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Lately, the last week or two, I've been really confused about who I am. I know that sounds stupid, but I don't know any better way to explain it.
When someone calls my name, it takes me a minute to realize, "Oh, yeah, I'm Sara." And I'm even having trouble recognizing my name in print. I have to think about how to spell my own name. Only other time I've had to do that involved a four days with no sleep and way too much coffee.
Now I'm being told that I'm "not really Sara," at least not in the way I'd always thought I was. Apparently the "original Sara" (as this is the given name) is in some sort of comatose state inside. For a long time I've heard the phrase, "Sara, Untouched, must be protected," but I didn't know what that meant. Now I know they were talking about her, not me.
So now I don't know...who I am...where I came from...anything. This shouldn't be such a big deal, but it's really upsetting me.
Sara?
When someone calls my name, it takes me a minute to realize, "Oh, yeah, I'm Sara." And I'm even having trouble recognizing my name in print. I have to think about how to spell my own name. Only other time I've had to do that involved a four days with no sleep and way too much coffee.
Now I'm being told that I'm "not really Sara," at least not in the way I'd always thought I was. Apparently the "original Sara" (as this is the given name) is in some sort of comatose state inside. For a long time I've heard the phrase, "Sara, Untouched, must be protected," but I didn't know what that meant. Now I know they were talking about her, not me.
So now I don't know...who I am...where I came from...anything. This shouldn't be such a big deal, but it's really upsetting me.
Sara?