Meeting someone?

[paganmommy.livejournal.com]

I think that I may be meeting someone. I am not entirely certain yet, as her voice isn't truly clear yet, mostly images and strong feelings.
The first time I felt her was when my husband was very angry. I felt fear, such fear, and she was angry at me for not protecting her. I tried to go inside myself and find her, but she seemed to run from me.
Now today, I am painting my bathroom vanity white. The rest of the bathroom is yellow so far and I was pondering how to bring the navy blue up from the tiles into the rest of the room without making it look all Sears and Roebuck, and these images of a child's drawing kept popping in my head of a yellow sunshine and a blue sky on white paper with a green floor (green bathmat) drawn on the vanity's front. I *almost* told myself I was being childish, but realized that it "might" me her again, and in that context saw it differently. I may even do it! :)
She didn't want me to share this at first, but now she seems okay with it. Anyway, I felt the need to share this. Thanks.

Comments

[belisama.livejournal.com]

it is interesting - the way they come to us. thanks for sharing.

[paganmommy.livejournal.com]

Thank you for responding. I guess I posted it for a little validation, somewhere I could put it down without getting funny looks, yet still be able to tell someone.

that is awesome!

[kaleidescope.livejournal.com]

how pretty!

Re: that is awesome!

[paganmommy.livejournal.com]

I think so too, I know my six year old daughter will like it, though I have doubts about husband and the 12 year old, *laugh*. Ah well. *hee hee*

[bioengineer.livejournal.com]

How do we find the others within us if we do not allow them to be real? To really share themselves not only with the rest of those within each of us, but with those outside as well? I (the "we" of me who are writing this) think the child-images idea for decorating are quite neat. And how wonderful it might be if people who are supposedly grown up were free to know that within that is still of the wonder and creativity of a child.

Thank you for sharing, for you have helped my sense of validation, also.

[whatitslike.livejournal.com]

It made me very happy to read this. I think you're brave to talk about meeting someone new & brave also to be so open to it. I think her picture sounds great!

[larzmachine.livejournal.com]

That's kinda' how Ours surface. Either they start "bleeding through" as memories, sensations and disjointed thoughts, or Margaux goes down, finds the guy and drags him/her/it up to the Wreck Room for a formal introduction.

And now for one of those "only a multiple would understand and possibly find this amusing" stories...

Imagine having a one who hasn't been up since elementary school start surfacing at work. At a foundry. While you're standing next to a vat of molten aluminum, running a million dollars worth of die casting machinery that'll kill or maim you in a hearbeat. Those were some trying times. Just imagine the excuses you have to make when something gets screwed up and the foreman has to shut down that production line for 3 hours to fix it. Luckily, once I got enough of the Krew crosstrained, We got very good at casting, so We more than made up for earlier glitches. If the lungs had held up, We might still be there today.

On the upside, We now have about 30 years of die casting experience even though We only worked there 2 1/2 years... LOL