'll think the way she thinks. It'll be more comfortable to hold my body the way she does. But it's still me. It's the same with Sarena. I'll become Sarena and suddenly, I don't need to talk. The world seems brighter and I feel happier. But I'm still me. So I'm not multiple. I don't know what I am, but I'm not multiple. Sorry for leading you guys on.

-Heather

EDIT:::
My biggest problem right now is, one of my people cheated on my husband with two different guys in the same week while he was involved in Army stuffs. Now he thinks I did it on purpose (and wants me to give him permission to have an affair to make it 'even') and I didn't do it on purpose. I didn't even know I'd done it and was in denial of it for months after I found evidence of it occuring. Me, as myself, would never ever cheat on him.

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[hellmutt.livejournal.com]

Your husband may like to take a look at that old proverb about two wrongs and one right.

Any reasonable definition of lying must surely be along the lines of "deliberately claiming something that you know to be untrue". I don't have a clue about the ethical issues involved in fooling yourself (if that's what you think you've been doing), but "lying" is a needlessly charged word.

Most of the world considers multiplicity (DID) to be a mental illness, and thus something requiring sympathy and concessions to be offered to the 'sufferer' (particularly if the 'sufferer' shows some sign of seeking help). That way of thinking could be helpful here.

Look into getting a counsellor or therapist - and don't necessarily talk to hir about this one issue, but use hir as a sounding board for everything that's been on your mind. A neutral outside viewpoint is a thing to be valued.