Very Bad start to the new Year,...

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Had a particularly rough night so far,...

I know no one here knows me except for a few Ppl,

either way I had to vent some where and here seems most appropriate,...

so naturally there's more than just me living here, and unfortunant;y I had an expierence tonight that hasn't happned in a while,...

The "Other" in my house hasn't picked on me in a while, and I thought that he wouldn't anymore,. but tonight he proved me wrong,.............It's been a long time, and from what I can tell, when he's focused on other Ppl as targets it doesn't affect me as bad, but this was one of "Those" times when he turned his attention back on me,.

It's really tough living with someone when they delight in tormenting you, and you can't even move out,.

That would atleast be a viable option if things were different,. I try not to play the self pity card to often,......but I do admit,...........Living with him, is a burden,.......

but on the other hand, he has helped us survive, and is a little stronger than I am in some arena's,.....but I cope and this is the balance,.....9 times out of 10 I'm in control and I know how things sit and "He" has no say,...

but those other times,.....It's just un-nerveing,......

So Anyways,.........................................................Other than that I look forward to getting to know everyone here, and the other's in their house's and I hope to gain some understanding and some support and some familiarity from this,....

Here's to a New Year with endless possibility's,.

~M~