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[sightless-light.livejournal.com]

i was just wondering...

how many others here aren't quite human?   i mean, i know it happens, but-  i'm not human.  i don't know what i am.  heather drew a really nice picture of me in our journal (as soon as our furniture gets here, i'm sure she'll scan it and post it somewhere).  but does anyone else here have non-human features?  also, does anyone else experience a relatively smooth front transition? heather, ceri, and i have no problem switching around for some reason.

thanks in advance!

shardae
-the sightlesslight system

Comments

[kalli-moon.livejournal.com]

Some times I guess they can be weird. One of the vampires I know is pretty weird but not because he's a vampire but because he makes alot of trouble! Haaa.

Kalli

[weirdiguess.livejournal.com]

Well I mean, I'm saying vampires are weird. The fact they exist is weird. 'm not talking about them as people. Wouldn't know 'bout that.

[kalli-moon.livejournal.com]

Why do you think vampires existing is weird? The vampires I know are just like humans except for the blood and their powers and not aging. They can give birth to babies. Amalah's baby will be born next month and she's married to a vampire. Amalah is half angelic and she thinks her baby will have wings like Amirah's babies.

Kalli

[weirdiguess.livejournal.com]

It's weird 'cause they don't exist. They were a myth where I came from, 'till I found out otherwise, and here they really are a myth. Anything that's pretty much just some myth is weird if it's 'real'.

Sorry but out here in the physical world, where people just grow up and go to school and get jobs and don't have fluffy unicorns in their back yards, this stuff really isn't actually normal, so don't act like I'm pulling this stuff out my ass alright?

[kalli-moon.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry again. I only wanted to talk about it but if it bothers you I'll stop. I'm sorry.

Kalli

[weirdiguess.livejournal.com]

Well hey I can talk about stuff, I just don't like people acting like I'm the one who's nuts. This stuff might be normal for you but, you know, it's not for everybody. I'm getting used to not questioning Selene, still pretty weirded out by everything else.

[kalli-moon.livejournal.com]

I never thought you were nuts at all. I thought you are cool. Do other people think you are crazy when you talk about some things like this? I would never think you were crazy.

Kalli

[weirdiguess.livejournal.com]

When you say you don't think they're weird, makes it sound like I'm being strange for thinking they are. Just a little frustrating for me. Most people I know either agree with me or just laugh 'cause I'm not real good at dealing with 'weird stuff'. Some people in places like this act like I'm odd or maybe even rude or a bad person for seeing things the way I do. Like when I was saying about kids who don't age, I don't know whether people are gonna think I make sense or they're going to jump me for not being accepting enough.

[kalli-moon.livejournal.com]

I don't think your strange for thinking vampires are weird. There are things that I think are weird that some people might not like. I think its strange when some people talk about not having another world to go to when they aren't fronting. That is just me and I don't think those people are weird or crazy or that there is some thing wrong with them. That is what is real for them. Its hard for me to understand it because that isn't my experience. Some times I try to step outside myself and see things from how other people might see things. If you say its weird I believe you. Is it OK to say that it isn't weird for me?

Kalli

[weirdiguess.livejournal.com]

No reason why it wouldn't be. Different people are going to think some things aren't that strange even if they're pretty unusual. I try not to think about things like that so it's probably always gonna feel strange to me. I don't really think of the people I know as like, voices in people's heads or like, aliens or wolves or anything. I like my world nice and normal.

(sorry if I stop making sense in places. Kinda not running on very much sleep on this end.)

[kalli-moon.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. Some times I wish things were normal to. I wish this body matched me and I wished I didn't have to share it. I love every one else here with me but I wish I could live my own life separate from them some times when I'm here. I want to do my own things. It makes me sad that I can't do that. This is why I don't come here that much because I feel like I'm trapped in this body. I might not mind it that much if most every one else in this world were the same and understood what its like but it isn't like that. I feel like I have no one to talk to about it. I don't want to say that it hurt me but it does. I try to act grown up and say most things don't bother me but I don't tell people that inside I feel sad. I haven't been sleeping good either.

Kalli

[weirdiguess.livejournal.com]

Girl's been saying stuff like that recently. Saying she doesn't like much that she doesn't have people in the real world she can talk to 'bout stuff like this. And that we can't really be out while there's people around, and she doesn't feel real comfortable letting the kids out.

If you had your own body you'd be stuck being a normal kid, growing up and all, right?

(man I don't even front properly. Not really comfortable with a girl body yet)

[kalli-moon.livejournal.com]

I don't know what it would be like to be here with my own body. If it were that way for me I wouldn't know any other way and it would be OK. When I'm this way and I'm in an adult body and I see other kids that are the age I say I am and they are smaller and are treated different I cry. I cry and I don't want to hurt any one else so I don't let them see. Maybe it would be to hard to suddenly go from how I am into my own body but if I was born with my own body then it would be OK.

Kalli

[weirdiguess.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I guess though if you're born with it everything's alright. I mean we only know what we know, right? If I was born as some black chick I'd probably never know any better.

Actually that'd be pretty damned weird to think about...

(Yeah guess you can see when I got my LJ handle from huh)

I don't really front much so I dunno, I guess it hasn't really hit me yet. Selene doesn't like seeing other moms. Hell one girl just friended her on LJ, and this girl's pregnant. Selene's not friended her back, seems to be taking it a little hard. Doesn't seem to be much I can do about it either. Guess no matter what's inside, it's never really the same.