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[maxiyoshi.livejournal.com]

Did the "beginning" of anyone here's DID/MPD begin after childhood?

Just trying to figure a few things out with me.

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[whispersong.livejournal.com]

discovering one is multiple or becoming so in some fashion?

{J}tatiana

[maxiyoshi.livejournal.com]

becoming so in some fashion.

i've read of several multiples not remembering ever not being a multipe, i.e. they were born with it.

this is just a question for those who aren't that way, and think/know it happened after childhood.

[cirape.livejournal.com]

I'm fairly certain ours started after childnood, but I can't be completly positive.
At any rate, we didn't become aware of it until after high school, if that counts for anything

[obsidianfoxfire.livejournal.com]

I didn't find out I was a multiple until my freshman year in high school during one of my classes. I think it was English... Very confusing. :p

[maxiyoshi.livejournal.com]

???

Share your story?

[obsidianfoxfire.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure what part you want... I'm still not 100% sure why I actually am a multiple. I was molested as a child, but my issues around integration make me think maybe there was more to it then that. Now I see that things surrounding my depression (bad experiences with meds that made me feel out of my body when I was in junior high) might have something to do with it, along with numerous other things. I technically integrated during the late winter/early spring of my sophomore year, but I haven't ever really stopped grieving about it. I guess that's why I'm confused about it right now... It was pretty much a forced integration because someone I was close to at the time didn't like my multiplicity. Anyway...

If you mean you want to know more about when I found out I was a multiple, I was in the middle of class. I'm pretty sure it was English, and all of a sudden I was very dizzy and someone was talking to me. Actually, she was pretty much just cursing at me because she didn't know where she was or why she was there. It was pretty freaky... She was a dragon (Otherkin... it was such a relief to see other posts here when I joined recently that mentioned other people having otherkin members in their system... after integrating I had convinced myself I was crazy) and she was completely pissed that she was in such a weak body with such a weak person. Functioning in school was pretty difficult, but I eventually managed to connect with some people I trusted enough to tell them about Ffraga.

I don't know if I managed to answer what you wanted to know. Sorry if I managed to cover everything but what you wanted.

[maxiyoshi.livejournal.com]

No no you answered it. :) I was wondering what the first transition time was like for you in your English class. Mine was a little different but with some similiarities, i.e. the dizziness.

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure what part you want... I'm still not 100% sure why I actually am a multiple.

There doesn't necessarily have to be a 'why.' You might be better off simply accepting the fact that you are part of a group and living that way, instead of worrying about whether there's a reason for you to be multiple.

[euvie.livejournal.com]

I am still trying to figure out if I am one or many. I briefly thought I was many back in grade 8, but I gave up on trying to figure it out since then. I know I am very moody and I have different opinions on thinsg at different times, but I would really need to talk about it to someone more aware of that sort of thing to figure myself out, really.

[whispersong.livejournal.com]

you can email me off this comm if you wish or post a comment under this w/contact info. we'll be happy to discuss things w/you if you so wish.

{J}tatiana

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

You could try talking to those you think might be separate people, or leaving notes for them, and seeing if they respond.

[msoya.livejournal.com]

First, I read this community, but haven't joined or posted before. If I shouldn't be posting without joining, feel free to delete this.

Secondly, this body only had one resident until it was about 10 years old, unless you count a non-sentient pet cat :P I don't know if that counts as 'after childhood', though.

[gia1977.livejournal.com]

Well I didn't find out about my inner crew until a year ago. I was not aware of them, not really... until a year ago. Now, I'm starting to piece them together. I couldn't tell you when it started or whatever, but I guess it was in pre-school or so.

[whispersong.livejournal.com]

the last core we had found out in a rather nasty fashion. An ex-g/f of theirs switched out to one of her protectors who was quite a violent & nasty person sometimes. when she did so, this systems P (Who is stil with us & was/is not the only P) came out unexpectedly to meet this other girl.

They partied all night, talked, & stayed up very very late, blocked out the memories of the event & wrote a note on the computer to the two cores. They finally went inside again after about a 20 hour period of time. The cores ex knew that she had another person inside of her but wasn't aware of how many there were nor was she absolutely certain her P was really "real". These two P's finally fell in love & the relationship between them that ensued was both violent sometimes, loving & more often than not very D/s & S/M oriented. Up till then our core had no clue anyone existed inside her mind.

{J}tatiana

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if this question technically applies to us, since we don't have a disorder, but if what you mean is when we became multiple, some of us think we were just plain born that way. But I don't see any reason why someone can't become multiple after childhood, why it wouldn't be possible. I think the belief that it has to be in childhood is due to the fact that many early (non-multiple) theorizers on multiplicity, like Cornelia Wilbur, were psychoanalysts influenced by Freud, and Freudian theory generally holds that the personality is totally and completely formed by the age of five and cannot be significantly changed afterwards. I've always found that theory pretty dubious though-- about as dubious as the idea that women's psychology is based around the desire to have a penis. ;P

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

If you're talking actual multiple personality disorder and not merely using the term DID/MPD to indicate multiplicity in general, I recall seeing some studies in the Journal of Multiple Personality and Dissociation sometime in the late 1980s, discussing the experiences of several Vietnam veterans who showed no signs of multiplicity before their tour of duty, but had at least two distinct selves after. I cannot remember any details, but I'm sure this information is available somewhere, perhaps through the ISSD.

There is very little information on adult onset MPD due to the factors described by sethrenn^Shiu above, and none whatsoever, to the best of my knowledge, on adult onset multiplicity. Since DID is considered to be a mostly iatrogenic fantasy of adult clients who merely imagine they have many selves, I suppose one could make a case for adult onset DID.

The entire theory of multiplicity or MPD as invariably arising from childhood trauma is suspect. Unfortunately, no new research is being done at this time; professionals won't touch it anymore.

[kuponutmalt.livejournal.com]

I think I became multiple in eighth grade. I don't really know how it happened because all the system members at that point are now no more. We weren't abused, although I won't rule out neglect. However, I do recall becoming more than one as somewhat of a conscious decision--although it kind of spiraled out of control after that.