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[ooday-dreameroo.livejournal.com]

Hi!
I just joined multipicity.. im 14, but hope its alrite anyway. no one really takes ur problems seriously when ur 14 tho, but i bet there are ppl here who know bout that..=P i have never been diagnosed, but i've talked to some doctors about how i feel and they've all said that i should do something about it..but i dont really know what to do, thats kinda the problem >_< I allways change personality depending on whom im with, i hate to make descions, im allways confused, i avoid ppl and i change personality so often that i have no idea hwo i am and end up feeling pretty empty most of the time. I dont really know if this multiple personality, but please tell me... im sick of doctors who dont belive me and wont tell me anything...*_* thanksXD

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[mysticeden.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure. Can you describe how you feel when you change personalities? My aim is EdenAngel88 if you want to talk. I found out about being a multiple when I was 16-17. I'm 22 now, maybe I can help?

[shadowechoes.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a mid-continum type thing, or maybe more like dissociation, if I'm using those words correctly. If you are changing personality/persona/mode, that's one thing. Multiplicity though is different - you always remain you, but you share your body with other people, and they always remain themselves too. (Although some systems can co-front in such a way that they kind of blend into a combined person from what I understand.) It's more 3-d than just you being in a different mood or state.

Hope this makes some sense.

[vinik.livejournal.com]

Hi! We figured out that we were multiple when we were only a bit older than you. We were lucky to have this great social worker who'd worked with a lot of plurals before in the past.

These pages are great. We would highly recommend you read them:

http://www.astraeasweb.net/plural/faq.shtml
http://www.karitas.net/blackbirds/layman/
http://www.dreamshore.net/amorpha/faq.html

And stick around here. There's a lot of support around. A lot of controversy-flinging too, but a lot of support as well.

-Jen

[kasiawhisper.livejournal.com]

are you sure it's just not your moods that are changing? can you describe what these "personalities" feel like?

[luwana.livejournal.com]

As above, what you call 'switching personalities' may not be exactly that. Nobody can know except you, and we can't even guess until you describe more thoroughly.

(for the record, age can indeed matter, but sometimes it doesn't. Sticking a casual two fingers up to the "you can't call yourself bisexual until you're not a teen" crowd)

[seaclans.livejournal.com]

It does sound like kinda a grey area. It might be something called borderline personality mixed with some dissociation, which can leave that empty feeling and sometimes means that people "become" a different person with whomever they are with. Also though it could be a subtle form of switching where you are holding front and other people blend with you in order to act in the outside world. In that case being different with different people or situations has to do with what each person likes or deals with. Our system often works like this, and before I understood what was happening to me it made me feel sorta empty or unreal, like I was a mask the others were wearing. Either way I guess I would suggest finding things -you- like to do, maybe concentration on things you can do alone, and start building a sense of who you are and what you are like when not "preforming" or being influenced by others.

[2ley.livejournal.com]

What you're going through doesn't sound like DID/MPD. Classic DID/MPD usually involves some level of amnesia barriers, loss of memory continuity, time loss, that sort of thing.

Not that this should make you feel like I'm saying you're not having some problems, but the only way to really diagnose what you're going through is with a trained professional. Even then, mis-diagnosis frequently occur.

A good diagnosis should make your world more understandable. A bad one should not.

Good luck.

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

i hate to make descions, im allways confused, i avoid ppl and i change personality so often that i have no idea hwo i am and end up feeling pretty empty most of the time.

Sounds like you're indecisive more than anything, from your self-description. You're the only one who can decide whether you're really multiple or not, or what's going on inside your own head. However, single people can also 'change personality' frequently depending on situation, or be unsure of who they really are. The experience that's specific to multiplicity is that of sharing your body with one or more people.

[ooday-dreameroo.livejournal.com]

thanks a lot for all the answers...! i can see now that i should have described it in a better way, but i didnt really now what things to look for, or what was specific about it. but ive learned a lot, and thanks so much again! but what 2ley mentioned about the memory loss thing is very typical for me, i often forget what i did yesterday or who i was with an hour ago.. if that is the kinda things he means tho..and i often sit alone in my room and talk to myself or even argue with myself but when im with ppl i dont do that luckily, unless i lose control of the situation or get confused. and once agin thanks a lot!

[ricktboy.livejournal.com]

hey, i don't have much to say right now, but you can feel free to IM us anytime you like, we're PackCollective on AIM, and our homepage is http://rickmacleod.bravehost.com/packcollective.htm

talk to you soon

Rick
Pack Collective

[tigrin.livejournal.com]

I'm going to go against the grain and say you sound completely normal to me, especially for 14. most people change "personalities" based on who they're around. memory loss is pretty normal when it's something as basic as not being able to recall right away what you did yesterday. and everyone talks to themself. I used to think all that stuff was pretty unusual too, until I actually asked people about it. ultimately you can construe all that stuff however you want, but I see that as being pretty normal now.

what it comes down to, I think, is whether it's a problem. if it's impairing your life, it doesn't matter if it's DID or BPD or whatever the hell...

and yeah. no one takes you seriously when you're a teenager. I remember that pretty well. especially considering the image that teenagers have in the media now.

[ooday-dreameroo.livejournal.com]

thanks, its good to hear that im normal.. im not lookin for problems or anything like that even tho it might seem like it=P but if its not something like that i just gotta be really weird, but i guess i prefer that(: thanks a lot anyway

[rainstorm-angel.livejournal.com]

Someone already chipped in something close to my two cents.

At fourteen therapists ought be very careful in diagnosing you with the major disorders outside of major depression, PTSD, and others I could list.

Immediately borderline came to mind, but I would state categorically that no one worth their license would diagnose a teenager as borderline, particularly a young teen, since those feelings and behaviors are considered normal in the the teenage bracket. They don't become pathological, as such, until one is an adult. Now try to define "adult." Some professionals get slap happy with the borderline label right around eighteen; others around twenty-five. I congratulate the latter group on their thinking.

Yet, if someone is going to somatize, by definitition they started before age thirty, which many lump in with dissociators, whether I agree or not. Thus, it wouldn't be at all unusual for someone to know by fourteen that something is different or even downright wrong.

I won't dismiss your complaint outright. Not a chance. In fact I was first told I likely had MPD, now called DID, at fourteen or fifteen. It was suggested a couple more times through the years, until at thirty'ish I was pegged to the wall with it by one of the foremost in the field.

I knew something was wrong by fourteen or fifteen. I also know what they were basing their diagnosis on, all the wrong stuff as far as I'm concerned, even all these years later. This is one of the worst damned illnesses to be diagnosed with. Few therapists or hospitals knowledgable or qualified to treat it. Many who still don't believe in it. If you sincerely believe you have this problem, then you need to be worked up by someone who specializes in dissociation. Some people don't view multiplicity as an illness. I'm high-functioning, regardless of labels. Thus, I "understand" their argument. But, seeing as I do have a trauma background, I do have trauma work I do. Make little sense?

Yes, well, I probably don't make much sense. Given your age I'd be remiss not to say, "work it up." Doesn't sound to me like you are comfortable this way, the argument for functional multiplicity. Teenage years were very difficult. Guess I'm saying, don't ever let anyone, including yourself, talk you into a diagnosis you might not have that could take you a lifetime to talk yourself back out of having. But talk and talk away if you need to, you owe that much to yourself as it sounds as if you are hurting.