Interacting With Others

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Richard here. I know I'm not the only one who's experienced this, but I guess I need to hear that. I hardly ever front. The first time I ever fronted, the person I "met" wanted to integrate me, effectively killing me. My mindmate never associated with that person again. Well, fronting and interacting with others hasn't exactly been easy after that. We've made a couple of friends who now know about me, and I'm testing the waters with email and the like. Well, I don't do it that often, and I sometimes say the wrong thing. I get teased about it, and I just don't deal well with that.

Any other infrequent fronters have the same experience? I got teased today. It was harmless. I know that. But it still hurt, and right now I feel like pulling back inside and never coming out again.

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[terendel.livejournal.com]

*laughing* Yeah, Johnny. If only I were as lucky as you to have a mindmate who's the same gender. But I'm a guy, and she's a girl. And a short, petite girl at that. So we have to be pretty careful about who we come out to.

And I'm doing better now. I've sorted it out with the person who teased me. I've been talking with someone for years (my mindmate) who barely needs words. So I have to remember that other people don't have that close a link to me. I have to actually explain stuff.