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Dec. 13th, 2004
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heavenmetal.livejournal.comI need to know how people feel.
I have had people ask me in the past if I had multiple personalities, kind of jokingly, and sometimes not. Of course I said no, I am constantly revolving moods, but I am the "same" person. Then I thought, I am the same person, but I am not, with different moods I have different opinions. I can be shy, crazy, outgoing, extremely sexual, and it is generally very severe, I cannot be mildly one of those, it has to be over the top. I kind of think of moods as layers of colors over white, like the visible color spectrum kind of, and the inside me, my *mind* I guess, who is not a mood, but I guess maybe keeps the other moods in control to a degree, is white...Then the colors go on, and my moods go along with them. Another thing I have always noticed is that my handwriting IS different depending on my mood too. I am extremely confused and my mind is speeding fast (I am probably about to cross over into my more "wild" mood soon) this is not a joke, people think I am insane when I begin to explain things to them, but it is how I actually feel in my head. I have never seen anyone about this, I just wanted to know if it would even be possible that I have it, from all of your perspectives, since you live with DID.
Something I want to add is , I DO have a poor memory, and my memory DOES change with my moods, but overall I do remember some things I do despite my mood.
I have had people ask me in the past if I had multiple personalities, kind of jokingly, and sometimes not. Of course I said no, I am constantly revolving moods, but I am the "same" person. Then I thought, I am the same person, but I am not, with different moods I have different opinions. I can be shy, crazy, outgoing, extremely sexual, and it is generally very severe, I cannot be mildly one of those, it has to be over the top. I kind of think of moods as layers of colors over white, like the visible color spectrum kind of, and the inside me, my *mind* I guess, who is not a mood, but I guess maybe keeps the other moods in control to a degree, is white...Then the colors go on, and my moods go along with them. Another thing I have always noticed is that my handwriting IS different depending on my mood too. I am extremely confused and my mind is speeding fast (I am probably about to cross over into my more "wild" mood soon) this is not a joke, people think I am insane when I begin to explain things to them, but it is how I actually feel in my head. I have never seen anyone about this, I just wanted to know if it would even be possible that I have it, from all of your perspectives, since you live with DID.
Something I want to add is , I DO have a poor memory, and my memory DOES change with my moods, but overall I do remember some things I do despite my mood.
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