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[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

so i kinda felt like i should update and post something here. i/we have been kind of lurking, and jack is getting on my case about it.

since my last update, my system and i have been cooperating better.

so i just have a few questions.

i kind of was wondering when people noticed the development of specific personalities, and how often some personalities wander in and out if at all... and i was wondering if anyone could tell me why i feel like there's others that won't talk to me, and how i could get them to do so.

currently my specifics are these :

me, the one typing : noelle. this is my body- i/we started out as noelle. 15, female, type II bipolar, stress ball.

skit : also female. more around 18. i call her my alter ego, because i feel like she formed when i was given the nickname skittles (skit for short) a few years ago. eccentric, hyper, kandy kid type.

jack : male, obviously. empathic? rarely comes out unless i/we're alone. id say he's around 11-13, maybe an age slider. has trouble dealing with people on a large scale - developed in middle school. he was my coping skill. after i left the school where i was having problems he stopped fronting.

aleria : female, 15. she's my darkness- she's a bitch. she likes causing pain. she came out at the beginning of last year and kinda stayed there. she would force me to cycle through which was difficult.

as to the others: they're there. i don't know their names, or their specifics. how can i get them to talk to me?

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[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

yeah- i understand what you're saying, about personalities vs. people. im still trying to come to terms with my others, and so it's easier for my brain to handle the term personality in regards to them/us rather than people.

thank you for sharing that - i think reading other system histories like this will help me a little.

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

yeah- i understand what you're saying, about personalities vs. people. im still trying to come to terms with my others, and so it's easier for my brain to handle the term personality in regards to them/us rather than people.

Azu used to refer to others as 'states of mind' and 'personas.' I think it was for the same reason, that it made it psychologically easier on her when she wasn't quite sure what would result from giving others time at the table. She'd spent the last couple years in an ironclad state of "THIS IS ME, THIS IS MY TRUE SELF, NOTHING ELSE IS REAL," because when we had previously tried to explore our plurality, some of our then-'friends' took advantage of it. Azu ended up thinking it was necessary to have One Real Person up front and not change it.

...so, yeah, she didn't want to say that they were people, because for a while it was easier to deal with thinking of the others as being somehow manifestations of her own mind. Also, if it turned out we had been just masks she was trying on during a period where she was unsure of herself, it would've been pretty embarassing to have to backtrack on such an extreme statement as 'there are other people in this body.'