egads!

[jessebelle.livejournal.com]

Well, if anyone was watching this page very closely .. you'd have just glimpsed me posting what was supposed to be my journal entry here.

eeeesh! I gotta learn what all these buttons do. :D

Anyway .. might as well introduce myself here proper now.

I'm jesse .. I'm one in a 'multiple system' as y'all call it here. Altho, until I started reading thru this community and Astraea's FAQ page (thanks ksol .. btw) I wouldn't have used that term.

But I digress (and I usually do) .. hello!

If you have any questions... ask away. I'm not sure what all y'all want or need to know about me.

~ jesse

Comments

[kangetsuhime.livejournal.com]

Well, if you mean *any* question... Do you know the origins of the word egads?


About *you* though, how many are in your system for example? Are you the main front runner? do you have a main frontrunner? How does multiplicity affect your life.

there, that should keep you going for now :P

[ex-senza6.livejournal.com]

Well, at a complete and utter guess, *I* would have thought that it might be a contraction/corruption of "ye gods".

But that is, as I said, a complete and utter guess. :)

(Er, sorry for that. Hi and welcome, new people.)

*me/us*

[jessebelle.livejournal.com]

First of all -
According to Webster's New World Dictionary:
Egads interj. [[prob. < oh God]] [archaic] a softened oath.

LOL

I'm gonna let Belle answer the other question ... she's just better at explaining it/us.....

As far as I know, there are at least 4 of us (including myself/Belle).
I assume I would be the so-called 'main frontrunner', however .. but since jesse comes out so often I can't take all the frontrunning credit.
jesse has definitely been here since I was a teenager.
I know there's a young child .. who I only know as Baby-girl and she rarely comes out. She doesn't handle the 'real' world very well and is easily scared back.
There's also a mother/nurturer figure who's never given me a name.
I've recently been wondering if there are more who haven't given me a name or a specificness about themselves tho too.

I didn't realize what was going on with me until I was in my 20's, but it's the only way I've ever been, so I guess I've dealt with it pretty well.
I guess I consider jesse like a twin sister or something. All my life, I always had to have 2 of everything.. I didn't understand why until it hit me one day that I was buying stuff and providing for her too. :)

Until about 3 years ago .. I'd only told a couple of my very closest friends about jesse. And then I started an online journal in a forum and she started coming out there and making herself known 'publicly'.
I met my (now) fiance there and he's completely wonderful about me and the others. He loves me and accepts me/us entirely. The only worry he has is that jesse will cheat on him. *sigh*
I did tell my mom that I have multiple personalities about 10 months ago. It was a very short conversation, and she, nor I, have ever brought it up again. I don't know that she fully understands it or finds it a believeable reality. I don't really care what she thinks tho .. as long as she doesn't say it out loud.

I'm pretty sure that Jesse and I have always communicated with each other. we actually have conversations all the time (in the head).

And I honestly can't imagine what life would be like without her .. except lonely.

Until I started reading here and on Astraea's site I didn't realize that it was possible for more than one of us to be out at the same time.. but I think that's how it is for the most part now. It's like she's always there .. on the fringes of me. Tho sometimes I don't realize that she's been out completely until I stop and really think about it.

That^ site actually answered quite a few questions I'd been wondering about .. tho it also raised a lot more that I'm hoping to be able to find answers for.

When I went 'public' in my other journal there were a handful of people there who treated me skeptically (tho they didn't come right and say it)... and I considered these people my friends (still do).

I've never met or known anyone else who had MPD... so it's reeeally nice to be part of a community of people who actually KNOW what I'm talking about or what I'm dealing with. And who won't think of me as some side show freak of nature.

Anyway, I'm not sure if I completely answered your questions .. but I know I said a lot. :D

Nice to meet you tho - and thanks for letting me talk.
~ Belle


and jesse :P

any questions?

[0semya0.livejournal.com]

You say "y'all" a lot, are you from the south?

Re: any questions?

[jessebelle.livejournal.com]

yes .. I've lived in the South for about 25 years now. :)

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

Altho, until I started reading thru this community and Astraea's FAQ page (thanks ksol .. btw) I wouldn't have used that term.

Y'welcome! You know, it's all in what you feel comfortable using. System, group, family, collective, house, or something we've never heard before.

You will find a wide variety of answers to your questions here.

[jessebelle.livejournal.com]

atm, I'm not sure what I'm comfortable with.

Honestly, I've never had a 'term' ... since I'm the only one I've ever (personally) known to be like this, I never really gave it much consideration... so I've only ever thought of it as me and the others, or just 'us'.


~ B

[kasiya-system.livejournal.com]

takes extra effort to make an entry go into a comm. but hey an all that.

robyn

[jessebelle.livejournal.com]

hey Robyn *waves* .... What I think happened was that I had the community page up in my browser .. and I was using the downloadable client thingie to write my journal entry. Apparently, when I hit the send/post button, it automatically posted to the page that was already up on the browser and not to my journal where i really wanted it..

I'm still exploring and learning my way around the site and stuff.. but hopefully that^ wont' happen again. LOL



And thanks to everyone for welcoming me to your community. :)

~ jesse