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[j3nny3lf.livejournal.com]

Hi, I just found this community through Astraea's web. I figured out a few years ago that I'm multiple, and I am sure that the origins of this are abuse based for me, and was really amazed to learn that not all multiples have had an abuse/trauma basis in their own lives. How interesting is that? Wow.

In further reading tonight, I found that I am not as unique as I had thought, that there's a name for what I/we experience. Age slider. Each of my many mes is just me, but at a different age. The youngest is six years old, the oldest is 39. I am currently 42. Most often out and about other than "me" is Jennifer, who is seventeen years old.

I guess I want to learn more. I want to discover what it's all about, how we live together. I'd decided a long time ago now that "integration" sounded just a little too much like voodoo to me, and my other selves had told my husband that it sounded like dying or death to them, they fear it terribly. They are me, killing them off is not an option. Taking care of them is what needs to be done. This is how I am thinking.

Anyways, that's me.

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[cold-ataraxy.livejournal.com]

Welcome. We're the Featherdance, and feeling kinda blendy at the front since most of us are trying to pay attention to our homeworld, Nimoko. We are a gateway system, but we do have a few members on Nimoko who are trauma-split in and of themselves. Specifically, Fire's household sounds pretty much a lot like what you're describing. She says she'd love to talk to you at some point.

- Saanalam and Delta, of
The Featherdance/The Us
Nimoko