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[heavenmetal.livejournal.com]

I need to know how people feel.

I have had people ask me in the past if I had multiple personalities, kind of jokingly, and sometimes not. Of course I said no, I am constantly revolving moods, but I am the "same" person. Then I thought, I am the same person, but I am not, with different moods I have different opinions. I can be shy, crazy, outgoing, extremely sexual, and it is generally very severe, I cannot be mildly one of those, it has to be over the top. I kind of think of moods as layers of colors over white, like the visible color spectrum kind of, and the inside me, my *mind* I guess, who is not a mood, but I guess maybe keeps the other moods in control to a degree, is white...Then the colors go on, and my moods go along with them. Another thing I have always noticed is that my handwriting IS different depending on my mood too. I am extremely confused and my mind is speeding fast (I am probably about to cross over into my more "wild" mood soon) this is not a joke, people think I am insane when I begin to explain things to them, but it is how I actually feel in my head. I have never seen anyone about this, I just wanted to know if it would even be possible that I have it, from all of your perspectives, since you live with DID.

Something I want to add is , I DO have a poor memory, and my memory DOES change with my moods, but overall I do remember some things I do despite my mood.

Comments

[forever-alone.livejournal.com]

I don't live with DID. You could be multiple, you could not be... other people in this community can explain it better than I can. I just wanted to say that just because we're in this community doesn't mean we have DID/MPD/a disorder.

[kangetsuhime.livejournal.com]

You may possibley get better responses in fragmentedminds. Most people here do not have DID, and there are many who do not have MPD either.

As such on this community you may get few helpful replies, as most people here do not live with DID as you said. Fragmentedminds may be a more helpful community in that respect.

[kangetsuhime.livejournal.com]

To touch on the point in the above commenter's post, I seriously doubt you are mutliple. DID, maybe. But not multiple.

[forever-alone.livejournal.com]

I agree, but I just used "multiple" as a sort of catch-all term. I'd go back and edit it if the LJ admin would have enough sense to make an edit comment option.

[belladonna1217.livejournal.com]

Your comment brings another question. How is it that someone can have DID but not be multiple? I can understand the opposite way of being multiple w/o DID... but not the DID w/o multiplicity.

[whispersong.livejournal.com]

As i understand it, highway hypnosis is a form of DID.

{J}tatiana

Not exactly

[devcandy.livejournal.com]

Highway hypnosis is a form of dissociation, however, not all dissociation is Dissassociative Identity Disorder.

There is, for example: Depersonalization Disorder, Dissociative Fugues, Dissociative Amnesia, Dissociative Disorder: Not Otherwise Specified, Dissociative Trance Disorder, and just plain dissociation, no disorder required.

For example, I know someone who had a dissociative fugue, but shows no indication of being a multiple, or having DID, except that which crosses over "symptomatically" with a dissociative fugue.

Arashi

Re: Not exactly

[whispersong.livejournal.com]

i stand corrected. ty.

{J}tatiana

[pengke.livejournal.com]

Being multiple isn't about having widely different moods. We're different people that just happen to reside in the same body. I can behave completely different depending on the environment I'm in but it's me being different not me being someone else. Not that we're ever really being someone else; we're always ourself it's just the person using the body that changes. OK, semantics aside, I'm just trying to say that if you're experiencing moods and not people then you're not multiple.

Using multiplicity as a model might be helpful for you, though. Some people find it easier to balance different moods and mind sets if they treat them as though they belong to different people. It helps with negotiating with yourself when you want two opposing things simultaneously or you want to do something now that would completely contradict something else you've been working on for a long time. The important thing in that scenario is to remember that you're only using multiplicity as a model and that all of the personas are still you.

[kasiya-system.livejournal.com]

We also all have those emotions, but we don't have just one emotion for each person. We "all" have variations of each of those emotions. There isn't just one of us who is only angry, or another of us who is only very outgoing. Some days, some of us are outgoing and then could be shy or angry the next moment.

We each aren't an emotion. Our emotions are a part of each of us.

[idianshire.livejournal.com]

Basically I'm probably repeating what everyone else has said but anyway...

For us, multiplicity is about being more than one person residing in, or using a body to interact with this world. Maybe DID is about one person with various distinct moods, don't know and now no longer care that much about DID.

Vastly different moods I thought was a normal life expereince. I have that all the time. Last friday I moved from being frustrated at waiting for my bike to be fixed, anxious about graduation and then on to horniness as I waited for my date to arrive. These were all my emotions within a space of a few hours, depending on what I was doing and what I was thinking about. I am sure at the same time others within the Shire were also having their own emotional and cognitive responses to what they were doing or thinking about.

Like has been said, we are people with a full range of being, not fragmented emotional states. To me if that is what you are expereincing, emotional states then maybe its DID or BPD, I don't know, not a trained diagnostican.

[heavenmetal.livejournal.com]

Thank you for all of your comments. That cleared things up, thanks again :)

[chezames.livejournal.com]

The way you describe your "moods" is the same way we use to feel. We "knew" we were multiple at a young age, but since we didn't fit DID, or MPD as it was called back then, we were told we were not. Because of this everyone's basic personality would come out as "my moods" (shyness, hyper activity, sexual, organized, etc). Once we decided to live as ourselves and "accept" that we were multiple, we found that these "moods" were actually the core personalities and then each person did began to have their own spectrum of moods.

It sounds to me as if you are where we were a year ago. It's possible you aren't multiple, but it's very possible you are. My suggestion, based only on we went through, is to try to interact with other "people" that may be inside you. If you are a functional multiple, you will be able to communicate with them (but it may take months if you have never communicated with them before). Since you don't lose track of these times, you experience these "moods," it is doubtful that you have DID/MPD. Again, all this is our opinion based on our experiences.

If you'd like to talk more, go to our journal and leave a msg, we'll add you - and our yahoo handle is chezames :-)

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

Well, mainly just adding to what others have said: Everyone has different sides to themselves, and everyone has different 'modes' they go into for school, work, interactions with family, interactions with friends, etc. Many people have different handwriting styles or speech patterns which change depending on mood or who they're interacting with.

That's not multiplicity though-- that's just having different moods and strong emotions. I can be happy, sad, angry, etc. but I don't switch to being a different person every time I'm feeling different-- I experience all those emotions as myself. We don't each 'hold' a particular mood, we have normal ranges of emotion.