Professional(ly) paranoid

[stealthdragon.livejournal.com]

I've certainly got more experience with that than engineering.


What brings it up is that I'm going through the psych. evaluation process again, in order to get disability services for ADD from the college I'm going to. (I moved cross-country on short notice last year, and the previous psychologist seems to have dropped off the face of the earth.) So it's back to monitoring every little thing I say about the inside of my headspace, and having to somehow make it seem like I'm not.

I suspect that the stress is blocking me off from my brainmates; I haven't heard from them for more than a week now. (Or maybe I've just pissed them off, but I doubt it. Neither is the sort to use the 'silent treatment' against anyone.)

Can't wait to get this over and done with.

- Kathru, alone

Comments

[mirrorbrothers.livejournal.com]

I doubt it too. I've done the blocked-off thing. It was medium-traumatic. Not the sort of thing a guy does for fun. Maybe it'd be different in systems with an internal world, or for that matter, a third person. But, yeah, my guess is stress.

- Johnny

[ex-pinkmonk.livejournal.com]

have they ever come and gone before? mine wander, sometimes. well, only Lola, so far, but She likes the freedom. you know them better than anyone, so if they're not using the silent treatment, i would be inclined to say stress. i presume you've tried talking/interacting. do they understand what's going on, why this is something that could be beneficial? it may not remove the stress, but maybe a clear explanation could smooth things over, even if you don't declare it directly. say it, let it float and see what happens.

i've removed myself from all possibilites of having to explain myself - it would be practically impossible now. but i remember in older days, when i had less to explain, it was certainly stressful. i was a good bullshitter, but the resentment, confusion i felt at being forced to put myself in the position of just being written off as CA-RAZY! i hope all goes well, everyone is okay and you get the assistance you need.

addendum

[ex-pinkmonk.livejournal.com]

oh, oh, i thought i'd add this - since everyone's systems work differently, i don't know if all that would be useful to you. just sharing what seems to work in my personal experience in case it assists.