Confused, Scared and Diagnosed

[calliopeaurora.livejournal.com]

Hi Everyone
I've been lurking in the background for a couple of weeks just testing the waters.
My therapist has diagnosed me as DID and has had conversations with someone in me. I'm struggling to accept it. Parts of me are embracing it. I don't really remember the whole session very well apart from being there. I see "pictures" of people that are inside of me but i can't ever focus on them. Does anyone else have that?
Many occasions i seem to "switch" and it is noticeable and i know in myself that i have done it. I thought everyone was like this but i know different.
Anyway, i lose memories and forget things often but when i concentrate hard enough (and get a headache) the memory or thing i was trying to remember just hits. Does that happen to anyone else?
I've gotten a headache just writing this and visiting. I get them when i lurk and just look stuff up on MPD/DID.
Thanks if you can help.


Calliope :)

Comments

[enigma-system.livejournal.com]

We get headaches often. For some of us, memories and certain thoughts are fuzzy and hard to focus on very well. But generally things get better as you get used to them and find ways to deal with them. :)

[pilgrimchild.livejournal.com]

Hi Calliope and welcome
We have a message board for people with dissociative disorders... maybe you could see if it'd help you feel better. Members have access to all the areas of the board. http://s3.invisionfree.com/A_Minds_Journey/index.php

Enigma system is right, things generally get better as you learn to deal with them. Best of luck to you.

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

We see each other in mental imagery, sometimes quite clearly. Our experience is that whoever has the body senses the others "around", as separate entities, not inside.

The "memory" problems you're experiencing are loss of continuity. One person comes up, does routine things, but doesn't leave a log; next person who comes in doesn't know what happened. The best way to fix that is to communicate with the others. Write them notes if you have to -- get them to leave you notes, too.

You and everyone in your group are welcome to post here anytime.

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

Also: If you're getting headaches when you look up information, that could be caused by the presence of someone else who also wants to check it out, especially since some of you guys are happy about having been recognised at last. Co-running (two people present in the body at once) is a little difficult if you're not used to it. Cerebral blood flow changes cause the headaches. Try feverfew herb.

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

When you say you're ambiguous about the diagnosis, I wonder... does it feel right for you? Does it make sense of things? A lot of non-multiples, esp. people who are artistically inclined, often have mental images of people they can't quite focus on, and the "oh yeah! now I remember" phenomenon is pretty common.

A lot of plurals just starting out report experiencing headaches, although I wonder... most of the clinical DID sites make being plural sound like such a horror-show that if I didn't know anything else about it, I might get a headache from trying to read them and wondering whether this was going to happen to me. :\ Have you checked out Astraea's page or the Layman's Guide?

[shatterstorm.livejournal.com]

Hello!

We sometimes get headaches if a bunch of us are trying to talk at once or if someone is frustrated or angry.

Did you check out some of the faqs here yet? They're in the info page for this community - they have some good discussions by different multiple groups from our perspectives.

[jhonathand.livejournal.com]

Loosing time and Memory was a problem for us as well,.

Although I have sort of gotten used to it.

I seem to remember the things we were talking about and or doing when I have someone reminde me Of a bit of the Conversation or a mental image pops into my head after one of my Brothers has been up. It helps that I am in an envrionment that I can let the Brothers up and it's not a dnagerous thing.

I don't know about the whole headache thing.

I wish that I could see my Brothers in a mental picture,but I don't. We do however communicate that way,.

we don't "Talk" to each other per-say,. but we do send images from our collective pasts that explain just exactly what we arre thinking, feeling, want, need, or whatever.

So I would imagine that it would be somewhat similar.

Welcome to the community BTW,

~M/Frost/Jake~

[ricktboy.livejournal.com]

http://www.livejournal.com/community/multiplicity/285918.html#cutid1

that's where I posted about our headaches, I don't feel like posting it again...

but, anyway, hello and welcome!

Rick
Pack Collective