multiplicity_archives | ...No, I'm going alone... (Reply)

The above statement just doesn't fit anymore, but how am I supposed to tell anyone this without them looking at me like I'm some kind of psychopath? Just as it was about the transsexuality, it's getting harder for me... for us to hide the fact that we're multiple, that I am never truly alone, because I've always got the seven others (well, six and an endless sound of keystrokes from Andrea) with me at all times.

I've got no qualms about being open online, but we're all a bit worried about revealing ourselves to the real world, especially to family. Especially to my grandmother, who at least is deserving of knowing a reason why one day I'm okay, sociable and talkative, and the next I'm on the bleeding edge of flying off the handle about the slightest thing, even though it's not actually *me* feeling either of those things. We're still scared to tell, though, because it could have untold repercussions in real life besides the obvious one of impeding SRS down the line. We might get institutionalized again, and it might well be a breaking point for us. We cannot integrate, after all, so the "treatment" that they would prescribe for my "disease" (which I do not believe it to be at all) would be little more than a waste of time for all involved, and would only worsen us.

What to do here, though? We can't keep ourselves silent, can't keep ourselves a secret anymore. We need to come out for a second time.

What do I do?

(Crossposted to our personal journal, to