[identity profile] coconutchica.livejournal.com posting in [community profile] multiplicity_archives
hey, i've been thinking a lot and i just must know.....how do you know? i mean i'm borderline but i have to be honest. i finally totally understand my friend's system. but kate said that she always thought i was a multiple. and honestly, i have to kind of consider it. i mean......everyone in her system could trigger me to anything...i wouldn't even notice until a couple days ago when i finally noticed how rapid switching could be and what set her off.

like, i constantly argue with myself in my head, but i've always considered it me. but that is what my friend said too....like i know i'm VERY dissociative so i dont know if my mind and my body just actually talk to each other and have conflicting interests....but i so often want different things at exactly the same time, or totally change in a second my mood .... and i feel like a little kid a lot. i mean i have always used plastic cups out of fear of breaking a glass. i always feel like i'm at my grandma's house when i open a cabinet for a glass, and she died when i was 7.

and i always randomly remember things and get annoyed by them. basically i see her actions mirroring a lot of mine, i just never knew before bc she tried so hard to hide her differences from the world.

i have never felt like i belonged in this time period and i've always believed in past lives....i'm just so freaking concrete, i have no idea what this is all about.

sorry to ramble. i just had to get it out.

Date: 2006-12-23 06:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mirrorbrothers.livejournal.com
Ahh, while I'd hesitate to call myself an expert, I'd have to say that mood changes and agesliding and talking to yourself and weird memory stuff aren't actually the important part. The important part is, is there another person in there, who sees him/herself as distinct from you? That's really what being multiple means. The rest of it is just stuff that many multiples do/have.

I don't mean to tell you what you are or aren't; that's your job. But that's the definition of multiple, as I grok it.

Johnny

Date: 2006-12-23 07:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cirape.livejournal.com
ike, i constantly argue with myself in my head, but i've always considered it me.

Dizzy does this to/with herself a lot. But she's still just one person.
In fact, I believe a lot of 'normal' people talk to themselves about certain things (whether or not to do something, I'd expect). It doesn't make you plural.

For what makes you plural... see Johnny's post above.

Date: 2006-12-23 08:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
Did you know that they are learning that Borderlines are multiples tha were too old to split? Most borderlines talk about having symptoms of multiplicity, moreso than socalled normal people, without having individuls inside.

Weird huh?

So yeah you prolly relate like hell to multiples.

Date: 2006-12-23 11:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tej-agni.livejournal.com
what does too old to split mean? when I was born from Kasia and Amirah they were both adults but I feel I am more their child. is splitting when someone creates a child? Kes

Date: 2006-12-24 01:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
On a trauma model there is believed to be an age where the first dissociation has to occur, usually before 5. if one has the capacity to split but doesnt need to until after this age then they are too old to split

Date: 2006-12-24 01:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tej-agni.livejournal.com
what if someone splits without trauma and are older? Kes

Date: 2006-12-24 01:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
which is why i said on the trauma model.

the natural born model is an anything can happen one, huh?

Date: 2006-12-24 01:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tej-agni.livejournal.com
why is the age 5 if there's trauma but any age if there is no trauma? I still don't understand why it matters what the age is. Kes

Date: 2006-12-24 03:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
with natural you already are, arent you? whether or not someone comes out is besides the point, right?

Date: 2006-12-24 10:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tej-agni.livejournal.com
I'm not multiple myself but others in our group are. I suppose I'd be a single mind in our group. Kes

Date: 2006-12-24 01:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ksol1460.livejournal.com
Believed by whom? I've seen too many different cutoff ages cited for this paradigm. That's one reason I don't buy it. I don't doubt that some systems originate in trauma-splitting, but that doesn't prevent the 'official' model from being faulty, based as it is largely upon conjecture.

It seems to me that if one had the capacity to split at a young age, that capacity would not be lost, although it might become dormant. The only capacity I know of with an even partially proven cutoff age is language acquisition.

Again, please, could you cite your sources?

Date: 2006-12-24 01:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
i wish i could. they were found on line as part of thesis papers that were published, but i didnt save the link.

Date: 2006-12-24 01:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cirape.livejournal.com
Can you find it? Or do you not remember anything? Part of the title? Author? Even publisher?
I want to read these studies.

If I can't get my hands on them, I'm probably going to disregaurd this theory. Dizzy's come across too many people claiming they're backed by studies when they are not.

Date: 2006-12-24 01:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cirape.livejournal.com
Was it this? (//www.heart7.net/mpd-did-iic.html)

Interestingly enough, that says there's a difference between MPD and DID. I wasn't aware there was one (all of my books say it was just a term change).
I can find a few other things that say 'usually before 7' (or 5-9 in one case). But there seems to be very little support of it, or else my little google search would have turned up a lot more.

Date: 2006-12-24 02:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
It might have been. Allison wrote a lot of stuff so it could be his work that is bouncing in my head

Date: 2006-12-24 02:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ksol1460.livejournal.com
If the idea of borderline personality disorder arising from proto-multiplicity comes from Allison, I'm not encouraged to believe either in its validity or in its credibility among mental health professionals.

He does put difference between MPD and DID; here, he explains how he witnessed controversy between academicians and clinicians (http://www.dissociation.com/index/definition/) which led to the DID diagnosis and the abandonment of MPD as a valid condition. Whether or not one accepts fully Allison's doctrine on the origins of MPD, the article on definitions is still interesting.

Date: 2006-12-24 02:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
Borderline and multiplicity was not an Allison, age was.

I started a new topic.

Date: 2006-12-24 02:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ksol1460.livejournal.com
Probably you should not state such a controversial idea with such certainty then until you do have somewhat to back it up. Like most psychological ideas it is liable to be based on a few doctors' interactions with a handful of clients, which is hardly an unbiased sampling.

Date: 2006-12-24 02:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
youre right. that was dumb and i was unprepared.

i am suprised that this is such a controversial idea.

Date: 2006-12-24 02:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ksol1460.livejournal.com
Dumb, not at all. Unprepared, yes.

Perhaps in another community or forum, where the authority of modern psychiatry goes relatively unquestioned, this idea might not be so controversial -- although I'd at least be prepared to give the name of the doctor, or the journal where the study was published, or something.

Here, because of members' wide range of experiences in terms of group structure as well as origins, such an idea is likely to be met with more skepticism.

Date: 2006-12-24 01:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cirape.livejournal.com
It seems to me that if one had the capacity to split at a young age, that capacity would not be lost, although it might become dormant.

I agree with this. Knowing what I know of the human mind (though, admittedly, not much), there's no reason that the ability to 'split' would stop at such a young age. One could argue that it had to do with the development of the mind, but if so I'd point the 'cut off age' at somewhere much closer to sexual maturity.
There's an age around there that once a human reaches, if they have not already learned a (human) language they become incapable or fully learning it. Happens in feral children. I don't have any sources now but I can find it.
But, regardless of that, it seems more likely to me that the ability to split wouldn't stop as one gets over, but become more likely. That, however, is based on my system members and thus obviously flawed.

Date: 2006-12-23 12:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ksol1460.livejournal.com
Could you please cite your source for this?

It's just that I've never heard of this idea before -- it must be quite recent -- and that I've always been somewhat skeptical of the idea of a cutoff age, even within the traditional trauma-dissociation-split paradigm. I'd like to know more.

Date: 2006-12-24 01:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
it isnt hard fact yet, but just studies being done with those that treat bordelines are suggesting this.

Date: 2006-12-24 01:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cirape.livejournal.com
What studies?

Date: 2006-12-24 01:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ksol1460.livejournal.com
Citation please? I've an excellent science library at my disposal just down the street. I would love to read peer-reviewed journal reports on this.
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Date: 2006-12-24 01:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
it is believed to be around 5, some people are older but not often for the first split.

Date: 2006-12-23 04:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nat-leia.livejournal.com
I would like to receive more information on "most borderlines talk about having symptoms of multiplicity"- could you please pinpoint me to the communities/newsgroups/email lists etc. that would state this 'fact' more clearly? Apparently, hearsay isn't what I consider most relevant information to my findings...

-S.

Date: 2006-12-23 06:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cirape.livejournal.com
Too old to split?

What's the limit? 90? Dizzy's split at 24-25, and keeps trying to split lately (26).

I need your sources in order to take this statement seriously.

Date: 2006-12-24 01:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] drleanne.livejournal.com
too old for the first split

Date: 2006-12-24 01:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cirape.livejournal.com
See, the problem with that is no one here split /at all/ until at least middle or high school. Even then its theorized. The first noticeable split was in the body's 20s.
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Date: 2006-12-24 02:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cirape.livejournal.com
I wouldn't count you as a split, and certainly not a trauma caused one.

Date: 2006-12-23 11:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tej-agni.livejournal.com
why do your friends trigger you to do things? Kes

Date: 2006-12-24 09:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tahaton.livejournal.com
so they keep distracting me until i have no memory of what was happening

I have friends that do that. It's called being a friend. I don't remember bad stuff when I'm having fun usually either, so a lot of friends will just try and make you happy. That's not 'triggering' :P that's cheering up!

Date: 2006-12-24 09:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tahaton.livejournal.com
ike, i constantly argue with myself in my head, but i've always considered it me.

Normal for singlets, yup.

but i so often want different things at exactly the same time, or totally change in a second my mood

Us too. But individually! That's very very normal, I'd be worried if you didn't do that!

i feel like a little kid a lot.

Happens for a lot of people, me included. You seeing where this is going, right? :P

Multiples will try to hide many things. That doesn't make them abnormal for singlets! I can try to hide the fact that a minute ago I didn't really like X drink, where as now 'I' (Sade) is gulping it down, because I think people will notice and think it's weird! But if it was just me changing my mind, I wouldn't think to hide it. Same behaviour, different reasons, different feelings about it.

Honestly, it sounds like you should relax and try to just live instead of wondering if you are multiple :) right now you sound like just about every other singlet out there :P Live with it and what happens happens!

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