My system's usual front. Just a mix of things, I think... I don't know. I'll give a link to the letter she left us... it's somewhere here: http://www.livejournal.com/community/deusdebris
But now her boyfriend, who I myself have come to love as well, is also suicidal because of it. And he's a singlet, so if he dies... well... pretty fucking permanent. I'm not sure what's happened to Ace... She might've just retreated very far inward. I don't know.
i think we'd be going nuts if we were in your situation right now. it would be really hard to deal with that level of helplessness. is there anyone you could call who might be able to check in with him?
i'm glad you have some way to reach out in the meantime.
My sympathies and best wishes. I too am a multiple-somebody's singlet boyfriend. I hope Ace's boyfriend is brave. I know that it is hard for us (singlet spouses/boyfriends/etc) to understand what is meant by 'die'. I also know that I'm strange myself, bi, and have a capacity for polyamory, which maybe Ace's boyfriend doesn't? It's dreadfully important to me not to fixate or be like 'THIS one is best!' I hope things are well for you- seems like this sort of thing is bound to be difficult.
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Date: 2003-12-23 08:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-23 08:46 pm (UTC)I'll give a link to the letter she left us... it's somewhere here: http://www.livejournal.com/community/deusdebris
But now her boyfriend, who I myself have come to love as well, is also suicidal because of it. And he's a singlet, so if he dies... well... pretty fucking permanent. I'm not sure what's happened to Ace... She might've just retreated very far inward. I don't know.
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Date: 2003-12-23 08:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-23 08:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-23 11:35 pm (UTC)we hope they're both ok.
i think we'd be going nuts if we were in your situation right now. it would be really hard to deal with that level of helplessness. is there anyone you could call who might be able to check in with him?
i'm glad you have some way to reach out in the meantime.
take care.
storyteller
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Date: 2004-01-04 01:41 pm (UTC)I hope things are well for you- seems like this sort of thing is bound to be difficult.
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Date: 2003-12-24 01:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-24 02:23 am (UTC)