a breakthrough...

[ricktboy.livejournal.com]

Not that it matters to anyone else, but I was re-reading my diary from like, two years ago, and I had some entries in it about confusion, gender related, and some poetry, and a drawing or two...even some entries I don't remember writing...

It all makes sense NOW...Faith drew, Liz was the source of the gender confusion...(she likes being a girl, dammit)and so on and so forth...

*applauds self*

I've come a long way, no...WE have... *grin*

Rick
Pack Collective

Losing...myself?

[wingedwolf-2004.livejournal.com]

Quick intro - I've been here before but I'll re-introduce myself. I am fmale/19 and I have two others with me, one named Toby who is 12-19/male and Alex who is 18-19/male.

Okay so the other day Toby came through and I resided to rest for a bit, as I was in a strange mood. My girlfriend said I had been doing weird things (before he came out), like I wouldnt talk to her much and I avoided shadows all day and eventually ran back to our house and had a panic attack.

A little later Alex came out and had sex with my girlfriends new 'other' casie, and then they both resided back, bringing Toby forward again. However I was nowhere to been seen and Toby became very upset that he couldnt 'find' me. My girlfriend got very upset and didnt speak to Toby, and Toby tried to hurt himself to take away the anger that he couldnt find me.

Toby remained forward for almost a day and I fe;t myself coming forward occasionally, but I had this horrible feeling that my personality was not 'complete'. I think some of it may have broken off, as I now have yet ANOTHER new boy named Hayden who seems very naive and frightened.

Does anyone know what is going on? I'm pretty scared that someday I could just loose myself completly....