multiplicity_archives | frightened about moving, might trigger, very panicky (Reply)

Hi, we are Rhiannon's Chorus, we don't know how many there are. Michelle used to be host and original body owner, but she died or buried so deep there is no finding her inside during a nervous breakdown and Rhiannon took over. The ones we know of are the littles Beth 8, who has been hiding for a long time, Sara 5, Megan 4, Acacia 14, some others no names, protectors J'Endra who is ageless, Crone who is old, like 80 (body is 35) Colleen who is in her 30's, others we don't know, spiritual people Willow who is ageless, Nimue who is new to us, Silence who does not speak or write but only uses sign language or if she writes she destroys all evidence immediately, and we don't know her age....and lots of others we don't really know. We journal back and forth to learn some, have no therapist other than psych who treats our bi polar and borderline personality disorder (we are so lucky, not) and what husband tells us.

Help.

I only recently joined this community and right now my life is out of control.

Husband has not worked since Jan, we are in desperate straits near losing home and everything, he got a fantastic job offer in Saratoga Springs, NY.

We live in Indianapolis.

We have three weeks to move with next to no money, they are helping with some relocation costs but not all, and we are broke and have taken every loan we can, maxed the cards, etc.

I have no real life friends here to help. All my so called friends baled about the time I started needing support, so I'm very much alone, my family is either to old or to indifferent to assist, and the inlaws are goody goody ultra christians and I hate the person I have to be around them. It's hard to maintain, you know? (please no one take offense to that if you yourself are very christian, it's just that much of my abuse rather than being SRA was christian related, so I have issues there. They are my issues, please don't take it personal. Last thing I need is to be flamed when I'm seeking support here, okay? Please.)

The littles are panicked beyond belief. We've lived here all our lives. Our parents are very old (80 and 77) and many of us have been/are dedicated to taking care of them to the end of thier days and now will not be able to do so, and my brother is an indifferent bastard who has almost no contact with the family. We were born late in our parents lives (they were almost in thier fifties) so losing them has always been a fear. We know no one in the New York area. Husband is useless when it comes to all the little crap that needs to be attended to, like getting medical records and prescriptions and finding new doctors and vets for the pets and worrying about how to transport them (we have many pets, no children thank god) and we don't even have a house there yet, he is leaving in two weeks and staying in a motel and going to try and rent one and some relocation committees there are going to try and help but we don't know even where we are going or what it will be like and we will be here alone for two weeks trying to finish packing and the body is in bad health and the inlaws scare us and we're scared, scared, scared, scared, scared, scared parents are the type emotions not allowed must always be in control they don't understand or see the multiplicity the inlaws refuse to believe in it only have husband and he's leaving us behind for two weeks how do we maintain and we are in bad neighborhood right now scary drug dealing violent ex con alcoholic bastard lives next door we scared of him no gun we have big daggers and knives but still scared the whole system is in chaos and I have got get and keep control and don't know how help help please, anybody have ideas just so ovewhelmed sorry this post is so crazy but I am....I don't know words to describe how bad things are.....please, anyone have ideas?