I really like my therapist

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She is the only one of the 'professionals' who smiles at me and gives me POSITIVE feedback and pays attention to me and tells me I'm doing a GOOD JOB!!

That is so valuable to me and it's important that she's OUTSIDE the county system. The county system seems to not want to give you the message that you can or will get better. They always point out the things you 'need' to do or 'should' be doing. They reinforce negatively and point out all the things you are doing WRONG. This has just served to drive me down further and disempowered me. I'm talking about the case managers. Sure they'll give you an occasional 'good' but nothing like I'm getting from Lesly my therapist, I feel very empowered and competent when I come out of there, something The System apparently doesn't have the time or the inclination to want me to feel for some reason.

So I just basically give up on them. I pretty much got them for my meds and late night support when the symptoms get too bad which is when I get lost... but now I got this new program called 'Mood Monitor' and I think it's going to really be a great little program for me, program in the sense of 'application', it will keep track of moodswings and life events and sleep patterns and meds and so on and that's going to be valuable in the months ahead.

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You are very fortunate to have a therapist like that

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I know how hard it is to find a therapist or anyone for that matter who really understands and will give positive feedback to you. I must admit, I am lucky too, but the time I spent in the hospital was some kind of hell. I had one case manager tell me that I was never molested by this one guy, merely based on the fact that he was my boyfriend at the time. So I guess in her book it's ok to attack someone as long as you are in a commited relationship with them. And another thing, I was on these horrible meds and I passed out in the middle of the hospital and no one came to my assistance. And then the doctor refused to take me off of the medication. My therapist says that one of her patients was completely stripped naked by someone in the hospital just because they thought she was suicidal. What sense does that make? Anyways, when I become a psychologist I am going to start a mental health movement in this dang country and get some real people working in the field of psychology!

Re: You are very fortunate to have a therapist like that

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I hope you wouldn't lose your license! I wonder if you're still on the meds? I'm weaning myself sloooowly off the topomax which might be why I'm hitting a low today I guess I should tell my pdoc about it since he wants to take me down off meds anyway.

I find it best to populate one's life, as much as one can, with these positive-thinkers, or nurturers, like my therapist, like my uncle. Whether professional or personal, if you run into one of them hold onto them but don't wear them out or take advantage be respectful. They are usually the ones with well-tended gardens, or several cats, or houseplants. They like to make things grow. Sidle up to these people and get them into your life. They're worth their weight in gold.

I alas am not one of them. I know I grow data, not organic things. Words and fragmented ideas... In a Jackson Pollock kind of way... and yet as I understand it... people find great value in this... probably far more than I know.

I think we're all part of a vast web that is greater than we will ever understand. Maybe when we die we get to be in a state, maybe just for a little while, in which we get to understand it all.

Just an idea

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i have been pretty lucky, but i did have a very bad therapist who ended up causing more dissociation, i am finaly rid of her, and it was all very hard for me, but now i have an awsome wonderful tehrapist, she is very good for me, i have only known her for about 2 months, but still i think she is awsome, and respectful, and any of us can talk to her, if somone is talking and tells her tehre name she always says hi to them, and uses there name, last therapist didn't think any of us was real, and the only name she would evre call us is the ones of our state id card, and our checks, and we all hate that name, we got really afraid of her, and the fear made us unable to leave, and itw as all a big mess
good therapists are wonderful