We are Distraida

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Hello to everyone.

Our system name is Distraida. Unfortunately, that lj username was already taken when we got our account. We have all kinds of people in here, and a lot of them. I found the group info page interesting, because it refers to "classical trauma-splitting MPD/DID." We are abuse survivors, but our MPD/DID isn't "classical" by any means. We don't fit some pre-conceived textbook definition. We have walk-ins and move-ins, even physically and/or mentally disabled others, and sometimes they front.

Our therapist, who we are not sure actually believes we exist, says that our disabled others should "be able to use all the resources of the body," but when a disabled person fronts, whatever they can't do inside, they can't do outside either (ie: read, write, walk, talk, see, hear, use one or both arms/hands, move, feel.) And since our therapist said that, none of our disabled others have been willing to even entertain the idea of speaking with her. On the other hand we have some people who can push the body too hard, and do more than the body can really do/should do. (This body should not be moving railroad ties, believe me.) We don't think our psychiatrist believes we exist either, as he has a "rule-out" on "did" for a "possible diagnosis."

We've applied for social security disability and were denied, and we are appealing. We are mostly applying based on mental health (or the lack thereof) but we have some physical issues as well, mostly dealing with chronic pain and trouble breathing.

Anyway, that might have been too much personal information included in an introductory post, but we are looking for people with experiences similar to ours. We have yet to find anyone. We are also looking for otherkin, but not like furries. Does anyone know a good community to join for talking to other Fae?

Distraida-Thamron (h is silent)

Comments

[changelyng14.livejournal.com]

hi

hmm.... new therapist time? (i don't know what your means are though)
kinda hard to get help with an issue when your therapist is in denial that you have it, huh?

When we did the disability process, we didn't completely focus on 'we are split so..'
we played it up like any interview and may have **cough** exaggerated **cough-cough** some of our more disabled sounding features.
like, we didn't say 'i cant work because im split'.
We said 'i can't work because i black out, and employers don't like it when you missed several days without calling in'.
We got accepted for disability first try, which our counselor said is unheard of, but we also had a 'diagnosed-did' letter from him in our hand.
we also, during the one hour eval with a doc we had to do. we didnt let her lure us into speaking in singlese. it was almost insulting. "do you ever hear voices in your head?" uhh, yeah always. sometimes i hang with them and yak at the frontrunner too. "what makes you feel u are split?" well actually the personalities that dug me up out of comatose told me thats what was going on so I've just kinda always gone with it.

we got disabled'd too. lotta blind people, one of em learned how to use the eyes through some teamed up dissociating something-something(got someone else to use them for him while he fronted, it took some practice apparently). we got alotta not-so physical stuff... anxiety attacks around ppl, we got a paranoid claustrophobic somewhere in here. stuff like that.

If your therapist thinks your ppl are 'faking' disabilities just because your others can use whatever just fine, then maybe you should tell him the wonders of paying attention in class, so that in his next life, he'll know two things about his profession and won't be a complete ignoramous.

good luck?
Candy of Changelyng

our therapist

[reinahada.livejournal.com]

Our therapist has supposedly been working with multiples for many years, we think she said 20, but we might have mis-heard. Regardless of how long she's been working with multiples, it was our third session when she said that we were parts ... and would not accept our view that we are complete people who just happen to share this body. We're parts and we have to use her terms ... she told us that in almost those words.

Distraida-Melinda

Re: our therapist

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

*eyeroll* $#% doctors who won't listen to the clients or take the clients' word for something.

On the other hand she probably would get her ass handed to her by her superiors if she did listen to you about that and dared to depart from the holy sacred guidelines. Multiplicity as individuals who share a body is very much of a no-no in today's psychiatric world. Doctors can't discuss it either in an academic or clinical way without losing their rep and possibly their job.