Introduction

[menokh.livejournal.com]

I suppose I should introduce myself.
I joined this community for two main reasons.

The first is that my boyfriend is multiple. He shares his body with one other being, who seems to be of late medievil French extraction, but it could just be a traditionalist from a later period. Either way he is not from this era. My boyfriend is the primary front for the body, and only very rarely does the other soul come to the front. He tells me he's been like this for as long as he can remember. Jarous, as he calls him, has always been there guiding and providing companionship. As far as our relationship goes, Jarous was slow to warm up to me, and even though I've never actually talked at length with him, I'm told he likes me now.

The second reason is that i've been coming to a realization as of late, that I might not be the only one here inside myself. Thanks to my looking around to solve my boyfriend's questions about himself, I've been learning about me. I do have a subjective voice in my head that I ignored for awhile. I used to see him as an imaginary friend when I was younger, but he didn't go away. I then saw him as a guardian spirit for awhile, but my faith in guardians wained. But now I wonder if he might be more. I've been trying to, with limited success, communicate with him, and it has only served to confuse me more. There are times when I'll simply watch as I do things, and not feel like it's "me" doing it. Perhaps the strangest thing is sometimes when I'm almost asleep I'll "hear" two thought streams, mine and another. Only time will tell, I guess.

Comments

[hellmutt.livejournal.com]

Hiya,

Sounds like it's possible, but I wouldn't automatically assume you're multi. Infrequent periods of dissociation can happen to a lot of people, and 'hearing' things on the edge of sleep (I hear conversations between two or more people, for example) is fairly normal! :)

I think it'd be most useful at this stage to keep an open mind to all the possibilities.

[menokh.livejournal.com]

It's not conversations, but rather two independent streams of thought. when I go to sleep I think, alot, and uncontrollably. I suppose this thinking sets the stage for my dreams for the night, perhaps helps me sort through the day's activities and experiences. When I think it tends to register with me as sound, very rarely images. What happens when I am going to sleep, sometimes, is I'll hear my own thoughts, and completely seperated from them, I'll hear others.

Is it possible to have two thought streams running at the same time while being a singlet?

[thehumangame.livejournal.com]

Is it possible to have two thought streams running at the same time while being a singlet?

Yeah... what multiplicity's fundamentally about is each person conceiving of themselves as distinct from the others, having separate self-awareness, separate self-concepts, etc. Everything else is incidental, really. Sometimes what we'll get when half-asleep sounds like random people saying random nonsensical things, but I think that's just a half-asleep auditory processing center doing odd things. It just doesn't have the kind of coherence and consideration that our own thoughts have (even when half-asleep).

(We actually don't have much in the way of truly simultaneous thoughts; when we're both around we tend to interrupt each other's thinking with our own. Other people in this community don't tend to have more than one person in the group around at the same time. They're separate issues.)

~j

[hellmutt.livejournal.com]

I would say yes, judging by my own experiences, but it's hard to tell how distinct your thought streams are by comparison to my own dissociative moments. :)

[squnq.livejournal.com]

Indeed. As said above - keep your mind open to all possibilities, but don't try to make a mountain out of a molehill - or multiplicity out of normal brief periods of lucidity, as it were. Often I find that when people deal with someone else multiple long enough, they start to explore if they're multiple themselves as a method to try and understand the other person more.

[menokh.livejournal.com]

*nods* I'm just trying to make sense of myself, and events of my life. You're right though, if I hadn't met my mate I'd never have questioned myself on this.

I'm taking things VERY slow, trying to audit myself so to speak and figure out what makes my mind tick. It could be any number of things I suppose.

[kyouketsusha.livejournal.com]

My boyfriend is the primary front for the body, and only very rarely does the other soul come to the front.

That's how we work, too. :)

And while it's certainly possible you could be multi, it's also possible you could be something else as well! There are a lot of links in the community userinfo which would be a good start learning about multiplicity and related states of being such as soulbonding and medians.

[el-houria.livejournal.com]

hi i learned about myself through my ex girlfriend who was multi. i spent a long time trying to identify the actions and patterns of different people inside me and then i matched it to periods of memory loss. i was having lots of memory loss at the time and thankfully i was able to talk with someone about it who didnt judge my process.

we all have lots of different streams of consciousness... for me the distinction between that and being multi is that i can actually see my behavior shift consistantly and in accordance with other folks. for example, penny is 7 and she gets really triggered by the dark. when she is out, my voice, demeanor and size are different. i want ice cream as comfort, and my boyfriend says that my eyes change color....

one thing that might help is charting your thoughts to see if they match behavior shifts. also if you have trouble recalling parts of the day, you could look for behavior "trails" etc.

i dont know if this helps at all. good luck.

[tana-seonaid.livejournal.com]

Hi --

I'm involved with two spirits who share a body. There are others in there too, but I'm only romantically involved with Leon (the primary -- although I know that term isn't always favored here, that's their term) and Lugh, who is the most powerful of the others. I'm on friendly terms with the other seven.

What I've discovered in my own relationships is that I'm becoming more integrated as I stretch and explore more facets of myself that are drawn out in response to their ranges of temperment and interests.