problem

[changelyng14.livejournal.com]

So, I've always had this problem thats really on my nerves.
I can't get switched and when I try to front, ill usually have about 50 different problems, from dizziness, to actual pain, disorientation, getting 'stuck in a switch', ill end up 'slippery' like ill lose the face with simple distractions etc. more details in this lj cut thingy (if i can get it to work...)


So Im considered an 'anarch' in my system because i dont come from either of our 2 tribes, which means i dont 'adhere to the internal physics' of how we work. seems like communication is pretty rapid and thorough inside either of the tribes, but is very slow crossing over. of our 4ish active members these days, the other 3 (tia, synch, and lovecry) are all of one of the tribes, and then theres me.

We 4 seem to be on this odd cycle of fronting for about a week, then rotating the face to another of us.
during my week, im fine, i feel good, feel like myself, and life's a gas. but trying to get fronted off my rotation is a BITCH.

it usually turns into a system-wide effort to get me propped up, and even then its like some half-state. all my concentration is in just staying up from minute to minute without some stupid trigger slipping someone else thru. i get tired and foggy. ill talk to someone and it'll be someone elses voice.

id like to be able to schedule things and then GET to them without all of this. me, my system, and my psycho are all at a loss. any ideas?


-Candy

Comments

[ricktboy.livejournal.com]

for a while, if Faith tried to front, she got splitting headaches...we talked to our MD(who's multiple friendly)and she gave us pills which help...all it does is stop her headaches...our Dr said that when Faith(or anyone else, as we all began getting the headaches)fronted, our brain's synapses began to misfire...and it happens to people singles and multiples because of stress...she told Faith(who finally went and intro'd herself at our last appt)that since the pills did help, that the mis-firing was probably due to the stress of being out, after so long of not fronting...if you have a multiple friendly doc, talk to them...you might benefit from drugs of some kind too...not saying drugs are a cure-all, and we'd rather not take any more often than not, but these help...they're called Neurontin, btw.

Rick
Pack Collective

[changelyng14.livejournal.com]

thanks :p

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

Well, in our system, we can't always switch at will either. Sometimes it just happens on its own and we can't force it. When we first started out trying to switch, we really did used to get the stereotypical 'headaches'-- we suspect part of this is because switching does have a biochemical component, to some degree, and we were asking the body to do something it hadn't done (or been allowed to do, really) in years.