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[azraile.livejournal.com]

Oh something I kinda remember that confuses me a little....

One of the main resons Kitsu says she will not frunt is becose if she did she says she knows they wouldn't be able to get me back to the frunt again


The most I can remember is beign pushed aside some by my feral side as my ragefull anger trasfured to her and we kinda lost it a couple times, then i'm just kind shoved aside as she takes over and i gota calm her and myself down

so i've never realy been fully not in control and remembered it (though i think kitsu did some stuff once while I was sleeping)


So this makes me wonder...... whats it like when your not furnting, that kitsu thinks I would wana stay that way?

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[kasiawhisper.livejournal.com]

what's it like when I'm not fronting? then I just go back to somewhere else and do something else.. of course I'm one of the ones that front the most over here, so.. I don't vanish or sleep or anything.. *wink* I go and do my own thing..

[azraile.livejournal.com]

go off and do your own thing where? o.o

[kasiawhisper.livejournal.com]

back in Kasiya.. where everyone lives.. my homeworld.. Tei Ekullas.. ^_^ a large portion of those of us who type in livejournal are from that one world.. but there are also other worlds in Kasiya as well.. sometimes I'll go back to my own home and relax and read.. or get the fireplace going.. or I'll go visiting some of the others.. I'm not always here in this "earth realm" all the time.. *wink*

[kasiawhisper.livejournal.com]

hope that wasn't sounding too confusing.. ^^;;

[jadedmosaic.livejournal.com]

I wish I had many worlds to choose form like in Kaysia . Thays why wevisit your homestead page allot to get away . It feels like I am on vacation there . Cause I know I need a vacation cause I front allot too but when not fronting I go help Joanna Knit or sew or crochet or I watch Tiea play theguitar or I re arrange my room or watch Rocie cook on the inside its good to have stuff to go do. But sometimes I want to get away from eevryone.
Thnx Elaine

[kasiawhisper.livejournal.com]

^_^

we've been updating the site off and an lately.. yesterday we added some poetry.. only put up 8 so far, but there's going to be around 60 total.. from ages ago up to current time.. when the older poems go up, it'll be embarrassing because they were written so long ago! LOL

[gryphons.livejournal.com]

it's different for everyone.. one of the first other households we met.. one guy went back to an area of darkness.. another had a clubhouse..

for us.. we have our own places inside.. some have mountains,caves, swamps, everything. we go back and do whatever we need to or just hang out..

[jadedmosaic.livejournal.com]

A club house is a awsome idea , If I could make one for thekids they wold not mull around folowing me and the teens so much . Do you mean ike a playhouse members only club?Thnx Elaine

frunting...

[therapycircles.livejournal.com]

easier in some ways, and harder than others... how's it going lately?

Re: frunting...

[azraile.livejournal.com]

hum?

[elenbarathi.livejournal.com]

Depends which of my 'brothers' is up. If it's Crist-Erui, he generally shares the full sensorium, which means Kír and I can "ride with" him and experience sight, hearing, smell, taste, touch, balance, etc. without any impairment. It's just that we're not driving, as it were - Crist-Erui's got control, to go where he chooses and do what he wants, and we're merely passengers.

Often it's really fun and sweet; some of our happiest times together. Sometimes it's kind of annoying (or very annoying, especially when he insists on 'flickering' in and out of corporeality when I'm trying to do something.) Sometimes it's scary, either because he's scared or, worse, because he's not scared when he really ought to be. Worst of all is when he's so upset that he doesn't share at all - that's like being locked in the back of a truck with no windows while someone drives it headlong down a mountainside. Fortunately, he hasn't done that for over a decade.

Kír and I can share sight and hearing, whichever of us is 'up', but the other senses don't come through. Also, he isn't up that much, because he's not comfortable in this body, so when he is up, I try to give him as much space and privacy as I can. Mostly I do this by hangin' with Crist-Erui, who sort of acts as Kír's corporeal support-system, but tends to get too anxious about him if his attention isn't otherwise occupied. It's not that easy for me to remain incorporeal long, and I very seldom can voluntarily cut off all sensory contact.

Also, doing that is very peaceful and restful for a little bit, but then it gets boring. I'm also, umm, such a yenta, y'know; it's hard to keep my ears out of Kír's life for long. (Not that he doesn't have his ears in mine just as much.) I'm used to being 'front', and it's hard to see and hear what's going on without coming up, so I have to distract my attention. Crist-Erui won't go to sleep while Kír is up, but he often gets very cozy and calm, so I just sort of snuggle up with him till it's my turn to be corporeal again.

I probably do 'lose time' this way, but it's Kír's time (of which he gets too little) to talk or write to his friends, or play the guitar, or just stand out on the back porch. He drives sometimes too, but needs me 'riding shotgun' when he does, because he doesn't trust his visual/manual coordination that far. At such times, we kind of, umm, divvy up the sensory input... I don't know how to explain it; it's like trying to explain in words how to juggle. Anyway, it works.

Crist-Erui doesn't 'flicker in' with Kír like he does with me, but if Kír is having too hard a time dealing with corporeality, he'll just take it away from him if I'm not ready to come up instead (or sometimes even if I am.) So at such times I can't be too... detached; it's sort of like "stand ready to take the conn".
Full sensorium and voluntary-muscle control shift over to me, and... I'm 'up'.