Depression

[hearthstone-ds.livejournal.com]

I am not sure what to do about this depression that the system has slipped into. It is making it difficult to go to work or to even try to find a new job which is something that really must happen since most of the depression has to do with the job. And so far all we have managed to do is block ourselves from moving forward. We defeat ourselves whenever we can and do not know how to stop doing that. We are tired of living the way that we do, but do not know how to make it different, or are scared to try or something. And we just want to be able to have a roof over out head a nd a place for the dog and the cats. But we can't even take care of ourselves much less anyone else. All these people around us they think we are so strong because of the things we have done. And to us it means nothing. Not when even getting a big degree doesn't let us get paid for our work. We still have to try and figure out how to live for at least 2 more years before we can get paid decent money, enough to live off of. That is just not right. We hate this society that values nothing. ANd she hates that we sound like such a victim. She says we are not a victim and we can do this. Its too cold to sleep int he car, I dont care if it is california. its cold at night.

My heart is hurting so bad it feels like it is going to break.

And at this point I can't even cry. Some professional I am. Im a wreck.

doesn't matter who i am all that matters is i am with them.

Comments

[uzielnz.livejournal.com]

You just have to make the conscious decision to be happy and move foward from there one step at a time.

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

Say, have you tried St. John's Wort?

Meds in general

[hearthstone-ds.livejournal.com]

We do not do meds. Of any sort. well okay we do like advil and on a rare occasion will take some anti anxiety, but that is very rare. we do not do antidepressants. They work opposite and are the largest part of how we eneded up on dissability. They work great for some people, not for me. And yes i have tried lots so not really looking for a "medical" solution, i have doctors for that and everything. Just venting. Sometimes just need to vent and be heard.

Re: Meds in general

[omertaortygia.livejournal.com]

sorry for the late response, but I just read this... St Johns Wort is a herb and can be made into a tea, it has natural antidepressant tendancies.

I hope you are feeling better by now anyway :)

Re: Meds in general

[hearthstone-ds.livejournal.com]

St Johns Wart is a natural SSRI which makes it the herbal equivalent of a medication. All medications have been originally derived from herbal products. While I apprecitate the herbal aspects of many things just because it is an "herb" versus a "med" does not make the essential effects all that different. There are still side effects in many instances etc etc etc. My point is that I have had doctors and homeopathists and naturopaths and accupuncturists etc. I am very well informed on the topic. I do not seek medical advice through a medium like this, as I cannot verify anyone's credentials to be handing out that advice. It is also dangerous, in my mind, to attempt to do so as you do not know what might harm another person, even with the best of intentions. It is a personal pet peeve of mine, and I appologise if what I am saying sounds harsh. I have learned a valuable lesson, just to keep my mouth SHUT. Because everytime I mention depression everyone wants to run to fix it. Sometimes its okay to just have it BE and have that be frustrating and upsetting and confusing. It isn't me being broken its me being ME. Im not broke I dont need fixing. For me it often helps to simply voice it, but I can't do that because when i voice it I then have to explain and tell everyone every time that I am just venting and please do not give me advice or tell me life will get better or to look for the silver linging. That is not what I need, I know those things, I have always known those things. If life never got better I would not be here at all. That i know these things is why I am a survivor and not a victim.

depression

[velyrhorde.livejournal.com]

*hugs hearthstone*

Depression is something I do understand, as I am bipolar. THAT is where therapy comes in quite handy - a lot of depression involves unhealthy thinking habits (like, where you feel like a piece of dog shit and tell yourself 'why bother' and more and more)

One thing I do when - and as a bipolar that is NOT "if" but a big, fat, ugly WHEN - I get depressed every year is, I try to physically travel somewhere. Hopefully somewhere I've never been, or not been lately. If I can't afford to spend a few days in a hotel or camping, then I try to get out of my house and DO something different. Last weekend I actually went to church (OK, OK, don't faint or anything) - it was a Unitarian church, which accepts all religions including pagan, so I actually enjoyed the hell out of it. I also signed up for NaNoWriMo this year *points to icon*

Healthy thought of the day for depressive persons reading this: "REALISTICALLY this is a shitty mood. I've had them before. I'm going to grit my teeth and hang on for one more day until it goes away."

[bshai.livejournal.com]

2 cents from a lurking singlet.... change the channel in your head. When I get down and don't want to stay down, I try to listen to happier music, goofy music (i.e. Hamster Dance).

I watch tv and try to get absorbed into the movie/show, I read a good book, I go someplace I haven't been to for a while, I go talk to someone to vent or to hear how things are going for THEM.... currently I've been walking around and checking out Xmas light decorations...

I guess, do whatever gets your mind off your situation for a bit and then come back/attack the situation with a new aggression.