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multiplicity_archivesGreetings and Salutations:
I have been reading, posting and making comments here for about two weeks now and just wanted to officially introduce myself and my system and say thank you to everyone here.
I am Jessica of the Khailitha system. At present, there are about 30 people (hard to get an exact head count) and another 100 or so fragments in here.
The process of going from being fucking nuts 15 years ago to being a (pretty much) functional system now was a task which, at one point, I had no hope of ever achieving. I remember asking one of my many therapists to find me a functional multiple (that's not what I called it at the time, but it was what I was looking for) so that I could have hope. He said he didn't know of any. And he "specialized" in the treatment of DID. Our eight-year old (Becky) called and fired him shortly after.
We have coped with raising 4 children of the body who We had no memories of giving birth to (they were born to a created personality - a mormon housewife who took charge of the system by force and stayed in charge for 8 years by trying to kill the rest of us and who left, unceremoniously, when the system became self-aware) figuring out how to deal with the babies and the hiders and the cutters and the sex girls and the dark ones (and the dark sex girls who want to cut someone), trying to frame a belief system that included all the inter-dimensional traveling and otherworld entities that were key to healing, and creating some sort of a philosophy that encompassed everyone's reality and right to exist while at the same time ensuring a basic level of integrity when interacting with the outside world. We saw thirteen therapists in 9 years and finally gave up on the clinical view of either the definition or the treatment. Very good call, that.
Whew. And in all this time, I have never met another functional multiple system.
Recently two of my outside kids moved away and started posting on lj as a way to keep in touch. I started communicating with them here, and then started poking around, and then found this community. And it was like.... long sigh.... cool. We are not alone in the universe.
I can't even begin to express the appreciation I have for all of you. I am amazed at the diversity and clarity and caring that shines through so many of the dialogues here. I feel like I'm back on a learning curve of healing and growth - and like for the first time I have a place where I can share and get advice from others who have a similar frame of reference. There's new information to be processed and validation... so much of... yeah... I can so relate.
So, anyway, HI... thank you for being, and hugs.
Jessica etal
I have been reading, posting and making comments here for about two weeks now and just wanted to officially introduce myself and my system and say thank you to everyone here.
I am Jessica of the Khailitha system. At present, there are about 30 people (hard to get an exact head count) and another 100 or so fragments in here.
The process of going from being fucking nuts 15 years ago to being a (pretty much) functional system now was a task which, at one point, I had no hope of ever achieving. I remember asking one of my many therapists to find me a functional multiple (that's not what I called it at the time, but it was what I was looking for) so that I could have hope. He said he didn't know of any. And he "specialized" in the treatment of DID. Our eight-year old (Becky) called and fired him shortly after.
We have coped with raising 4 children of the body who We had no memories of giving birth to (they were born to a created personality - a mormon housewife who took charge of the system by force and stayed in charge for 8 years by trying to kill the rest of us and who left, unceremoniously, when the system became self-aware) figuring out how to deal with the babies and the hiders and the cutters and the sex girls and the dark ones (and the dark sex girls who want to cut someone), trying to frame a belief system that included all the inter-dimensional traveling and otherworld entities that were key to healing, and creating some sort of a philosophy that encompassed everyone's reality and right to exist while at the same time ensuring a basic level of integrity when interacting with the outside world. We saw thirteen therapists in 9 years and finally gave up on the clinical view of either the definition or the treatment. Very good call, that.
Whew. And in all this time, I have never met another functional multiple system.
Recently two of my outside kids moved away and started posting on lj as a way to keep in touch. I started communicating with them here, and then started poking around, and then found this community. And it was like.... long sigh.... cool. We are not alone in the universe.
I can't even begin to express the appreciation I have for all of you. I am amazed at the diversity and clarity and caring that shines through so many of the dialogues here. I feel like I'm back on a learning curve of healing and growth - and like for the first time I have a place where I can share and get advice from others who have a similar frame of reference. There's new information to be processed and validation... so much of... yeah... I can so relate.
So, anyway, HI... thank you for being, and hugs.
Jessica etal
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