I'm holding all my blood inside this skin

[ex-khailitha846.livejournal.com]

Greetings to all!

I have a question.

Seems that almost every multiple I know has at one time or another dealt with a self-destructive system member that cuts, or engages in activities that are similarly dangerous to the body. The multiples I know have all been involved in trauma's of some sort (the most interesting one had for a father one of Fidel Castro's ex-bodyguards - serious freakiness there, but I digress).

Since interacting with this community, I have been introduced to the phenomenon of natural multiples, which makes sense to me and, I think, addresses some of the unanswered questions about why many horribly abused kids don't develop DID but use other coping mechanisms. I don't really want this to turn into a big discussion about the natural vs. trauma thing, but I am curious...

How many systems here deal or have dealt with self-destructive members and do you think is this an experience more closely linked with trauma-involved multiples or is it a trait shared equally across the full spectrum of all multiples? +edit: Or, do you think self-harm and multiplicity have no intrinsic connection, given the number of singlets who also engage in self-harming activities.

All comments and experiences would be greatly appreciated.

Sending good vibes to all!

Jess

Comments

[azraile.livejournal.com]

if your wondering how this could be delt with....

try this....


get a dull blade and 'cut' yourself with it.... one that mearly is sharp enugh to leave scratch marks at the most... lol... and just draw it over you a lot...... enugh you can feel it.....

the kinda rituatilstic mocking of self cutting can relax those urges quite a bit.

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

Here's another. Get a BIG, RED magic marker. Use exactly as you would a knife for cutting. This works; we've got several friends who cured themselves of cutting using this method.

If you feel like breaking glass when you're uptight, freeze water in a tray and break it. It feels very realistic.

[azraile.livejournal.com]

*nods lightly* just anything you feel like doing... do some mock up non hurtfull version of it..... and if you do it just like you would whant to do normaly and it gets that our of your system and you fell better...... least if you do it as hartfully as you would....

I've never cut myself enugh to draw blood becose of doing this... (intetionaly anyway lol)

[ex-khailitha846.livejournal.com]

Thanks, both of you, for the suggestions. This stuff is really useful to know. We left off cutting a long time ago, (knock on wood) but get really psyched when We go to the glass recycling drop off and smash all the glass We've saved up. Not only do We get to break things, but We get to feel smug about being so environmentally responsible.

[shadowechoes.livejournal.com]

That's what I try to do now, the marker thing. I actually discovered it by accident when some of the kids were having marker fight wars and scribbled all over eachother.
~Broken Wings

Agreed

[darkheart1.livejournal.com]

I agree with this method, I have DID MPD which ever you want to classify it as and I have two major alters that cut, one really bad and the other not to often only when they have problems in this life and the alter that cuts bad is down to just scatching the surface and it satisfies him, or if its not just scratching the surface its laying a blade that has a girated edge to it and just pressing it down into the skin until they felt the pinch in the skin and that satisfies him too. I agree with your method here.

Demitri

Re: Agreed

[azraile.livejournal.com]

I don't think a sharp blade shoudl be used at all.. to tempting to just turn and cut

Think it's far better to just use a dull one EXACTLY like you would the sharp one... but sence it's dull it can't cut deep enugh to draw blood.. just scratch...

very helpfull for me....

but a sharp one like this might do it if the dull one don't help