hey ^_^;

[ex-mushroom784.livejournal.com]

i just joined... maybe... 20 minutes ago? :/

i'm glad i found this (by odd coinsidence, too) community today... i need some major help...

my... others, like my boyfriend was saying today, tend to go dormant unless i'm in trouble, then they speak up, a lot.

anyway... today the boyfriend was yelling at me, telling me he doesn't trust me. then he turned around, and said he just doesn't trust the 'others inside of me'... :/

i told him they've left him alone for the past month or so, and why is he freaking out now... so i don't know what to do...

this isn't something i want to lose... he and i were looking to marriage (even though he's had sex with one of the others ~_~;) in the not-to-distant-future...

he accepts they exist, but i guess he's scared they're going to do something against him. we know all his passwords for everything, which he's taken to changing... he has cheated on me before, so i'm worried about THAT too.

guh, it's just one big mess. as if i needed more things to deal with :/

there's not a lot of us. only 3 that ever really talk to him. so it's not like he's up against some big army or anything either. though one is scary enough that she even scares me (call her a she, but she doesn't really have any gender...)

any advice would be nice..

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Re: Ouch.

[ex-mushroom784.livejournal.com]

oh, i'm very aware he thinks all the wrong things of me, partly due to a past job i had, that included me at very close levels with other girls. hes terrified of me going back to that, but that's something i promised MYSELF that i wouldn't go back to, as he knows. it damaged me more than anyone could ever need. even if the money was fantastic.

he repeats over and over that he's trying hard to get over my past, to continue onto the future. of course, to me, my past doesn't really phase me anymore (repressive memory, sometimes a good thing) so i don't understand why he's so sketchy about it. but i have a feeling that it does still get to him, for whatever reason. even if it's just a small thing, like watching something on tv, and it clicks in his head that i did something like that, years ago, and snowball effect from there.

probably the worst part is him just trying to put it all on me, when things are bad. when things are good (99% of the time) then i'm happy as can be, up on a cloud in my own little world *snerk* and not wanting anything else...

i hope i haven't confused you too much. or anyone else who may see this. :/

Re: Ouch.

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

That sounds like he's got more mental problems than you do. He's getting triggered by TV shows and blames you?!

I have to say.. the last guy we knew of who behaved that way... Well, let's just say he isn't getting any better.

Re: Ouch.

[ex-mushroom784.livejournal.com]

well, at least his trains of thought make sort of sense. i can be looking at a bottle of mustard, and then somehow get it into my head that i really need to go and find some go-karts to play with.

...attempts at humour, not the very best.